Most people are fearful, lazy, unimaginative and reflexively selfish, even when they go out of their way to sometimes be generous for their own benefit.
To walk your own way, which is necessary, is to be radically alone, at least for a time. There is no other way.
As in so many other things, our age tries to dumb down and make easy everything spiritual. We are told it is about “being nice”. Perhaps it is finding yourself genuflecting to monks somewhere, and saying “his Holiness the Dalai Lama”.
In many respects, when you boil it down, this is not a kind universe. Survival of any sort is not given. We are a miracle planet in the midst of endless nothing.
These thoughts may not be helpful for you, but they are medicine, at this moment at least, for me.