Month: January 2022

I would suggest that, in American culture at least, the major relevant difference between male and female psychology is the degree of control men need over their lives and situations.

Women, until recently, were expected to lose their family home and their family name.  By and large, they accepted this.

They were expected to work more for less recognition, at least in most places and with respect to most men.

Here is what I will say, about me: I recently realized that perhaps the worst crime my mother committed was destroying my feminine self.  I don’t know how she did it, but she did.  I saw this in a dream.  I also saw her as she really is, which was pretty unpleasant, but still useful.

And what I am finding is that, for me, growth is consisting less in what I do than in what I am accepting, what I am welcoming, and the defenses I am removing.  Flow only happens when you start to bring down the walls.

I was trying and failing to describe Tantra to someone the other day, and I will put it this way at this moment: Tantra is the experientially based understanding that the path to all wisdom lies through the senses.  It may be that all this is an illusion.  But it is a very convincing illusion, and if you want to get to the other side, you cannot simply will the sum total of your awareness to disappear.  You have to know in detail who you are–which is to say how you appear to be at this level of reality–and that consists in the sum total of your experience, which is to say thoughts, memories, and sense impressions of all sorts.

The argument for a free press mainly situated in the private, for profit sector is simple: if one central agency, like a government, controls the money, then they control the content.

And in contemplating how so much fucking stupidity has been voiced publicly by people WHO KNOW BETTER, it occurs to me that the NIH and CDC and others really have many universities over a barrel.  If they break with the official line, they get cut off. Daddy won’t pay the bills any more.

And many of these Directors have to have had sleepless nights, spent getting drunk, looking at a Super Doctor like Peter McCullough being unceremoniously shown the door after a lifetime of dedicated and effective service, and comparing  that to the relatively, seemingly, lower cost of just being a whore.

Nobody knows what happens behind closed doors, right?  If you, the head guy or gal at some major hospital or medical school, get down on your knees and perform unspeakable acts of hypocrisy and deceit, nobody will be the wiser, right?  After all, you are just supporting the Official Narrative.  Nobody can call you out for that, right?

That is the world we live in.

And every day I see some new assault on my capacity to believe that ANY honest professional truly believes any of this bullshit.

Look at the COVID dashboard for Vietnam: https://covid19.who.int/region/wpro/country/vn

What you see is NO DEATH UNTIL THE VACCINES ARRIVED, some time in the middle of 2021.  Given that there was no death, why the FUCK did they engage in a massive “vaccination” campaign?

There is no good answer.  The most plausible one is that Pfizer or whoever paid off senior Party officials to order their serfs to line up and play Russian Roullette with medicines none of them would touch with a ten foot pole.  And those medicines, directly or indirectly, killed tens of thousands of people.

“Yeah, my friend and me try to go somewhere every year about the same time, because we have birthdays within three weeks of each other.  Last year, after the vaccines finally became available, we figured the pandemic was over and started planning.  Boy were we wrong.”

Do you remember that?  The affective resonance of “vaccine”, as in cure, as in preventative, as in this thing is OVER, like Smallpox and Whooping Cough?  I do.

And then it was you would not have to wear masks if you got the jab.  Remember that?  It was a seductive argument, then they pulled the rug out from under all the people naive enough to believe them.

And now, what we know is that the jabs don’t seem to do much of anything against Omicron, and all the nations that did the most poking of needles into people’s arms seem to be not any better off than those which did not, and it’s not hard to argue or believe they are WORSE off.  I have in mind Israel in particular, whose leadership seems to have taken on a patently anti-Semitic tone.  Certainly mass involuntary medical experimentation is again under way.

We know that the jabs don’t reduce rates of infection all that much, at least with this variant.  This reduces them to a medicine which is supposed to make the disease less dangerous.  You are less likely to be hospitalized if you have had 2 or 3 jabs, they tell us, in the last whimper of a rationale.

