Moderates United

Healing from psychological trauma is an inherently creative act.  There is no status quo ante.  You cannot return.  All trauma inherently forces us to grow by pushing through it and integrating it.  There is only forward.

And it seems to me that in healing you end a “chain of abuses”.  The person or people who hurt you were also hurt.  Their inability to process their wounds is what created their cruelty and thoughtlessness.  When you create a new, stable self, without that violence, you answer the question we were all born for.

Sometimes it is selfish to think of others.

I needed to vent. I was going to post this on Facebook, but this is clearly a better place.

For some reason I’ve been on a Russian movie kick.  I just watched “Burnt by the Sun”, which is a very sad movie set in the Stalin era.  It is difficult to communicate the violence of hate I feel for the monsters who spewed and continue to spew this evil, demonic creed, that trails death, despair, darkness, and utter depravity everywhere it goes.  It is difficult to communicate the hate I feel for Barack Obama for shaking a mass murderers hand. 

What do we do with people who lock others in closets for years because it amuses them?  What do we do with people who torture others for fun?  What do we do with people who put guns to people’s heads and pull the trigger because they get a thrill out of it?  We despise them and we put them in jail.  But what do leftists do?  They lionize them. 

It is possible to build something close to utopia. I believe this.  But not on a demonic base.  Sean Penn is pushing the politics of Ted Bundy, openly, publicly.  He, too, wants to treat people like potted plants.  And most Americans are still too stupid to understand this.

It is one thing to diagnose an emotional malady, and another entirely to do the work necessary to integrate painful realities into an “after” consciousness, to grow beyond what ails you.

It is no doubt often the case that intellectuals–thought workers, to use my preferred term at least for what I imagine myself doing–often project their own internal realities on the world.  Those who seek to steal see everyone as a thief.  Those unable to find meaning in their own lives say that “life is meaningless”.

In my own case, I am integrating the loss of a mother, of the possibility of a mother; the fact that my own mother did what was in her power to destroy me psychologically, from a very early age.  These are powerful emotions.  They invoke terror.  But I watch, and I feel, and I cannot imagine a worse terror than that of feeling helpless, of giving up, of failing to use this life to grow as much as I possibly can.  And so I go on, and it is fruitful.

But to continue the thread, I look out at the world, and I feel in some respects I am working to heal not only my own wounds–my own lacks–but those of the world generally.  What has happened to the sense of place in our world, to the feeling of being nested, home, comfortable, warm?

We live in hives of activity, do we not?  A purportedly rational, or at least rationalizable, world, one filled with archetypal male energy which can solve any physical problem, which is impatient with confusion, with hesitancy, with fog, with damp, with dark, with caves, with water, with soft voices in the distance we cannot decipher.  Do we not, though, seek mothers?  Through all this incessant activity, do we not want somewhere to rest?  And how do we rest?  Through sopophorics.  Through distraction: through TV, mePods, Twitter (Flutter?), through movement, movement, movement, virtual or actual.

In some sick way, I sense that aspiring totalitarians seek, through the attainment of the ability to snuff out alternative narratives, alternative views, alternative behaviors, the “warmth” of place.  But of course they are using archetypal male energy, without empathy, without warmth.  Theirs is the energy of the psychotic mother.

And this point warrants making: the feminine has ALWAYS been far more powerful than men have admitted.  Even if men think they have bested their wives, they were once utterly helpless in the face of their mothers.

And this energy, in its best use, is highly creative, highly nurturing.  It is food for the soul.  Where men are efficient at generating things and actions, women are efficient at generating affective states.  And it is the latter that we really want.  We don’t want things: we want the feelings those things give us.  Women, at their best, help achieve the end without the middle.

Modern feminism is a process of making women into men.  It is a process of seeking quantitative power, not qualitative power.  It is a denuding of our culture of the energies that make life bearable, that make children happy, that bring joy to life.

Few–sensations, I will call them.  I am likely sharing too much, but fuck it.  My time will come, too, and I may as well get used to the idea of complete transparency.  Our world, in any event, needs more true honesty.

When silence becomes real.

Corollary: abstraction is silence.

It’s odd: ideas keep coming in torrents.  I could post 2-3 times a day when I’m not overly busy.  But I have come to realize that all of this exists solely to keep me from traveling inside in the ways that actually matter.  It is an elaborate, even if–I hope–a useful, subterfuge.  I refuse to lie to myself any more.

