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It is less than obvious, but it has become my firm conviction that those who hurt the most feel the least.  Pain beyond a certain point causes a sort of emotional swelling, which performs the same role for the psyche that actual swelling does for injured limbs: it immobilizes and protects you.  Inflexibility is the outcome of unprocessed emotions, and inflexibility, in turn, is the cause of most misery in this world; it is the rejection of what is, in favor of what was or what one feels should be.

Those who are cruel hurt the most.  This is not obvious, because they will have thoroughly buried their pain, and even appear outwardly in some cases happy.  Yet, we all to some greater or lesser extent built artificial selves, artifacts of experiences we often cannot remember, and in response to social needs.  Any self built upon the need to see pain in others cannot be real, cannot face the world as it is, cannot, in the end, be at peace or ever be fulfilled.

As I watch myself, look inwardly, what I see is that self is almost always tied to the introjection of some authority or principle.  Who you are is who your fathermother was, or what you saw written in some book, or decided at some point.  You are this out of habit.  You repeat patterns.  But is that you?  Is that even a useful question?  We want to be happy, do we not?  Does repetition best serve this end?  I don’t think so.

Increasingly, I feel that the highest attainment is to process the world with full consciousness of all the filters within one, and finally to process it as it is, without filter.  This is of course an old idea, but what I would suggest is that most of what gets called spiritual growth is nothing but the advance of personal emotional well being, and nearly fully encompassed by good psychology.

Few thoughts.

An important point I think many people miss is that for those seeking dominion over the world–despite this being a stock goal of cartoon supervillains, these people do in my view actually exist–it never matters if this goal is being pursued overtly, or consciously.  Those working to support them in their aim may in fact believe they are working for the exact opposite.  Reagan called for smaller government, rhetorically, and no doubt believed in it, but the OUTCOME of his Presidency, what actually happened, was that government expanded tremendously.

Many of the “New World Order” conspiracists think George W. Bush intended to create a police state.  I don’t believe this.  It is sufficient, for Fabian purposes, to have people whispering the right things in his ear, WHICH MAKE SENSE.  Given the supposed extent of the intelligence failure presupposed by the success of the 9/11 attacks, it made sense to create a Dept. of Homeland Security, and a TSA.  Now, the NSA’s Total Informational Awareness was shot down, but has now been quietly resurrected.  Its time was not then, but rather now.

The simple fact is that if water is made steadily hotter by degrees–whether intentionally or not–then it will sooner or later boil.  This is a ridiculously obvious point, but one missed by most nonetheless.

Tried to post here: http://www.nationalreview.com/articles/297488/occupy-s-totalitarian-temptation-charles-c-w-cooke#comment-561348

Page won’t open for some reason.  Internet working fine.  For whatever reason, I am often blocked from posting on blogs, left and right.  This is intended just as a basic catechism of my ideas.  Bit disconnected, but the basics are there.

Ideas have consequences. Seeing this, and articulating where things lead, is the proper role of what are typically called intellectuals, and what I prefer to dress in overalls and call “thought workers”. This class has not done its job in 50 years, by and large, with the exception of William F. Buckley, Brent Bozell and the like.

What instead is presented is a pretend game, an artificial world in which everything is possible, and ideas never lead to concrete outcomes other than protest and other ritually useful forms of social interaction.

Now, it is in my view imposslble to lie to yourself–to ALL parts of yourself–which means that sustained lies necessarily lead, for self described “nice” or “loving”, or “compassionate” people to cognitive splitting. What happens is that if internalized violence is projected “out there”, that the sense of responsibility for it disappears, limits on its use disappear, and that massive and intractable rationalizations become necessary. Psychologically, this is how people like Noam Chomsky or Bill Ayers justify their support of programs of mass torture–physical and mental–rape, capricious imprisonment, suppression of basic human rights, generalized poverty, and of course the implementation of insurmountable systems of class.

When I look at the landscape particularly of our supposedly best universities, what I see is pervasive psychopathology, and cognitive dissonance suppressed only with the power of the routinization of nonsense.

