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Not all parents are attuned to their children, but ALL children are very, very attuned to their parents, absent gross pathology.

Narcissism in a parent is a way of sucking a child away from self regulation, since there is no self to regulate.

And I will comment that I have been pondering in recent days the status of dissociation as a psychological symptom.  It is rarely discussed.  There is Dissociative Identity Disorder, aka Split or Multiple Personality Disorder, but simply being poorly connected with ones feelings, with ones own desires, is really not something they have a good term for.

It might be termed Impinged Living Disorder.  Or Grey Foggy World Disorder.

Obviously, it can manifest as depression, but that is not the core problem.  People with what I suppose I must call mild dissociation (when compared with having multiple “alters”) are simply not thriving, not flourishing.  They are not enjoying their lives, and given that life almost always also presents lot of negatives, it can be tiring getting the bad without the good.

This, in my view, is really what kills people like Chris Cornell and Anthony Bourdain.  They’ve got what everyone thinks they should want, but it isn’t what they want.  And they can’t fucking figure out what they want, because their illness is not a presence but an absence, a lack, a something that is nearly impossible to see, which psychologists don’t name often because it isn’t in their little book.

They feel–odd, different–but can’t quite put their finger on it.  So it seems to me, projecting my own introspective insights (or guesses) on them.

And this problem is closely tied to the question: what and who should I trust?  This is a very hard question to answer nowadays.  I don’t know if it was much easier in the past, but I do think extended families and clans were physically and emotionally closer for most, and certainly they did not have the flood of information we do, and with it keen awareness of the many possible disasters awaiting all of us.

Affective Dysregulation, which I might insert as a more sciencey sounding term for this, worsens over time.  This is known. Brainwave patterns established in early childhood do not generally correct themselves.  For much of this, Neurofeedback is the only good solution, with the likely exception of psychedelics like Ayuahasca, LSD, Peyote and the like, when dosed properly, in the right place, at the right time, with the right people.

Talk therapy arguably makes things worse.  The thing is that trauma seems to reside in the right hemisphere (for right handed people at least), and by definition that is not the talking part.  I would argue that much art is really the effort of the right hemisphere to “talk”.  I found myself spontaneously reciting poetry a few nights ago, which I was making up on the spot.  It was poetry of the quality (poor) which I post on here, but it had metaphors, and meant something to me.  I normally vocalize nonsense, so this was something qualitatively different and I think better.

But the thing with talk therapy is you create over time “a story”.  And that story, if it has to do with Developmental Trauma–describes something that is STILL HAPPENING in your right hemisphere.  It is not in the past, but if anything talking about it without feeling it distances you from true healing.

And it can be good being a victim.  People feel sorry for you or tell you how brave you are. That story can become a sort of business card, to tell people who “you are”.

It is so hard looking into the unknown.  It is very, very hard.  I feel confused and afraid every day.  

The most painful moment in a personal growth process is seeing what is possible, but not yet being able to get there, or at least to sustain it.

When you are in complete darkness, you cannot see it.  But when you see a ray of light, everything else becomes dark by comparison.

And necessarily, those who live in the dark have to accustom themselves to the darkness.  This is absolutely needed to avoid madness. 

But emotional maladjustment, emotional pain: it becomes like a Stockholm Syndrome.  It is easy to become attached to your symptoms and to your story.  Your story is a ticket to self pity.  It is a ticket to the pity of others.

Leaving this story behind, saying “I used to be this sort of person” is for many more scary than crossing the ocean of a life with a fractured self paradoxically intact.

You carry a broken plate and a shattered glass, not because you can eat or drink from them, but because you know them well.  They are your companions in this strange, uncertain, and confusing world.

Anyone who wants to try and pretend they can offer equal loyalty to everyone, is simply playing a political game, and in the end, they are offering it to no one.  It cannot be otherwise.

