It might be useful to see most addictions as “life abcesses”. Addiction is merely an outer form, the one taken by the pain which cannot be felt and cannot be expressed in a healthy way.
The word recovery seems to indicate that everything was fine, then you hit a bump in the road, and now you just have to “get back on track”. No: in a great many people things simmer and fester for long periods of time before they erupt in measurable anti-social or self destructive behavior.
I am in my middle age, and am only slowly feeling what happened to me all those years ago.
There is no addiction recovery. There is a reinvention of self.
And there is no healing. There is a release from a cage.