Moral abandonment leads necessarily to cruelty. Any person incapable of a non-ironic, non-contingent moral code will necessarily join a group which tells him or her what to do. If conformity is the only virtue, then power is the arbiter of right and wrong. Those who seek power, seek it to use it. Hence the first sentence in this paragraph.

I explore these issues at some length in this piece, which is nominally about the Vietnam War, but which really just uses that as a jumping off place: http://www.goodnessmovement.com/Page19.html

It is not perfect, but it is in my view solid, and gets to the meat of the matter.

It would be easy to forget that, looking at the complicit media–whose “conservative” side still shills in most cases for something far short of actual conservatism–Ron Paul is still in the race.  I’m not big on videos, but I think this one tells its story better than words: http://www.infowars.com/ron-pauls-delegates-deluge-minnesota-washington-state-louisiana/

We borrow $120 billion a month.  There are no plans by anyone but Ron Paul to seriously address this, and the plain fact is that the demographic wave of Baby Boomers is just starting to hit.  The bleeding on the “entitlement” front has just started, and this will be overwhelming even if Obamacare–which adds a HUGE increase in spending just when we are already tipping over–is overturned.  Romney is simply not serious as an adult or responsible leader.

Our NSA is implementing what will soon be the perfect surveillance state.  If you carry a cell phone, if you drive a car, if you use a credit card, they know where you are, how much money is in your bank, who you associate with, what you say to them, and no doubt have developed computer programs to develop quick and largely accurate psychological profiles of EVERYONE in the country.  People capable of dissidence can be spotted years before they express anything publicly.  A totalitarian state built on modern technology would quite simply be insurmountable in timeframes less than thousands of years, at least without internal dissidence that could be easily eliminated.

Ron Paul’s ideas need to be made mainstream.  The extent of the existential threats we face need to be broadcast far and wide.

I am going to give him another $100.  It is not much, but it will be worth it if he can make the fake conservatives squirm at the Republican National Convention.  I want less flag waving, and more substance.  To be honest, seeing the American flag does not bring out the emotions it used to, not when I contemplate the generalized mediocrity necessary to elect a Barack Obama ONCE, much less twice, or the stupidity expressed in the failure of most Americans to grasp what is actually going on.  Who can be proud of such a people?  Of course, there are many who are awake.  In them lies whatever hope we have of keeping our freedom and dignity.

Can we get back to discussing the Federal Reserve, and the role it plays in taking away our wealth?  Can we agree that it is PECULIAR that a private, invitation-only corporation run by and for certain very large banks has complete control, by law, of our banking system?  Do you realize that when you cash a check, it goes through the Federal Reserve?  It is my understanding that when you use a credit card, it ALSO goes through the Federal Reserve.  They charge for these services, and this is one of the ways that the people who work for them make FAT money, even though the enterprise as a whole–once the salaries and bonuses have been paid–shows no net profit at the end of the year.

Is it the case–do you want to try and argue–that the foxes best understand chickens and are therefore most to be trusted to watch the henhouse?  This seems, to put it mildly, quite dubious to me.

Why do you work so hard?  Because of fractional reserve banking, and the Federal Reserve system which keeps it from collapsing, quite literally daily.  These facts need to be known, and the Left and the Right need to come together in demanding an end to this inequitable system.  Corporations are not and never have been the problem.  They are a source of prosperity.  BANKS are the problem, and the reason all the productivity gains over the last century have translated into MORE hours and less net worth.

They say “everything happens for a reason”.  This is a useful belief, even if we have no way of testing it.  I will submit, though, that a large part of the reason is usually a perception we had or did not have, a decision we made or did not make, and an action we either did or avoided.

Personally, I have never been afraid to make decisions, and never afraid to act.  But I have often failed to understand my motivations, which begins with perception.

As I look at our cultural landscape, and that of other nations around the world, I am increasingly persuaded that most all human activity is in large measure self destructive and unaware, for reasons traceable to common psychological faults, most beginning in childhood.  Quite often, religion exacerbates these faults, rather than curing them.

One time, a King, cruel as kings and fathers sometimes are, decreed that his young son was to be bathed in the town square every morning from birth.  As he grew older, this practice continued, until as a young man he still had to appear fully nude every morning in the village square.  Time and necessity, of course, make all things endurable, and he accustomed himself to this practice.

