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Running to stand still

I can’t remember it, but it seems impossible I have not mentioned this song here somewhere at some time.  It destroys me every time.  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f3O1Ap41ptU&list=RDt25SpC5pQtE&index=2

Sweet the sin

Bitter taste in my mouth

I see seven towers

But I only see one way out
You got to cry without weeping

Talk without speaking

Scream without raising your voice
You know I took the poison

From the poison stream

Then I floated out of here

You know, this woman is the target of my salvation.  My problem, is that I am crying alongside her.

My job–I feel this clearly–is to find the fucking way out.  It’s my job.  It’s why I’m here.  I feel this grief and alienation so clearly, so cleanly.

One day I hope to be useful.  I will not ever try to claim I am useful, though, until I know how to sleep through the fucking night without shaking and screaming.

My work continues.  You know: I falter often, but in the end, I don’t quit.  Ever.  Ever.

And you know, I would offer my body up in a moment if I could put an end to this.