I am increasingly of the opinion that most persistent anxiety is caused by unprocessed trauma, and that trauma is processed by activation and motion.
This is more or less the opinion stated here, shared by Barry McDonough [sp?], in a personal interview with an MD. You lean in. You pull the knife or circular saw in, as I saw in my breathwork session. When you realize something terrifies you, you activate that fear, then move, in any direction.
Last night was awful for me, but I woke up peaceful. I asked unconscious parts of me to process an activation of grief, anxiety, and this sense of unreality that had me wondering if I was going to lose it. I fell asleep, but it was like I woke periodically to the sound/sense of battle all night long, with horrible shaking. I got up about 5:30, did a relaxation exercise, and slept peacefully for two more hours. The battle, I feel, is won, although tonight will be the first test.
We all have all the tools we need to process anything, although many will remain unaware of this across their lifetime. This overwork, paradoxically, has been enormously good for me. I am activating grief, then dissolving/releasing it in motion. I am activating trauma, then dissolving/releasing it in motion.
Healing is work. There is no other word for it. It does not just happen.
But large segments of our unconscious know EXACTLY what we need, and are quite willing to provide it.
And I want to be clear that what I am discussing is mainstream psychology. I am referencing techniques most good therapists use every day.
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Yes, I think large segments of my neural network are under reconstruction.
This is a good thing.