Moderates United

There are a lot of things we laugh about, which we really should not laugh about, but about which we otherwise don’t know what to do.  For example, the meme that “we used to worry about Big Brother listening in.  Now we ask Big Brother for cupcake recipes.”  Ponder how many Echoes and Alexas out there are hearing EVERYTHING.

But on this specific topic, I will connect it to some reading/watching I am doing about an alleged “secret space program”.  Now, this is wacky stuff, filled with people incapable of performing basic logical operations.  I wanted to like Ancient Aliens, but you see statements like “Aliens must have lived in buildings, and many early humans lived in buildings too.  Ancient astronaut theorists speculate aliens must have taught early humans how to put roofs over their heads.”

That is all much too much.  The series I am watching–Deep Space on Gaia–has similar non sequiturs.  They do, however, also include some things I find truly interesting.  For example, what they call Zero Point Torsion Fields (in any event, torsion fields, to which I have added Zero Point) are quite similar to the dream I had of space “helicopters”  Helicopters create vortexes of air which they use for propulsion.  The idea here is simply that you have props consisting in energetic currents which interact with the Zero Point energy quantum physics stipulates is everywhere.  If it exists, it can be touched, and if it can be touched it can be used.

Putting it all together, and bringing it back on topic, many of these people speculate about a “break away civilization”.  Maybe they are building vast cities underground.  Maybe on the moon, using classified technology.

But would 8.5 TRILLION, with a T, be enough to do all that?  Categorically.  Ponder that number for a moment.  Take an average European nation, say Sweden.  Their GDP in 2017 was 538 Billion in US dollars.  This comprised the entirety of their business output, all the buildings and roads built, merchandise exchanged, everything.  8.5 trillion represents just under 16 years of that.

And to be clear, I am not talking about the money spent by the government.  I am talking the WHOLE ECONOMY.

Put another way, the Federal budget seems to be about $4 trillion a year, which is as high as it has ever been.  The amount of money which the DoD alone cannot account for is equal to 2 and a half years of EVERYTHING the Federal government spends money on.  All the military, all the Social Security, all the money spent servicing the debt.

And as the Yahoo article states, the DoD has, uniquely, never been subjected to an audit.

Do you not think it odd that there have been no serious calls for this?  That 2 entire years of budgets can just be vanished, and nobody, no Congressperson, no President, asks WTF?

I’m not a high trust person.  It seems likely to me that at least very large underground bases have been built, with underground train connections.  I have seen these in my dreams.  I once saw some old, tired aliens on the moon, flying technology they no longer understood, and could no longer build.  But that is the limit of what I have seen.

When you are talking those amounts of money though–and I will note this is the DoD ALONE, and that black budgets could quite easily be attached to other entities, like NASA–it is not unreasonable to suppose there is some very large back story. And the missing amount was from 1996 to the present.  This does not even include what was diverted or went missing during the Cold War, when expenditures, relatively, were much higher.

Financially, the money clearly exists to build a “break away civilization”.  I am watching these things, yelling at my computer from time to time, and being genuinely intrigued in others.

Here are some truly interesting quotes, from someone who clearly existed within the mainstream (Lockhead Martin), Ben Rich:

“We already have the means to travel among the stars, but these technologies are locked up in black projects, and it would take an act of God to ever get them out to benefit humanity. Anything you can imagine, we already know how to do.”

Further:

 “We now have the technology to take ET home. No, it won’t take someone’s lifetime to do it. There is an error in the equations. We know what it is. We now have the capability to travel to the stars. First, you have to understand that we will not get to the stars using chemical propulsion. Second, we have to devise a new propulsion technology. What we have to do is find out where Einstein went wrong.”

When Rich was asked how UFO propulsion worked, he said, “Let me ask you. How does ESP work?”The questioner responded with, “All points in time and space are connected?” Rich then said, “That’s how it works!” 