But I don’t think even THAT is true.  I’m not going to spend an hour scouring data, but certainly at a minimum there is not a LARGE difference.  UK hospitals are filled with vaccinated people, and so are those in many other nations.

And if we put that on the table as the only argument left, that the jabs will reduce your risk of dying from COVID, then we have to put on that table as well–on the other side, as counterbalance–the patent FACT that they have side effects which carry risk profiles of their own, and which include SUDDEN DEATH and permanent, life changing injury.

To state the obvious, but to state it because the obvious clearly needs stating and restating and restating in this fallen age, if you die from COVID or die from the shot that is supposed to protect you from COVID, YOU ARE STILL DEAD.  Your body will lose its animation.  You will slowly grow cold.  Eventually something will need to be done with your body, and it will react to the process of rigor mortis just the same, no matter the cause of your premature demise.  Your kids, if you have any, will cry or celebrate the same, and people will tell the same sad or happy stories about you.

So the two should be weighed against each other, should they not?  The best numbers I’ve seen in the past few months were actually from those who had ONE jab.  Not zero and not two or three, but ONE.  If this was the winning strategy, HOW THE FUCK WOULD WE FIND OUT WHEN NONE OF OUR SCIENTISTS ARE SCIENCING HONESTLY BECAUSE THEY ARE NOT ALLOWED TO?

The jabs are medicine.  They are medicines with very limited value and which have side effects that clearly exist, but which no one is admitting, in a patent violation of substantially every principle of medical ethics.

The jabs will not end the pandemic, seemingly not SLOW the pandemic, and arguably will either have no effect on overall long term mortality, or quite possibly even INCREASE IT–by a LOT, if we lend any credence to the hystericists.

If you could distill all this to an image, perhaps using the style of Gary Larson, you could insert it next to the entry in the dictionary for Imbecility, and as a gestalt–a cartoon ideogram–it could also be used as a synonym for Corruption, or what happens when weak minds and spirits are bullied by confident people with a plan and an agenda.

 

You know, if this crop of ghouls and demons is speaking, and making a strong claim, by and large it is a willful falsehood.  When they claim Republicans are engaged in “voter suppression” what they are really objecting to is the suppression of fake votes, illegal votes, which is to say the disenfranchisement, in reality, of a number of voters equal to the number of illegal votes.

In the last election perhaps up to 30% of the black community cast their votes for Donald Trump.  Given that his victory was stolen, that means a third of the black votes cast were disenfranchised.  We are told this is bad, which is true except when it is good.  It depends entirely on the Party’s needs.  Die Partei Ueber Alles.

They claim we are racist, but there is no Republican equivalent to ANY of the Jim Crow laws, even though they claim all the real racists left the Democrats some time in the 1960’s.  Well, if so, where is the evidence?  Where are ACTUALLY racist policies, you know, like separate drinking fountains for blacks (I can’t honestly remember if this has actually been done in the present era yet, since farce and reality are indistinguishable), or separate graduations (has been done), or separate housing (has also been done)?

If the Republicans are the racists, WHERE IS THE EVIDENCE?  I will note Republican hero Barry Goldwater helped found the Arizona NAACP.

Republicans are Individualists.  This does not mean we believe in greed.  We believe in the idea that individuals can be and should be held accountable for their individual actions, but NEVER for the actions of a group in which they belong only accidentally, such as their ethnicity, race, or gender.  That is the defining aspect of Collectivism, which we view as intrinsically unjust and evil.

Intellectually, Conservatism is vastly more interesting philosophically than Leftism.  Marxism consists almost entirely in stupid ideas iterated an inane lengths, all of which have been falsified by the very History that Marx made his God.  It’s a poorly written fantasy novel.

This opposition to Collectivism and support of the Individual as the moral basis of society is REPUBLICAN 101.  This is BEDROCK.  This is a core value.  It is a LIBERAL principle, one which states that all men and women are created equal, and endowed by their Creator with certain inalienable rights, and that among these are life, liberty, the pursuit of Eudaemonia (Jefferson’s intended meaning), and the ownership of property (Locke’s original formulation).

