I’m inclined at this moment to say that spirituality consists, on one level, in progressively stripping your life of cliches. Not verbal cliches, but affective and behavioral cliches. Being consistent is, I suppose, a good thing, but being too consistent means you are running on autopilot, and that is where you miss all the fun. As Emerson said, foolish consistencies are the hobgoblins of little minds.
Can you predict your own behavior? For me, I can in many contexts. I know if I’m at a particular bar here locally when the music starts I’ll probably stay until they kick me out. That’s a pattern.
But in many respects I surprise myself by what comes out of my mouth, and what I do. I think that might be a good sign. Water, emotion and life flow. They cannot be stacked up like blocks, or rationed in any way without harm.
I think Rumi once said something close to “if you are not insane, you have understood nothing.”