I will add, since I have come this far: I was looking at a Picasso the other day, and he literally took a woman apart.  His abstraction was violence, and this violence was manifested clearly both in his politics and his personal life.  Everything you need to know, though, is right there on the canvas.  It always has been.  He is perhaps most famed because he offered a certain class of people relief from emotions they were then, and remain now, incapable of processing, of digesting.

I have been doing a lot of inner work, but what has really pushed me into some really interesting, new qualitative territory is a series of special recordings put out by Sound Therapy.  Their website is here: http://www.soundtherapyinternational.com/v3/

It cost me $615 to get a small iPod-like device, filled with classical recordings done per the specifications of Alfred Tomatis, along with good earbuds (that of course I could easily have purchased separately), a DVD that was essentially marketing material, and a couple of books which were essentially derivatives of the original work by Tomatis.

The claims made for this music are quite amazing, such as that they will increase your energy level, reduce tinnitus (which I have had for many years), facilitate learning, and heal a variety of cognitive disorders.  All of these claims, I feel, have merit, based on my own experience thus far.  This is truly an amazing technology.  In my own case it is calming me in important ways, while also giving me more energy.  The music is addictive, and I look forward to listening to it every morning when I get up.

Here is the thing: this technology has been largely locked up by selfish fools.  In the case of the Tomatis crowd, they have done their level best to keep this thing a more or less trade secret among audiologists, and require their training, with their tools, to use the phrase “Tomatis Method”, which they have trademarked.

Sound Therapy was founded by a woman who enjoyed huge benefits from it, and came to realize that the so supposed “professionals” were–after apparently doing a thorough examination, and prescribing what they described as a “personalized” program–were giving the same program to everyone.

All Tomatis Therapy is, is music with a lot of high frequency sound being run through a filter designed to reduce low frequency sound.  Such sound has effects upon the brain cortex in ways that far exceed the direct influence of the ear, and the cognitive process of listening.  Effectively, you are altering the brain through neuroplasticity, itself a response to qualitatively new inputs.

Although I have not yet read any of his books, Tomatis himself apparently viewed his work, ultimately, through a depth psychological lens, and viewed one effect of his work to be an affectively deep return to the womb in order to resolve very primitive problems.

Here is the Wikipedia article on him, which does not seem awful: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Alfred_A._Tomatis

Even though many elements of his work would likely be enhanced by exposure to an actually qualified professional, most of them apparently just ask people to pay to come to their office and listen to the same music 2-3 hours a day for some 300 hours.  They literally prescribe the same thing to everyone, which is something ANYONE could do.  There is no magic to it, not in the prescription.

Here is the business opportunity: all of his patents have expired, so anybody and everybody can legally copy his method and work and create their own iteration. 

My concept, which I shared without success with the Sound Therapy people, would be to create relatively low cost copies of music made per his method.  The essence of what I bought was a small iPod like device which is so out of date that it still has battery memory, and thus a limited lifespan of roughly 4-5 years (They tell me).  This technology has likely not evolved in 10 years, and based on how they are marketing this material, they seem to be shooting for low volume and high margin.

Somebody can create a high volume, low margin business.  They can create CD’s, knowing that many might be pirated, but which can be protected like any other form of music.  Alternatively, they can duplicate the idea of providing a box with prerecorded music–the underlying idea of which, of course, is preventing piracy–but do it at lower cost.  My own view is that $100 would be a good price point that many people would be quite willing to pay.

I of course thought about going into this business, and still may, but given all my other sundry projects it will take some time, and given how enthusiastic I am about this therapy, I would like to put it out there in the world sooner rather than later.  So many people suffer needlessly.  There is so much stupidity and selfishness.

This is a bit of a vanity post.  So be it.

I had said some time ago that when I reached some kind of meaningful place, my need to write would diminish.  I have reached this place.  I have made myself heavy, learned to breathe in the dark, and floated slowly down until I reached the bottom.

I have sought out and found all the puzzle pieces and assembled it into a whole, and now my task is to digest it, and then to move through a gate into a world which is completely unknown to me, but I think filled with color.

I have had the sense for years that I have a 12 cylinder engine, but have only been able to get 4 cylinders to fire.  Everything I have done and said is much less than what I am capable of.  My entire life has felt like I had two fishhooks impaling my back attached by cable to two 50 pound stones I had to drag everywhere.  This feeling is ending.

Whenever I promise silence, do not believe me, but if I post for a time less, this is why.