We are reading now, from these horrific people, that banning Critical Race Theory, which has a direct lineage back to the Critical Theory of the Marxist Frankfort School, or so I understand, will prevent teachers from teaching HONEST history.  Truth truth truth.  Truth is under attack.  Teachers won’t be able to teach, we are told.  Bad bad bad.  Vote no on that horrible bill, naive gullible fools are told.

Well, let me give you an example of the sort of thing legislators are trying to ban.  The particular version of this law I am quoting makes teaching any of the following punishable by daily fines of $5,000, to be paid either by the school or the school district.

To be clear, you are not ALLOWED to teach that:

1. One race, sex, or religion is inherently superior to another race, sex, or religion;

 

2. An individual, by virtue of his or her race, sex, or religion, is inherently racist, sexist, or oppressive, whether consciously or unconsciously;

 

3. An individual should be discriminated against or receive adverse treatment solely or partly because of his or her race, sex, or religion;

 

4. Members of one (1) race, sex, or religion cannot and should not attempt to treat others without respect to race, sex, or religion;

 

5. An individual’s moral character is determined by his or her race or sex;

 

6. An individual, by virtue of his or her race, sex, or religion, bears responsibility for actions committed in the past by other members of the same race, sex, or religion;

 

7. Any individual should feel discomfort, guilt, anguish, or any other form of psychological distress on account of his or her race, sex, or religion; or

 

8. Meritocracy or traits such as a hard work ethic are racist, sexist, or oppressive, or were created by members of a particular race or religion to oppress members of another race or religion.

Ponder for a moment–you should not need more–what sort of person would object to the notion, for example, that the chance of a person’s birth should not be used in moral judgement against them.

Now ponder, and this may take a bit longer, how WE GOT TO THE PLACE WHERE THIS DISCUSSION EVEN NEEDS TO TAKE PLACE.

How is any of this not patently and horrifically regressive?

We are at a point where any honest Democrat who sees this sort of shit either needs to raise hell in their own party, or leave the party.

And clearly the Mass Formation Psychosis LONG precedes COVID.  COVID was just layered easily and seamlessly on top of it.  This psychosis is the defining aspect of the Far Left, of the Headless Ones, as I have called them, the core “elite” (what is the word for standing out as a leader in a sea of moral and intellectual mediocrity?) of this mass delusion.

Should we not be long past the point of debating whether or not people should be judged by the color of their skin?

I wake up daily and wonder how we survive SO MUCH STUPIDITY.

I don’t have an answer, but I choose to believe I improve the odds as much as it is possible for me to improve them by posting things like this.

Everyone reading this, if anyone, needs to be fighting these people in their local comments sections, to be debating small points as unacrimoniously as possible with people they know to be Leftists, and in all cases trying really really hard to THINK CLEARLY.  It is so hard.  They make it so hard on purpose.  They are ringing bells and creating constant noise, and when you are continually reacting to the latest atrocity against common sense and common decency it is hard to remember to see the whole of the picture.  That is the aim, and that is the method, obviously.

And to return to the point of debate, big picture stuff is off the table.  What the Left loves to do, and does effectively, is stipulate abstract points, then claim everyone who opposes them opposes those points.  The lifting up of the poor.  Improved race relations.  Justice.  Caring and empathy.  They use these words, and as long as the debate happens at that unanchored, non-specific level you cannot debate that.  It is all insincere cant, consisting mostly in lazy narcissistic self congratulation, but even most of THEM don’t realize that, because they ARE lazy, self congratulatory and emotionally rigid.  It would be, and I hope will be, eventually, emotionally painful for them to realize just how long and how badly they have been failing most the people they claim to care about the most deeply.