And this:

It was Ben Rich’s opinion that the public should not be told [about UFOs and extraterrestrials] . He believed they could not handle the truth — ever. Only in the last months of his decline did he begin to feel that the “international corporate board of directors” dealing with the “Subject” could represent a bigger problem to citizens’ personal freedoms under the United States Constitution than the presence of off-world visitors themselves.”

Actually, I will add this, which you may not know about.  I can’t remember if I decided to post it.  I look at a lot of things which I just can’t bring myself to comment on.  I just don’t know.  It is impossible to know.  But this is highly interesting, even if one posits odd psychological reasons for it.  But really, does this seem plausible as a hoax, or does he seem delusional?  Form your own judgment.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VA3HV_gfq80

Again, I underscore that oceans of money have gone missing.  I will offer one last comparison: about $1 trillion per year is allocated annually for “social programs”, for the social safety net, per year in the United States.  Based on the amount of money missing, we could increase that amount 50% and it would last 17 years.

Something is going on.  I think if Trump REALLY wants to set off every warning bell possible, getting someone tasked with getting to the bottom of all this is the best way to do it.  In the interim, an audit of the Pentagon should be done.

It’s not hard for me to remember why I drink.  Nearly all nights are difficult, some are unbelievable.  I have the traumatic residue, but I am also highly intuitive, and I feel the world around me, its insanity.  I woke up this morning dreaming of giant worms eating through everything in our world.  I was fighting them, but my solutions were not effective.

I was going to share some other things, but I think now is not the time.

I do think I have finally tunneled down to the root feeling which makes me rigid and angry.  This is huge progress.  It anchors me in place, and this has advantages, but I think my task is to learn how to dance.

This whole social credit score thing makes me think of this scene from Terry Gilliam’s Brazil: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tu0pv-hkNPc

In some indefinable way, totalitarianism and consumerism have been blended.  If you have a high credit score, you get the best hotels, the best plane seats, access to the best restaurants.  But if you hold out too long, you jeopardize your credit rating.

If you don’t want to lose your mall, just give the children of Mao everything they want.   If it’s your ass, just hand it over, then go see what’s on sale.  This literally seems to be where things are headed.

I wasn’t sure exactly what happened.  Here is the story: https://money.cnn.com/2018/02/28/technology/apple-icloud-data-china/index.html

Basically, KNOWING that the Chinese government is an oppressive fascist dictatorship which still operates gulags (Laogai) for dissidents, and which still reserves the right to kill, torture or imprison anyone for substantially any reason, Apple chose to basically make it easy for authorities to hack all the data on every iPhone in China.  That is my understanding.

Even Amnesty International, which has long been a left wing organization (and which, to be fair, has also done some really good work over the years) had this to say:

“The changes being made to iCloud are the latest indication that China’s repressive legal environment is making it difficult for Apple to uphold its commitments to user privacy and security,” Amnesty International warned in a statement Tuesday.

Self evidently, they were being overly kind.  This move makes it IMPOSSIBLE for Apple to uphold privacy commitments of any sort.

Presumably this is a concession to keep access to State provided slave labor, more or less.  It was the Apple factory, you may recall, where they had to install nets to keep people from killing themselves by jumping off the roof to escape their misery.

All of this should not be combined with Left wing politics, or moral hauteur.  This is what the Left calls “Capitalism” at its amoral worst.  It is the pursuit of a quick buck, at the expense of unnoticed and utterly unremediated human misery.  They do this shit, then vote for Obama or Hillary as recompense.  I call bullshit.  These are human turds.  

Ponder this: http://mobile.abc.net.au/news/2018-09-18/china-social-credit-a-model-citizen-in-a-digital-dictatorship/10200278?pfmredir=sm

I think the game is clear enough: delay and obstruction.

Feinstein held these claims for the specific reason that bringing them out NOW makes it that much harder to get Kavanaugh confirmed by a week from Friday.

