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Love

I think in life the most important love you can ever have is for your work.  And I think the most important aspect of a life partner is that they share your love for your work, and that you share their love for theirs.

Work is reliable.  It will never leave you.  And it defines you.  What you value says who you are, clearly.

And just as there are many ways of people relating to one another, there are many ways to relate to work, and many forms of work to love.

But what I think all share is a sense of being present, of being engaged, of feeling good, and of the commitment of energy.

Freud said the keys to happiness where love and work, but I would suggest that for most people work is vastly more important.  You can love a person, but what do you do with them?  Does fucking feel as good when you’ve been doing it for ten years?  Twenty?

What does feel as good?  A quiet day after a long week?  Yes, I think so.  Conversations about shared passions.  Yes.  And what is the main passion of most of us?  Our work.

They say you should not define someone by what they do for a living, which is somewhat true, but I think people who choose long term to stay in a field cannot but adopt they mindsets and habits of that field.  Cops are cops.  Doctors are doctors.  Accountants are accountants.  Sales people are sales people.  Construction workers are construction workers.

And the point, to me, is not that any one kind of work is better than another.  It is that every form of work offers an opportunity to share love and attention with the world, to bring your best.

Nothing can be more deadening to the soul than to lack work, to lack purpose, to lack an outlet for creative energy.  And there can be no more pernicious belief than that work is bad and being lazy is good.

Being lazy IS good sometimes, but only in the context of a larger purpose.  Whitman spent a lot of time lounging.  But he also wrote Leaves of Grass.  He was not really lounging: he was drinking Life, and that is work.

And I will comment that we conflate work with effort, and effort with difficulty and pain.  But look, as one obvious example, at Donald Trump: he LOVES what he is doing.  He’s not working: he’s playing.  He’s enjoying himself.  Work is the natural result of loosening the restraints on yourself.  It is an outflowing every bit as natural as water flowing downhill.   It is only when we fear it, when we reject it in advance, that it comes to be scary.

And to be sure, there can be too much.  Too much is not good.  But that means something is out of balance.

It is often forgotten that one of the main criticisms Marx made of “Capitalism” as it existed in his day, was that it deprived the individual of the feeling of the value of his labor.  However, this was not then and is not now a necessary consequence.  I myself have had jobs where I spent the day filing, or answering phones, or inputting data.  You can make all a pleasure by engaging fully with them, by making games of it, by offering your self, rather than your resistance and resentment.

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Confusion

One of the emotional qualities needed, I think, for spiritual growth, is the ability to tolerate emotional and intellectual confusion.  You don’t always know what you are doing, or what is happening.  Labels are impossible.  You have to allow it to happen.

All intellectual paradigm shifts pass through a period of uncertainty and confusion, until new information perhaps a reorganization on what is hoped to be a higher, more comprehensive level.

And I would submit there is an emotional analogue.  Emotions have a logic and form, and habitual pathways, which, too, are amenable to reorganization, provided one is sufficiently receptive to what amounts to a logic of self organization without intellectual input.

Put another, simpler way: you cannot grow without confusion.  I don’t think it is possible.  If you cannot tolerate confusion, you have permanently limited yourself.  This inability is both a source of, and a sign of, constraint and smallness.

And I would submit that, paradigmatically, this inability underlies most of the present failures of Western science.  It underlies Stephen Pinker’s rejection of Attachment Theory.  It underlay Stephen Hawkings atheism.  It underlies the failure of people like Richard Wiseman to admit that a superabundance of evidence in support of psi is actually meaningful and should lead to their acceptance that there is in fact an unknown force at work which warrants serious scientific attention by the mainstream.

Put yet another way, if you have to be who you have always been, you will get your way.  No one is stopping you from being small.  Indeed, no one can. 

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Bon Mot

There is no need to put lipstick on an invisible pig.
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Spirituality

I am slowly calming down and seeing more clearly.  I am dreaming in recent days of journeys in the mountains at 8,000 feet, and of extensive work projects deep in the ocean.

And it occurs to me this morning that we are so fallen as a society that it is hard, very hard, for most of us to conceive of spirituality as something other than a means of doing some combination of selling books and getting laid.  These seem to be the aims of most of those who we have to choose from as role models and guides.

And I want to be clear that it is not Capitalism which has absorbed spirituality.  The Silk Road–which did so much to breed the spiritual traditions of Central Asia–was Capitalism, Capitalism fettered by many restraints by many rulers, which in their effect amounted to restrictions of the sort socialism imposes, and often to the same purposes: some combination of palace building by the ruler, and gifts showered from the sky to keep people docile and pacified.  There is nothing new, now, other than that we have achieved vastly more freedom than ever before.