In due course of time, his father died, and he became King.  He continued this practice.  An adviser pointed out to him: “Sire, you are now the king.  You can end this practice”.  The new King replied: “Ah, but it is the Law of the Land.”

The word “warrior” gets overused.  The task of a warrior is to wage war. This definition is in the word.  War, by definition, involves the use of real or threatened violence.  At its worst, it involves cutting of arms, legs, heads; stabbing, burning, crushing; often it is accompanied, historically, by rape and pillage, the world over, including, of course, by American Indians (some of whom included ritual torture as well).

There is nothing beautiful in war, except to the extent that waging it successfully prevents some other group from doing to your group what you wind up doing to them.  This is the actual, as opposed to the glorified, history.

Overcoming fear, hunger, privations of all sorts: this is of course useful.  But we need a different word.  In my view, rather than making such things heroic, we need–in some future form of our social order–to expect them.  To be a member of a social order is to have faced down such challenges.  As Dan Millman wrote, approximately, the goal is not to be superior in an ordinary world, but ordinary in a superior world.

One day, perhaps a “peaceful warrior” will simply be friend, brother, or neighbor. 

That’s the best I can do for now.  I’m still working on a preferred word.   Ascetic is in the neighborhood, but not quite right.

Just read it for the first time.  Will share a few thoughts.

First, it seems clear to me that Socrates was, as Millman insists, a real person.  But I don’t think he had any of the supernatural (should I use the word “unusual”, since anything possible is “natural”?) powers attributed to him.  I don’t think Joy entered the picture during his career.  I think he found himself a kindly, patient, ersatz father, with whom he did spend many nights talking, and who left a strong, lasting impression on him.

As I thought about the path of the book, it seems to me–this is the conclusion I’ve reached for myself, and of course (agreeing, as I do, with nearly everything I think) I think it reasonable–that happiness is the first step.  You don’t need to fast for a week, or tenderize your feet, or risk insanity facing multiple demon assailants.  The book, in my view, is backwards.  It seems to me you seek first happiness, pleasure in movement, acceptance of what is and will be, and then build that happiness into your work.

We read “there are no ordinary moments”.  In a sense, this is no doubt true.  For years, I trained a martial art in which every training session began with the exhortation “Shikin harimitsu daikomyo”: every moment contains the possibility of enlightenment, or of a great light emerging.

Yet, can you not drive yourself nuts trying to capture EVERY moment?  All the time, you are just there.  You are just washing the dishes; you are just typing a post.  This very process seems to me a process of grasping, of tanha.  It is a greed for experience.

In my minds eye, I picture some woman on a farm somewhere, singing in a slight breeze, while hanging out the laundry, fully engaged with her moment, without realizing she is supposed to be fully engaged.

In all things, there needs to be, it seems to me, a give and take between pursuit, and being pursued.  This point is latent in the book–at one time or another both are advocated, but it seemed particularly salient when Dan was traveling the world trying to find himself, as so many of his generation did.  The answers may have been in rural Appalachia, or maybe in an old black church in a back street in Harlem, if by “answer” we mean people living the way he wanted to live.

This “warrior” motif has always seemed to me designed to appeal to a sense of unrecognized, because denied, machismo.  It is no use lying to yourself, but most everyone does.  You don’t achieve the level of athletic success that Millman did without being hard core macho.  He took a LOT of risks, worked EXTREMELY hard, and was successful.  He was, in his own estimation, manly.  He had ample justification to feel this way.  Yet, when he met Ram Dass, and Da Free John, and studied Aikido, that sense of aggression was no longer appropriate, so he modified not the core reality, but his own way of expressing it.

This, it seems to me, is the source of what I view as the sequencing errors, the placing of the cart before the horse: he wanted us all to know how tough he was, and at that wanted to create (and he clearly succeeded in this) a compelling story.  Nobody reads books about “man met women, they fell in love, had no conflicts, and lived happily forever.”.  This is the aim, in the end, of what Socrates taught Dan, but how dull it SEEMS, because we are used to tying ourselves in knots and calling it freedom.