This is made particularly clear in Jones call for an FBI investigation before she testifies.  This is ludicrous, and she knows it.  She is, after all, a professor of stupid shit.  Which is to say, she TEACHES mental health because she can’t DO it.

In any negotiation the strongest position is the one which has the Best Alternative to a Negotiated Agreement.  The Democrats presumably think that, if they can kill Kavanaugh’s nomination, and if they can get back the House in November, that they can force Trump to nominate someone more moderate.

I think Trump, in response to this reckless, shameless, utterly morally repulsive thuggery, needs to tell senior Democrats that he is still the President, and that if Kavanaugh cannot be confirmed, that the next nominee will be even MORE conservative.  This means they can spent two years playing politics, or confirm a more sturdy Constitutionalist.

And it is far from clear that the Democrats, in this latest atrocity against common decency, courtesy, civility, and indeed the American Way, which has always included compromise, will not pay a price with the electorate.  It is far from clear that Republicans will not only hold both the Senate and House, but perhaps even GAIN.  There will be a march on Washington just before the election of former Democrats who have #walkedaway.

James O’Keefe will continue releasing his videos.

And Trump has ordered the declassification of, as I understand it, everything which initiated Mueller’s abusive run.  This promises to be  very embarrassing.

I will emphasize, though, that Trump has to draw a hard line with these people.  He ordered the Kennedy documents released, but almost nothing got out.  The spooks won.

He needs a way to put fear into these people.  NONE of them ever face the court system.  The worst case scenario is not even losing their retirement.  The worst case scenario is losing their jobs, and possibly their security clearances.  This, in response to treasonous attacks on our election system. And of course all these people are snatched up in various ways, by consulting companies, by lobbyists, by foreign governments: God only knows.  God, and the CIA/NSA/ETC, and the CIA ETC is not telling, because Trump does not have them under control.

People need to go to jail, for long periods of time.  This is the only way.

Particularly with regard to the McCabe/Comey texts, he needs to give them a deadline, and he needs to play hardball with them.  Nothing should be redacted.  Nothing censored.  These are the same people–people who allegedly work for Trump’s alleged “ally” Jeff Sessions–who have been stonewalling Judicial Watch’s legitimate FOIA requests for many months now.  They can be counted on to stonewall, to hem and haw, now.

As I understand the process, they are supposed to be gathering everything, and presenting it to the President with their recommendations of what to release, and what to hide (a synonym for “redact”)

I had a fantasy conversation in my mind this morning:

DoJ Jackass: Sir, these are the text.  We STRONGLY recommend you not release these here.

Trump: (reads them).  I don’t see anything here which affects national security.

DoJ:  Sir, they relate to the public trust.  We really feel like they will be damaging to the FBI’s ability to do its job.

Trump: HAS it been doing its’ job?  Do these texts not reflect real problems?

DoJ: Sir, as long term professionals, we really think it best for all concerned if we redact them.

Trump: I want them released, as is.

DoJ: Sir, we strongly recommend against this.

Trump: Who is in charge here?

DoJ: Sir, we feel the damage could be. . .

Trump: According to the Constitution, who is in charge of the Executive Branch?

DoJ: The President, Sir.

Trump:  Who is the President?

DoJ: You are, Sir.

Trump: Does that mean you work for me?

DoJ:  Yes, Sir.

Trump:  When someone works for someone else, do they tell them no, when asked to do something lawful?  Is there anything I am asking you to do you think is illegal?

DoJ: Just a bad idea, Sir.

Trump:  Bad idea.  You mean like trying to use your power to make sure I wouldn’t get elected?

DoJ: Sir, we have many on-going investig-. . .

Trump: RELEASE THEM AS IS, AND DO IT NOW, OR YOU’RE FIRED.

Again, this is most likely fantasy.  And I will point out that as far as I know, this conversation WOULD be happening with the DoJ, which, again, is supposedly run by Jeff Sessions, who supposedly is a Trump ally. 