What has changed is that God has been removed from the classroom.  God is not an acceptable purpose of life.  God is not a focus of life.  The Eternal sits on a dusty shelf in a back room, while we watch “The Walking Dead”, do our best to drink the best booze, and go on vacations which create sufficiently good selfies that we make others jealous.

And every once in a while something intrudes to cause you to buy a Marianne Williamson or Eckart Tolle book.  You do some sort of boujie retreat at Kripalu or Esalen.  But have you changed the structure of your life?  Are you doing something deeper than playacting the part of profundity?  Would you give your life for what you believe?  Are you willing to suffer for it over a long period of time, the way, for example, Christians and others are suffering from Islamic Arab atrocities in the Middle East?  The way the Jews have suffered everywhere, clinging to their ancient religion rooted in a place they were banished from for nearly two millenia?

I don’t mean to be cruel, but it is hard for me, sometimes, literally knowing no one who lives in the places I live, who sees what I see.  I am ripped apart daily, and reassembled.  And so it goes.  It is not quite true to say I suffer, therefore I am, but it is true to say that I choose to suffer, which means I have chosen a difficult path.

My work continues, and I feel I am making progress.  I will take on the world alone, if need be.

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Radical Zeal

It just hit me that the same emotional energy which led the West to try and Christianize the world is behind efforts to destroy traditional linguistic structures based on gender, and to treat as hateful anyone adhering to the obvious scientific truth that there are only two genders when biological replication happens in a healthy and normal way.  You are a girl with a vagina and a uterus, or a boy with a penis and testicles.  These are the only two options.

But this ENERGY which is flowing into the public space is one of spiteful evangelism.  It is, I now realize, what I described in my poem about Change.  Accomplishing actual aims is not the intent.  The intent is to move away from an enormous nervous tension which has to find an outlet somewhere.  There is not actual thinking going on behind all this–other than as a thin, dull patina which can easily be characterized as imbecilic–but rather a rationalization of energies which make no sense.

No sanity is possible where high tension is present.  This is a simple biological fact, in my view, and the further fact is that most of the people willing to do the work to become professionals in nearly any field are animated by tension.  If you do nothing more profound than weaken the philosophical underpinnings of their work and lives, they will spin out of control in all sorts of directions. Our system worked when it made sense to everyone.  The tension was contained.

But now, most of our best universities are teaching that life has no purpose and that we are merely seemingly clever but random agglomerations of various chemicals which mean nothing, and will all soon pass away.  Unless we become machines.  But those are the options.  And I would ask: does the question of the meaning and purpose of life become less relevant even if some means can be found to embody consciousness in something more durable than a human body?

I would submit that machines can be engineered to accomplish nearly any How, but Why will always remains a human question, one which is not in need of vast reams of data.  It is answered in the heart.  It is, in important respects, fundamentally a simple question, one demanding a simple answer.  Nothing else will do, emotionally.

Violent evangelism is a feature which originated in the West, in Christianity, although I suppose we could blame the Greeks somewhat, since they did tend to want to impose cultural hegemony in addition to political hegemony, in marked contradistinction to the Persians.  They thought they were better than everyone, and knew best in all areas of life.

Christianity became Islam, and both of those energies animate those who ban people from Twitter for saying there are only two genders.

I have spoken from time to time of the philosophical importance of “this”, by which I mean a pointed finger.  What cannot be spoken can still be understood.  Wisdom reveals calm.  Intelligence shatters it.  The two are not incompatible, but the mind needs to know it must, in the end, be subordinate to what cannot be spoken.

I will continue to point to the philosophical importance of Kum Nye as a pathway to Shunyatta, to pure Presence.

On that note, I was reading another tired effort to justify the work and existence of Jacques Derrida the other day.  The Buddhists preceded him by several millenia, and exceeded him in every possible way.  It’s farcical that he did not simply take up Buddhist practice, and stop pretending he had something useful to say.

I will comment, though, that there was one interesting element.  Consider the following in light of the recent efforts at cultural suicide by most Western European nations, perhaps particularly France:

If one were to select a key term in Derrida’s ethical outlook, it might be hospitality. He was active in promoting the rights of the sans-papiers in France and in championing cities of refuge, and his whole cast of thought rests on a willingness to welcome what is outside the accepted norms of the academic disciplines and of culture more widely. The very motor of human and social existence at its fullest is openness to what may come, and this openness is directly related to the absence of a fixed ground: arche-writing, différance, the trace-structure – these alternatives to presence all imply the inevitability of change, the healthy contamination of the inside by the outside, the dominant by the excluded, the possible by the impossible.