But to take one obvious example, you could show this list of teaching being disallowed and ask them if they would want to defend any of them.  That is reasonable, in my view.  And most will not have seen the actual CONTENT of any of these bills.  They are simply accepting–complacently and obediently as usual–the lies being told.

 

 

I tried to remember for a moment how Trump handled war resolutions, then recollected HE DIDN’T START ANY WARS.

But if the Constitution means ANYTHING it means getting Congressional approval prior to involving us in a potentially global war with a nuclear power.

I fear the Russians vastly less than I fear my own government.

This makes me then wonder what it is in the Russians that my government fears.

It’s worth noting Joe Biden took several million in bribes from Burisma in the Ukraine.  And given that NO ONE has looked at his other corrupt activities, there is no reason to think he has not also been bribed by the Ukrainians themselves.

It’s impossible to look at this situation and see the least bit of sanity.  Joe belongs in JAIL, and failing that a RETIREMENT HOME, where he can get a nurse to change his diapers when he shits his pants, since Jill is not that kind of doctor, much less that kind of nurse.

What MADNESS, what folly, to allow this man to even be allowed to CONTEMPLATE war with a major power, when we have ZERO national security interests.  Taiwan, yes.  Taiwan we need to defend.  Ukraine: not our problem, any more than Syria ever was, or than Yemen is.

What a crazy time to be alive.  It’s lunatics running the asylum, and lunatics reporting on it, and psychopaths funding and running it all, all to make money they don’t need and cannot hope to spend.

 

I think emotional strength is much like physical strength: much of it is trained, but a good part of it you are born with.

Obviously, if you lie around on your couch your whole life playing video games, you are not going to be strong emotionally or physically, and I think there is definitely some connection between physical vigor and emotional vigor, but some of it people just can’t help.

We all have breaking points, and they are set at different places for different people.  I realized yesterday that for myself virtually every day of my life I have woken up wondering if today would be the day the weight of my unprocessed and conflicting emotions finally flattened me.  And at the end of every day I sighed a breath of relief, and for many years got drunk.  I have had a Matisse painting on my walls for many years, his “Thousand and One Nights”.  It says, in French, “She saw the morning light begin to pierce the night. She discreetly grew silent.”

She survived every day for three years by her wits and audacious courage, then she lived out her natural years, and saved many lives in the process (although I have to wonder what marrying a mass murderer may have felt like).

I just realized why this made so much sense to me.  I sort of knew, but this is much more concrete.

I may or may not have mentioned an interesting conversation I had in a bar with a former SAS soldier.  In his view the capacity to endure that training was genetic, like the ability to sing.  You either had enough of it or you didn’t (I will insert parenthetically that if that meeting was not purely by accident I did eventually figure out why he was here; I am very sure he thought me, correctly, a dunce at the time.  I am stupid sometimes.  It comes and it goes, and as I’ve noted, being smart and being unconsciously dumb generally feel exactly the same.)

But most people endure to their capacity, and then they don’t.  That point varies by person and it’s not purely voluntary, any more than their scores on the SAT are.  There is a range, but nothing more than a range.

I suppose I am slowly, grudgingly, working my way around to being less judgmental, in saying all this.

And obviously, unless you have walked in someone’s shoes, you don’t know what something FELT like, even if they have described it.  We all have both differing levels of pain tolerance, and differing levels of sensitivity.  A high pain tolerance, low sensitivity person will do well in the SAS.  A low pain tolerance high sensitivity person will be miserable.  That is a likely addict.

And some of us are high pain tolerance, high sensitivity.  We suffer a lot, but by and large suffer productively.  Such people make, I would think, good artists and writers.  I style myself, in my own mind, a creative and insightful sort, and not without some good reason.

I think the future of Pfizer should be a global boycott, and swift ruin.

It is now BEER and Circuses.

It is easier and most likely preferable to accept imperfection than to pursue, across a lifetime, perfection; if you accept imperfection, then natural growth proceeds from there, in the same direction, but more slowly, more organically, and more surely.