Corollary: the hidden will always find a way to speak.
Context: I recently had some interactions with my family. I try to avoid those, and since they live far away, it is not usually very hard.
But without providing too much information, I realized something: I was forced, by the circumstances of my family situation, and my own seemingly congenital passion for truth, into playing the role of the villain in my own family.
Going back many years, I was what I guess some, perhaps all, psychologists call the “Identified Patient”. This is the person, in a sick system, who manifest actual symptoms. They are the ones unable to deal with Orwellian DoubleSpeak, silent emotional violence, profound coldness, and continual outright self serving delusion. They become neurotic, not because they are inherently unhealthy, but because the system is unhealthy, and they lack the capacity for internalizing conflict–to make it outwardly hard to see–and to lie to themselves about their experiences.
It is no exaggeration, I don’t think, that I spent, even in my youth, more hours on the therapists couch than the rest of my family put together. It ripped me apart, because at that time I had no advocates, no one in my corner. Shrinks don’t count, because they are (highly) paid friends. They’ll side with whoever is paying the bills. That is my honest opinion, with regard to most of them. It’s more than a little a whorish business. You can’t make money if people don’t keep coming back.
And what I am feeling now is that people who feel emotional violence on the inside will regularly find ways to make enemies who justify their own violence. As I have commented before, I don’t think it would be exaggerating to say the British Empire was made necessary by their inability to speak emotional truth, and to be open.
And, again, this speaks to Trump Derangement Syndrome. They had to make enemies of us, in order to justify their own inchoate rage. We all need boundaries. We all need defensive barriers, places which are us, and outside of which the world operates separately.
And the essence of Leftist practice and ritual is the denial of self, of family, of place, of country, of religion, of history. Nothing is sacred. Nothing is valuable.
Any animal, denied all this, will become mad with anxiety and defensive rage. Where does it go? At us, at “normals”, of course.
This anger is not even approximately proportionate to anything Trump has ever in his life said or done. It does not come from him. It has virtually nothing to do with him. Its source is elsewhere.
The thing about being cut deeply is you learn a lot about your own emotional anatomy, and there is no reason in my view to fear generalizing much of my own experience to the world as a whole. I am not put together differently than anyone else, in the end. If I am different, it is only because my particular environment evolved me in a particular and unusual direction. That, and I was blessed with a relatively high degree of native intelligence.