This last pair may seem a mere rhetorical flourish, but Derrida in fact took the question of impossibility very seriously. Hospitality is impossible, he tells us. To be truly hospitable would be to wholly surrender one’s control over one’s property in order to allow the guest complete freedom, with disastrous results (perhaps for the guest as well). So we necessarily hedge our hospitality around with conditions and limits; but we can’t even call it hospitality unless it is underwritten by that impulse of unconditional welcome. The same goes for giving, forgiving, loving, mourning, justice: all are impossible, but their impossibility is what makes them the ethical values they are.

This is a good example of what I call the “Treasure of Santa Vittoria” principle.  In that story, the Germans had conquered an Italian village which had hidden all its wine.  The Germans were ordered to find it.  They looked exhaustively, Grundlich-ly, throughout the village.  No stone was left unturned.  It was a masterpiece of German thoroughness.  They didn’t find anything.  Then on the way out they noticed a cave, and one of the junior offices said: maybe we should look there?  The senior officer says, in effect, fuck it.  I’m tired.  Of course, that is where the wine was.

Derrida is famous for doing painstakingly long close readings of various texts.  His language is laborious.  His reasoning contorted and reflexive.  But he goes through this long effort to undermine the ethical underpinnings of Western civilization, then by way of recompense simply defaults to the cultural traditions he had learned by the time he was four in Algeria.  The great Professor teaches what he was taught as a small child by his mother.  He has not grown in any way.  He has not seen what was obvious, which is that there is tremendous value in our traditions, not least their ability to adapt, grow, and increase in self understanding and knowledge, none of which were things he tried to contribute to.

[Edit: it occurs to me I can be more clear: the point of a search is to find.  You cannot have a search if you are not looking for something which you can describe in some way.  It can be a more clear intellectual understanding, or it can be an emotional state or both.  Greater harmony, for example,  has been a common goal. 

What Derrida created was a method which was its own end.  Reading texts his way WAS his work.  If you are doing something for its own sake, that is not a serious intellectual pursuit, but a hobby.  He would have done less harm had he dedicated himself to building model airplanes, or moving rocks in one pile to another then back again, like Camus’ absurdist hero in “The Plague”]

It is maddening seeing what is or was possible, and how close things came, and may come, to being much, much better.

We have been gifted the ability to make and read maps.  Why would we consciously and intentionally burn them and turn off the lights, simply because some imbecile pointed out that maps are not ACTUALLY the territory and that mistakes remain possible?  OF COURSE mistakes remain possible.  Just stop being a fucking arrogant douchebag and over time we will get it all figured out, better than now.

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Democrats: Party of Traitors

As I think about it, the whole current and presumably future focus of the Democrats is allowing illegals to vote.  They are doing it illegally now, through corrupt election officials, and intentionally slack voting procedures, but the intent is to deploy nationally the “California Miracle”, whereby people who voted for free stuff in their home country, and destroyed it, come here and vote for free stuff again, thereby spreading the disease, at the cost of people who in the main do not deserve it.

DEMOCRATS SPEND NO THOUGHT AT ALL NOW ON HOW TO IMPROVE THE LIVES OF PEOPLE BORN HERE.  Yes, self evidently, they mouth pieties about how they “care”, and how they are the “protectors of the middle class”, all while they pursue policies which hurt the poor and working classes the most.

They are rooting more for the well being of people born in other nations who do not speak English, and who came here illegally, than they are the blacks, the poor Latinos, and others who were born here, and who should be their first priority.

Republicans are the ONLY ones who are even trying to pursue policies which help everyone.  They are the only ones left who are even trying to help actual Americans achieve better lives.

This is madness, mass madness.  It is the result of people never being educated in critical thinking, and learning instead to trust the authority of a media which is plainly corrupt, plainly in cahoots, plainly fascistic in temperament and behavior.

Yes, it really is that bad.  There is no principle involved but power.  It is not an honest difference of opinion, based on a shared, pro-American sympathy: it is a difference in whether or not America has the right to be free and prosperous, or whether our “crimes” deserve a punishment to be dished out by Democrats leaders, using foot soldiers they imported from other lands.

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Stacey Abrams

What she has done is take the refusal to concede to the next level, and provide a template for future Republicans.

What is astonishing is the actual audacity on display when, with ZERO evidence, she is claiming FRAUD, when just south of her patent fraud is happening in support of Democrats, and when patent fraud seems to have been present in many places, in many races.

Is there any reason, for example, not to assume that the true Blue Wave in California had much to do with empowering people here illegally to vote?