Our politicians, whatever their other differences, need to offer their loyalty and devotion to American citizens.  This should be a sine qua non of holding political office.  That Pelosi and Schumer, and many around them want to pretend that Mexicans are as important to them as Americans should tell you everything you need to know: they are whores, who think that the Mexicans will pay better in votes than people born here.

They may of course be right, if we allow them to get their way.  Neither is stupid.  They are just utterly anti-moral, disgusting, utterly degraded human beings.

Despite having everything, he was happy.

Are you rooting FOR the American people, or AGAINSTthe Party which sometimes dilutes your power?

With respect to the last post I recall an acronym from Dan Siegel intended to summarize the aspects of a mature, well integrated personality: FACES—flexible, adaptable, coherent, energized, and Stable.

Children of the Reeee lack all these things, with the exception of being energized. But even there, the energy is external. They have to be given a Daily Cause, just like hamsters need pellets of food. Without the food, they don’t have a clue what to be mad about, and would dissolve as a group in short order.

Our universities are breeding these loons, because in the main the people doing the indoctrinating are mentally ill, in a formal sense, if we apply the above definition.

An easy sacrifice of  self on the altar of political conformity, one which offers a stable sense of self in exchange for belonging in a mutable group, but one which will always include those who jump when they are told to

I intend here, of course, those are situationally confused, and willing to sacrifice a stable sense of self in order to gain victim points in the Leftist hierarchy. I do not include those whose confusion in truly innate, and who would have been non-conforming even when it was hard, and dangerous.

Shame is more or less directly the feeling that you don’t belong anywhere, with anyone.

If my thesis is correct, it is the need to surrender in response to social pressure, but when it arises from a childhood which has nothing to do with present circumstances, there is no one to surrender to.

To be sure, this may well be the key psychological force behind mass conformitarian movements, but even there the people cannot belong as themselves.  They can merely belong as what they become in the group, never as who they are as individuals.  As people with names, they still don’t belong.

Shame is a neurological spasm, and the cure is ending that spasm.

The essence of Agitation Propaganda–which is more or less a technical description of the campaign of hatred and rejection which has been waged against Donald Trump–is, self evidently, agitation.

Propaganda certainly tries to create the agitation, but it is far easily to exploit it.  Much of the current media world acts to create stress, social isolation, and confusion.  You are told countless times, in countless ways, that you can’t trust the present, that “they” are out to get you.  This is the basic message of violence in media, which many studies have found work to increase isolation, distrust of others, and a lower activation threshold for anger and even actual violence.

The goal is to have a primed audience, one which is primed neurologically for amygdala-oriented responses, for fight, flight and shame.  All you need to then is insert a simple idea, a simple solution, and a villain who prevents it from happening.

Many of us view it as a mystery why Leftists, once their indoctrination process is complete, as so impossible to reason with, why they actively reject dialogue, even with people they have once considered friends.

This is the solution: once “The Solution” becomes the answer to their anxiety and fear, they are addicted to it.  To abandon it is to go back into a territory of fear and anxiety, this time without the simple solution to which they have become accustomed.

Neurologically, they are in an equilibrium based on continual anger, continual fear of public shaming, and a continual need for simple enemies upon whom can be projected all their evil, all their latent hostilities, and all their unconscious fears about who they are, who they have become, and what sort of world they are creating.  In fact, the more they unconsciously fear they are fucking everything and everyone up, the more evil Trump and his supporters become.

Watch this process tonight, anywhere you like.

I will add to this that this thought process initiated when I started reading about 5G, at the suggestion of Alex Jones: https://www.electricsense.com/12399/5g-radiation-dangers/

Could we suppose that 1) if stress equals the cessation of rational thought, and that 2) the cessation of rational thought can be equated with those who are currently voting Democrat and that 3) stress is much higher in the cities, could we not posit that 4) Trump’s success equaled lower stress areas, which is to say those areas relatively immune to AgitProp, because they are reasonably happy?

Could we not equally posit that 5G will make AgitProp easier?  Yes, I think we could.