As far as political events–and I suspect I do have readers whose main interest is political–have we not reached a point where we simply need to wait and see if America is ready for tyranny?  Has not enough, sufficient, information been presented to the American people as to the tragedy and horror of the direction we have been guided lo these many years?

Will the pot boil?  I cannot know, but the message cannot be delivered in words better than it already has been.

Most people grow up in relatively benign homes, where most people mean what they say most of the time.  That is my sense, although I may be exaggerating the number of psychologically healthy homes when I say “most”.

What is the effect when parents hate their children from a very early age, though, even if they only rarely express it through overt verbal or physical violence?

You lack that sense of order and safety  which most others take for granted in healthy homes.

But here is the thing: when Hitler said he would kill the Jews, he meant it.  Those who believed him, though, were considered paranoid.  They were not.  They simply had a category for insane violence, which people who had not been exposed to it lacked.

Those who believed that  Castro, Ho Chi Minh, Lenin, Mao intended mass death and political violence would, at various times in the careers of all these men been considered delusional.  Castro and Ho were, in my understanding, more or less openly supported by many academics and journalists in the mid-1950’s (hell, Stalin in the 1930’s, along with Mussolini in more cases than they now admit) and that even though Ho had helped found the French Communist party all the way back in 1920 or so, and become an almost immediate Comintern agent.

Let me put it this way: the POSSIBILITY of paranoid thinking creates a much broader array of possible understandings of data with which one is presented.  Logic and factual analysis can put many fears to rest in a reasonably well ordered mind, but such a mind is in my view much better equipped to handle liminal, unusual, aberrant data than one which has seen little suffering, and complacently assumes that because things always have worked out, that they will continue to.

Put another way, I wear my paranoia–as many would call it–with pride.

I think it is easy to make the mistake of thinking that Obama’s end game is something like Canada or the British Health Service.  It is not.  It is Cuba.  The tyranny is the primary aim, and healthcare/insurance is just a means to the end; and would not a generalized economic collapse serve the cause of “tyranny in the public interest” better than a functioning, if inefficient, healthcare/ health insurance system?

The DHS has bought its billions of bullets.  They have bought 2,400 military grade MRAP’s.  The Federal government has armed virtually every arm, and has been busily funding and training sundry law enforcement agencies in crowd control, and buying them protective gear, and in no small number of cases military grade vehicles.  The task now, seemingly, is to get the people into the streets. 

How could effective economic policy possibly serve that aim?

My next post will be about paranoia, but could we perhaps not view Harry Reid’s decision to alter over 200 years of tradition with some fear that they have abandoned the long game?

Actually, I will add, pace my last post, that I Googled  Tom Clancy and as of yet it does not appear a cause of death has been announced, which is quite odd.  Even if he had killed himself, which sound very dubious, there would have been a roundabout way of saying it.  They do in most of the articles point out that he had an uncanny prophetic ability.  And from what I read, his latest book involved a “Manchurian Candidate” installed by wealthy Saudis after a very long seasoning period.

http://thelibertydigest.com/2013/11/21/ex-cia-operative-military-thwarted-obamas-plans-to-nukeemp-america-this-fall/

Dr. Jim Garrow, the same one that reported the death of Andrew Breitbart  and Tom Clancy, came out as an ex CIA Agent recently. The same Jim Garrow that runs Pink Pagoda Girls that
rescues young girls from death and abortion in China. He revealed in a
November 18th Facebook message that among the top brass being purged,
actually prevented President Obama from creating a series of  ”False
Flag” events this fall. One of the incidents was to be nuclear, the
other was make a calculated crippling of the infrastructure of our
country.

On November 19th, the entire posts, reposts, and comments were
totally scrubbed by social media networks.and outlets. That evening he
appeared on Full Contact with Eric Rush.

You can see his scrubbed messages to Facebook here:

Three individuals have just saved 300 million lives in
the past 2 weeks. They saved the 90% of the population that would be
dead if Bathhouse Barry had not been stopped from using 3 nuclear
devices against the American populace. 2 Army Generals and 1 Navy
Admiral, whose duties included the safeguarding and oversight of the
nuclear arsenal. Obama ordered that 3 nukes be transported in a major
breach of protocol and safety regulations of long standing. He wanted it
NOW, and these officers were made aware of what the intention was. The
admiral had the one Navy nuke taken 200 miles off South Carolina and
detonated deep in the ocean. The other 2 nukes disappeared thanks to the
handiwork of the 2 Generals, the numbers 1 and 2 men in charge of the
Army ordinance. These three men are heroes of the highest order. Look up
the events of 2 Generals and 1 Admiral being dismissed in the past two
weeks and you will find their names. They saved your lives and the lives
of 300 million of your fellow citizens.