As I begin to understand myself, why I do what I do, what experiences cause me to react in programmed and unthinking ways to certain situations, the more I realize that psychology is vastly more important than what gets called “spirituality”.  Most people have wounds in their unconscious, which are reflected in–and quite possibly even  constituted by–behavioral and cognitive waste, inefficiency, circling of goals when straight lines are possible.

Dan has the classic characteristics of someone raised by a father whose demands could never be met.  Now, this is guesswork on my part, and quite possibly off by a lot, but this basic process I think has merit.  Dan cannot relax, cannot be happy, because he has been programmed  a certain way all his life.  All the visions Socrates gives him, all the exercises he teaches him, the mindfulness, the mocking of vanity: none of this satisfies him. What he needs is love, love that he thinks he got at home, but probably did not.  It was likely all conditional, upon his continued success.

Alice Miller makes an interesting point in her “Drama of the Gifted Child” that it is very common for children who actually felt a lot of pain to grow up remembering their childhoods as happy.  You have to  adapt, and children can adapt to nearly anything.  But they take those forms of adaptation to adulthood.  Many people, in my view, who want to find “God” actually are still processing psychological wounds.  God is there, I believe this, but most of us are too screwed up to see Him. I am: I will put that out there.

What I think actually happened is he did most of things in the book after he graduated.  He married, had a kid, traveled around, got divorced, met a younger woman, and did in fact fall in love, deeply.  Tracing their original connection back to Berkeley probably had great psychological and romantic appeal.  True love–I have heard–feels like you have known someone forever.  And within my own metaphysics, which considers reincarnation as a virtual certainty, maybe you sometimes do meet people you HAVE known something close to forever.

As I repeat periodically, the most useful “yoga” I have found is the Kum Nye program of Tarthang Tulku, which literally starts with learning to feel again, then with feeling happiness.  I personally have not followed it carefully enough, because I am still untying knots.  Too much shit drifts up too often for now, so I am currently trying to get that cleaned out.  But the system has merit.  I have done enough to know that for certain.

I enjoyed the book.  I found it useful, and no doubt emotionally sincere.  A large part of my own healing has come, though, from ruthless and determined truth-telling, and this is how I see this book.  Most of it is fantasy, but those fantasies do circle around certain truths.  It will not be a re-reader for me, but I would recommend people to read it once.

Compared to most animals, humans take an inordinately long time to achieve full status among the “pack”.  In large measure, this is because our nervous systems and following social networks are extraordinarily complex, and not hard-wired like, for example, ants, whose lives are also very complex, seen as a whole.  Learning has to happen, organic learning, pattern formation as opposed to what might be termed biological pattern dictation.

Now, this is the case even in traditional societies–pre-“modern” societies–which have very clear, long standing rules about behavior.  The goal in such societies, though, is to take on what amount to preexisting cultural “genes”, or memes, in exact and mimetic ways, such that the ultimate result creates stable orders across generations in a manner not all the different from biologically dictated orders based solely upon instincts.  Cultural maladaptions–for example, individualistic tendencies–are punished just as genetic maladaptions are in the wild.  Except, of course, when they survive and prove beneficial, as happened in the modern West’s invention of science, and the individualistic ontological presuppositions upon which it is based.  Framed another way, we give every person the right to form their own opinions about the nature of reality and morality.  This has been fruitful economically and in the generation of advanced abilities to manipulate our natural world.

We must consider, though, that if we are going to ask every individual to form their own “culture”, their own “self”, that this INEVITABLY is going to take longer than a process based solely upon replication.

Like many impatient people with tendencies towards judgementalism, I have  tendency to find people trying to find themselves irritating.  This includes myself.  Yet, the “self actualized” person is actually more useful than the replicator, even if that person takes a much longer time to reach usefulness.  This point is worth remembering.

We live in a new world, from which the old rules based upon rote imitation are largely gone.  This is often called a bad thing.  It is the source of social conservatism.  At the same time, it is also an opportunity to grow out of childhood as a race.

To my mind, the process would be greatly facilitated by generalizing accurate knowledge about the universe, which would include the self evident fact that the 19th Century ended, and with it ping pong ball materialism.  The best evidence indicates both that extrasensory perception is a reality, and that we survive physical death in spirit.  These facts should be taught in schools.  That they are not is a crime of no small proportion.