With friends like that, who needs enemies.

My neuroscience studies continue.

In looking at QEEG results, there is something called Coherence.  You would think coherence would be a good thing, but it actually is not, at least as I understand it.

Your brain is intended to process many things at once, all in a distributed way.  Your left frontal lobe can be doing one thing, and your right frontal lobe something slightly different.

Coherence means they are phase locked with one another, which means the local processing function has diminished, and a sort of cognitive spasm is happening.  Behaviorally, as I understand it–and I am a very new student, so it is certainly possible I am misstating this–it would be reflected as cognitive rigidity, mostly likely combined with following behavioral rigidity.

Social systems are similar.  We all work best when we work independently most of the time, but when we sometimes come together in groups to accomplish something specific.  In the brain, periods of coherence when working on a task are healthy.  It is long term, unvarying coherence, particularly when your eyes are closed, and there is no task in front of you, where there is a problem.

Mass conformity is a type of coerced coherence.  It is like a mask put over people, over their brains, which has an inhibitory effect, such that their innate individual creativity and spontaneity are muted.  You get people acting, talking, moving in similar ways, which is inherently unnatural.  It is inherently unhealthy.

It seems to be a new normal for me to be attacked by some evil force at night.  Last, night, again: it was many people.  A dark energy, immediately above me, trying to get in.  I told it to go fuck itself.  I have to expend some energy keeping it out, but it is getting less and less.

Now, I do think there is a psychodynamic aspect to this.  Evil is tension, more or less.  It is the inability to relax, to allow energy to flow spontaneously.  And as I relax, and release it, there are bound to be dreams about it. In this sense, this sort of dream is a positive.  It is something which WAS inside of me, and is now outside. 

You cannot normally see the evil inside of you.  It is disguised within ideology, religion, morality.  It knows how to hide, how to make itself respectable, presentable.

But there is evil in this world, too.  It is the horrific and insane need so many people feel to march in lockstep, to perform like hypnotized dancing monkeys on a stage.  It is ironic that the worse offenders, in general, are the alleged members of the “counter-culture.”, of the self identifying “Progressives”.  They believe nothing, but think themselves the purveyers of something good.

Ponder this story

The communist country’s social credit rating, set to be “fully operational” in 2020, will track all 1.4 billion citizens and assign them each an ever-changing score, ranging from 0 to 800, that factors into their everyday lives.
For example, Hua is one of an estimated 10 million Chinse citizens with a bad rating after he was arrested and jailed for accusing high-level officials of corruption and for publishing details of misconduct by authorities on his popular website.
Hua has been banned from traveling via airplane or train and has had his social media accounts with millions of followers suspended.
The Globe and Mail reports Hua “has been barred from buying property, taking out a loan or traveling on the country’s top-tier trains.”

More:

Facebook CEO Mark Zuckerberg has met with the czar of China’s internet censorship system and other propaganda chiefs on numerous occasions and is working with the oppressive regime to suppress the Chinese people.
Like Hua, Alex Jones and Infowars have been nearly wiped off the internet by big tech and social media sites in an increasingly authoritarian free-speech crackdown.
Also, Google, who kicked Alex Jones and Infowars off YouTube, is currently working with China to develop a censored search engine the government can fully control.
It’s possible that one day Google could use the Chinese model in the United States, for example, to block pro-Trump material as it is well known the company has a left-leaning bias. 

There was a time when self identifying “Liberals” would have opposed this.  They would have said they were Liberals because they wanted MORE justice, not less, MORE freedom, not less, MORE information and transparency, not less.

But it is not hard to see what Google and Facebook (and presumably others, since they seem to flock together–actually Apple would be on this list too) are doing as practice for what they want to do in the United States.

Recall that, for reasons which are inexplicable to me, most of these people seem to sincerely believe in global warming.  They believe in One World government.  If they were given a choice between endlessly renewable energy, the ability to create a global command and control structure, and the technology to make the world more emotionally intelligent, they would, in my view, choose the second option.