And as far as the people here illegally, the simplest thing to do is NOTHING.  Don’t let them vote.  Require proof of citizenship and identity to vote, if we can someone get sanity injected into the system.  Don’t naturalize them, deport them as they commit crimes, build the wall, and do everything possible to shrink the economic incentives to be here.  Let California, and California alone, bear the weight of providing social services to people who are not paying in.

Make the people here illegally as heavy as possible on the systems which choose to support them.  And sooner or later, America will become less attractive. 

I do think they just elected another socialist in Mexico, though, so that will continue to be a shit hole.

The whole world is filled with fucking idiots, and it makes things WORSE when our most educated, who should be the smartest, are the ones pushing the cart downhill, after so much effort to get this far.

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Three points

1. When it comes to intelligence, there are really two aspects: one, your native ability, and two, how willing you are to do the WORK of thinking.  Many, many people are not willing to do the work even to rise to the level of their native intelligence.

2. Jones’ signal contribution is nothing more or less than pointing out that as technology becomes more perfect, the ability of a State to control the behavior, and even the thoughts to some great extent, of their populace will expand.  Given that there is no principled objection to the abuse of power among our power elite–given, indeed, that most of them are calling for a global government, and restrictive rules to stop whatever they say they are worried about this month–that this regime will slowly and imperceptibly take power over all of us is more or less like saying water will flow downhill.  It is logically obvious.  It is inevitable, unless we object strongly, clearly, and across a wide enough swathe of the population.

Perhaps we could even extrapolate from Moore’s Law that every eighteen months the potential power of a technocratic totalitarian regime will double also.

3. I read that Venezuela is rolling out a Chinese style social credit system, which in effect rewards the most compliant with things.  We  will see how it works there, given that there is nothing to distribute, but in China the fascinating thing about this is that they have in effect elevated bourgeois values to the level of State Religion.  They are not asking that people comply with Communism, but rather are promising to give the True Believers, or at least the most conformist, more stuff than everyone else.

It is a full circle.  It is astonishing.  The “Communists” have created an oligarchic regime which is authoritarian, anti-democratic, highly elitist, oriented in the main around personal financial gain, and which publicly espouses all the values which the Communist intellectuals of the 20th century despised.

They have recreated old school  Chinese despotism which has been there off and on for well over 2,000 years, and done their best to turn its people into stereotypical Americans.  This, at a cost of 50 million or more lives, after the destruction of the lives and minds of billions.

This is the world we live in.

Ideas, and the intelligence behind them, matter.  They matter a great deal.  In the long run, very little else matters.

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Children of the REEEE

We make fun of snowflakes, but in a real sense, it isn’t funny.  If my hypothesis is correct, a great many of them suffer from what amount to Character Disorders, which is a fairly severe form of mental illness. 

As I understand it, in the Freudian typology most psychiatry still adheres to, you have three levels of mental illness: Neurosis, Character Disorder, and Psychosis.

Neurosis is, as one example, the way Woody Allen presents himself (although I would suspect he is in reality what they call an Anti-Social Personality Disorder, or sociopath).  Psychosis is most obviously Schizophrenia, although I do believe true Bipolar Disorder is listed here too.  It is certainly medicated as what amounts to a neurochemical disorder.

In the middle you have Borderline Personality Disorder, Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder, and Narcissistic Personality Disorder (and perhaps others I have forgotten).

What we see in the streets with the REEE gang is literally, clinically, a form of mental illness.  It is certainly a failure of basic psychological maturation, but it is in my view in most cases worse than a prolonged adolescence.  People reach middle and even old age like this.  It’s the guy with gray hair ponytail who’s always angry about something, and who flies into fits at random intervals.

And people misuse this term “Bipolar”.  They use it when someone flies into a rage over nothing. That’s not bipolar, that BPD, or so I understand it.

BPD, at root, is a profound, existential level feeling of inferiority and worthlessness.  And what else could be built by people who get praise for nothing their whole lives, who live easy, worthless lives, and who still have to find some way to justify their existence?

You cannot separate the ideas on parenting, and on social responsibility, from what has emerged nationally politically.  Social responsibility used to be a sense of accountability to those around you, to your family, your friends, your community, your country.  It has devolved into voting for one party, and shouting at everyone who disagrees with you politically.

The whole thing is sick.  It makes me feel a bit better to give a better name to it, but it also makes me wonder how we ever get sanity back, when this insanity is doing much of the defining of what constitutes sanity.

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White guilt

The notion of white guilt is that people who are innocent of any wrong-doing should be punished, so that people who have suffered no crime can be recompensed.

It is as naked a power grab, as naked an effort at outright, state-sponsored theft, as can be imagined.

Politically, it is simply an extension of the notion of government as Santa Claus, where you vote benefits rather than earn them.