Mr. Obama’s intention was to set off the three nukes to devastate all
computer related systems on the continent thus taking America back 200
years and guaranteeing a total breakdown in society and with in one year
the death of 300 million Americans. To see how this would be possible
read, “One Second After”. You can get it on Amazon.

We peered over the edge of the precipice of the death of our
civilization and have lived to tell the tale. 3 heroes stood tall for
America and the mad man in the white house was stopped for the first
time in his life. He is unsure of what to do just now and he does not
possess the keys to the nuclear submarines nor the two nukes that are
now hidden. For the first time in his life someone said no, meant it,
and stopped him from murder and devastation. The next few days are
critical. Be afraid and go to prepper sites to find out how to save your
family, if you can. – Dr. Jim Garrow, Nov. 18, 2013

In the condominium complex in Casa Grande, Arizona, where I have a
unit, a visit was made yesterday by a group of 4 men in a black Suburban
with lots of antenna’s on the roof. The management of our large group
of condo’s was asked to open the door of my unit. The badges were a
combination of many different alphabet agencies including my former one.
Interesting because after I posted about EMP’s and missing nukes my
phone rang late in the evening and I was requested to cease and desist.
My posts have been removed. I am not however repentant, nor cowed. If
anything like this happens again I have instructed people to begin the
release of documents and information as per prepared plans in the hands
of these people. Obama is known for overplaying his hand, and now should
be known far and wide as a dangerous amateur. He may have gotten
Breitbart, Hastings and Clancy, but they were just writers. I hope that
he enjoys the protests today in DC.  – Dr. Jim Garrow, Nov. 19, 2013

A quick search on the internet latter and you can indeed find three
Military Men that dealt in Nuclear Arms dismissed in October. Major
General Michael Carey and Vice Admiral Tim Giardina (fired amidst rumors
of misbehavior involving alcohol and gambling) were both released, then
a third one from the Pacific that never made it home. There was also a
sizable earth quake off the coast of South Carolina that Russia Claims
was an underwater explosion of an American Thermal Nuclear Device.

We, as a nation, are totally in these men’s debt!

Comments:  Here is a link to an earthquake off the coast of South Carolina on Oct. 8th :http://earthquake-report.com/2013/10/08/moderate-earthquake-off-east-coast-of-united-states-on-october-8-2013-2/


And as always, how do we separate out what seems clearly true, from what is speculative.  By way of context, this man, Jim Garrow, has also claimed that Andrew Breitbart, Michael Hastings, and Tom Clancy were all murdered to prevent the disclosure of secrets which apparently remain secret.  In Breitbart’s case, it may have been good evidence of Obama’s homosexual past, in Hastings he apparently had dirt on senior CIA officials, and Tom Clancy who knows.

Who is this guy?  Well, he does seem to be a humanitarian: http://www.pinkpagodagirls.com/category/about-us/  He claims, apparently credibly, to have saved 45,000 lives.

It does seem clear that multiple senior military officials were suddenly and without explanation fired, even though the complicit media–and here one must include Fox, which is limited in its capacity to grasp how bad things might actually be–largely ignored it. 

The transfer of the nukes appears to have been leaked: http://www.infowars.com/sen-graham-warns-of-nuke-strike-after-missing-nuke-report/

So we have credible reports, actual firings of senior commanders, and an earthquake in the right timeframe. 

Proof?  Of course not, but should we expect it, when so many people are working so hard to keep this apparent secret?

I will reiterate: we have SOLID evidence that Obama’s mother posed nude as a teenager for a black Communist.  We have SOLID evidence that he is committing a federal felony by using a forged Social Security number.  It is INDISPUTABLE that the PDF file he posted as his birth certificate was tampered with.  These are all large things.  They are not small things.  They point to hidden and large psychological trauma, and to a clear willingness to flout the law, and the ability to get away with it.

I could go on, but have often enough.  I cannot emphasize enough the importance of our military–and honest LEO’s–in keeping our freedom.  If any military members or cops are reading this, I ask you: were the sacrifices you made protecting freedom in this country, the rule of law in this country, worth anything if we let these bastards get away with tyranny now?