Most of these people, functionally–the leaders–are high functioning Aspergers or autistic spectrum.  This is a virtual requirement of being able to spend 80 hours a week for years on end with mind crushingly dull coding, which is required for most tech progress.

They are, in the understatement of the year, not “people” people.  People are numbers to them.  They are unreal.  And these people have a latent hegemonic control over nearly all our information.  They are our eyes on the world, in important ways.  They allow us to see all the abstract trends, all the distant news, which we cannot see in our own homogenized streets of Walmarts, Kroger/Safeways, and Walgreens.  You yourself, driving down your street, can see almost nothing.  You need them, particularly since most of the local newspapers are on their last legs.

You do have local TV news, but as a general rule they are not particularly able, and a great many are owned by national conglomerates.  Remember this? 

I was dreaming about the Founding Fathers last night.  It is later than you think.  If you are not scared about what is possible, you lack some combination of intelligence, courage, and imagination.

I was dreaming last night about where my ex-wife’s father will be buried.  It’s an odd thought, but very, very few Americans are buried in the town where they were born.  We move around too much.  Children leave their parents as a matter of course, and not infrequently parents leave their children.  We have little sense of place, which is something burial grounds have always more or less literally embodied.

In Israel, they have the Tomb of the Patriarchs.  This place is sacred because it is thought be where the ancient forebears of the Jews, Christians and Muslims were buried.  The bodies and the place are connected in a sacred way.

Here is, to me, an interesting thought: I think it is likely that nearly 100% of the people who have family burial plots they plan to be buried in eventually voted for Trump.  Rooted people voted for Trump.  People who feel a sense of place voted for Trump.

Put more broadly, conservatives might be seen as those who feel there is something in their lives worth conserving, worth protecting.  They don’t think of “humanity”, but their own little neck of the woods, their little lives, the people they know, the local coffee shop, their church, their favorite fishing hole.

This is vastly better than being a nihilist who claims to be capable of believing everything.  As a general rule, if your goal is to “save humanity”, and your plan involves something other than bringing out the best in everyone, you are a narcissistic liar.

I might go on, might qualify, but you get the gist of it.  I will ignore my inner pedant for now.

Year Ten, and I still see little sign of response or life in reaction to anything I write.  I wonder why I spend the time. It’s a question any more psychologically normal, less driven person would have answered long ago by quitting.

But I can’t help feeling that SOMETHING happens when I write.  I don’t know what it is, but I feel it.  Even if no one reads this, I am sending something out in the air, to be caught up, as with the famous experiments with mice and monkeys.

We have been conditioned to believe, we have had beaten into us by insidious and damnably sincere but brainwashed “experts”, that life has no meaning.  Christianity is a fairy tale.  All religious are fairy tales.  We are machines made out of meat, matter is the primary things which exists, the ONLY thing which exists, and everything else simply a fancy sandcastle which has fallen together by infinite chance over infinite time, and which is destined to meet its high tide sooner than later.  Everything you love, everything you do: all of it is conditioned, like the behavior of birds feeding on worms, destined, since the beginning of time.  It never begins, because it is simply the continuation of the effect of one billiard ball hitting another billions of years ago, and the concussions of one billiard ball hitting another continue long after the temporary assembly of parts we call our “bodies” and “brains” fall prey to the inevitable effects of entropy.

You can believe this.  It is your choice.  But it is not required by science.  It is not required by intuition.  And it is not yet required by the political authorities, although they are trying hard to get us there.  For now, they just call dissenters to their religion crazies, “deniers”, and “anti-scientific”, even though THEY are the ones abusing the scientific method to support empirically weak and even indefensible beliefs.

I believe, because I have reason to believe, that the world is vastly bigger, more interesting, more miracle filled than most people who grow up watching sitcoms, watching porn, enduring idiotic movies and conversations can possibly grasp.