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 I am feeling increasingly good.  I have lost 35 pounds or so, but have only been able to do so because I am calming down.  20 more or so and I will be a lean, solid 230.  

My system has been to lose 5 pounds, then maintain that weight for two weeks before lowering the bar.  I weigh myself and take my belly measurement daily, and write it on an erasable board in my bathroom.  I use the Lose It app, and shoot for 150 grams of protein, 30 grams of fiber, and whatever the calorie count is.  

I think lowering through a series of plateaus helps me get psychologically used to being that new weight, and I also think there are memories contained in fat, or in a certain sort of body memory, and they need to be processed.  If you lose too much weight too fast, you can’t process them, and psychically you are just stretching a rubber band which is bound to contract back, sooner or later.  You have to relax into a new way of being in your body.  All of us get fat by using food (and of course booze, which was my main issue, although food was too) as a drug.  If you don’t deal with what caused you to use food that way, your weight loss will not last.

I’m going weeks not just not getting drunk–I’ve done that before–but not even WANTING to get drunk.  That is new.

This blog represents a series of spasms, in a way.  It is a labor of love, but it also represents an outlet for manic energy, for my childish urge to impose my will on the world, to be relevant, to matter, to feel some sense of control, which of course I really don’t, in any important way.  What will be, will be.  That would probably sound better in French.

My history of keeping my word when I say I am going to stop blogging is not good.  Terrible, in fact.  Really terrible.  It feels like I would lose a friend, something important, a vital outlet.  And maybe I would.

But I am going to try and take the leap again.

I will share a couple thoughts first, though.

1) It seems to me that Leftist AgitProp had really created the sense among many that black people are a different species of human, that their “experience” somehow partakes of a mystic unintelligibility for us white folks, and that in some latent way we nearly need to worship them.

Here is the reality: all of us–or most of us–have had the shit knocked out of us emotionally at some point or other.  All of us have had people make unwarranted and negative assumptions about us.  All of us have been discriminated against.  Black people are not a different species of human.  You can talk to them, you can listen to their stories, and you can compare them to your stories.  You know what?  There is a lot of overlap.  They are not that different from “normal” people.  Yes, that was consciously an echo of the racism of the white people (mainly) comprising and running BLM.

I think most normal black folks, looking at the white people wanting to kiss their feet, have to be thinking “what the fuck is wrong with these people?”  Some, of course, seeing suckers all around them, figure out how to take advantage of it.  It’s a target rich environment, for sure, and honestly I can’t blame them.  How often do any of us get people begging to be taken advantage of, and heaping praise on us for doing it?

2) I have been calling the global lockdowns a crime of historic proportions.  What they also represent is an historically unprecedented abuse of expertise, of the secular scientific priesthood, and the trust we place in such oracles and leaders.  THEY ARE LYING TO US.  They are not doing science.  None of these responses are tested, and none stand up to scientific scrutiny.  

We should be copying Sweden or Switzerland.  This is an unmistakable FACT.  It can’t be argued, in my view.  So why aren’t we?  Because our priesthood has been corrupted.  It’s unbelievable, the venality and recklessness of people we should be able to trust, but obviously can’t.

I am quite bullish, by the way, as far as Trump.  HCQ will prevent serious complications, in my opinion, and with zinc and Azithromyacin he will probably get through this whole thing without significantly decreasing his work load.  He’ll sleep a few more hours a night for a few days, but I think that will be about it.  I may be wrong, but I doubt it.  The actual science seems reasonably clear.

 What is the difference between having a place and having a song?

 Who dares, wins.

Unofficial: Always a little further.

Life requires chances, and chances need timing.

I have no idea what os possible because I have no idea what is really happening. We common folk have little to do or say that will affect anything, but I would encourage our President to think big, and decisively.

So much is timing and terrain and logistics, but as Sun Tzu wrote long ago, the Way is the most important, and that is something that must be felt.

 https://youtu.be/TGQ7xu2_xAM

 Im a bit solipsistic in my posting since I get no comments.

Eben is a magnificent German word that practically says “I told you so.” It means roughly “exactly”, but with a tone.

I was contemplating the other day that of the languages I am aware of, German and Japanese seem to have the most words that compress a lot of meaning into small spaces.

The Japanese have words for dying alone, and for collecting books you know you will never read, as well as ikigai, kintsugi, kaizen and others.

As for the Germans, they have Verworfenheit, Weltschmerz, Fernweh and others I really like.

What English is rich in is the sheer volume of descriptive words. In my understanding English has by far the most words of any language.

 https://www.infowars.com/cnn-says-were-never-getting-back-to-normal/

I said that the people OK with wearing masks forever are Biden voters, who are pretty much “if the government says to do it, it must be good”, you know, just like having actual panther in your cologne.

Whats ironic is being a rebel used to be a feature of youth. This crowd of kids makes the suits of the Fifties all look like Marlon Brando in “The Wild Bunch”.  They cannot WAIT to do anything they are told. It’s unbelievable, and a matter for psychosocial speculation I have no time for now.

 In Britain, the most lunatic ideas imaginable were to be proposed genteelly, at cocktail parties, by men and sometimes women in full dress attire, with tuxedos and suitable evening gowns, and the Queen’s English. Oxbridge men, speaking in robust tenors, expecting agreement, and making everyone who failed to agree immediately feel they had committed a serious faux pas.

In America, this whole thing is encoded in the cult of niceness, which I have written on from time to time.  Niceness is not a moral code.  It has no content, and specifically, no means of self defense.  If you are walking down the street eating an ice cream cone, and someone walks up to you and asks “can I have your ice cream?”, many Americans would say yes, and hand it over.  They don’t want to be thought mean.

Niceness is slippery ice.  Once you understand the system, these people are defenseless.  They can be made to say or do anything, because they don’t want to risk seeming rude, or unprofessional, or somehow out of touch with the crowd.

Mask wearing, in my view, is an obvious example of niceness gone wrong.  The data supporting it is very weak, at least for people not showing symptoms, who in any event should be home, and non-existent where any amount of physical distance is present or the people involved are outside or even alone.

But you see these people, so proud to be able to physically demonstrate their niceness, their kindness, their consideration, and so happy to agree that non-mask wearers must be some sort of dark, dank, awful human being.  Such are the vapid lies that fill empty minds.

But this rot is deep in many souls in this country, and the cult of niceness can be and is being used to implement a regime of sadism, violence, repression and death.

To take one example that pisses me off every time I think about it, the Dalai Lama travels the world preaching the doctrine of kindness while Tibet is being destroyed, and nuns, in particular, gang raped in Chinese prisons by the thousands if not tens of thousands.  He has not a word to say about any of this, that I have seen.  Anger is often an inherently moral virtue.  It is what tells us something is wrong.  It can and does mislead us often–making the application of reason an important corrective–but people who lack this instinctive sense really lack the foundations of honest morality.

And of course, anger can also preceded morality.  You are angry first, then find something to be angry about.  Most of the Left is like this.  This is why there is no content to anything they claim they believe.  What they hate in one moment they ignore in the next.  The anger is the inner reality, not any innate sense of propriety.

All of this is enormously complicated, but by their fruits you shall know them.  The Dalai Lama is, in my view, not an honest man.

 https://www.infowars.com/former-twitter-ceo-calls-for-political-enemies-to-be-lined-up-against-the-wall-and-shot/

These guys are donating hundreds of millions of dollars to Democrats, who in turn are promising to subvert the Constitutional protections afforded Americans for all of our history, and to implement single party rule.

If you think this guy getting what he wants is impossible, I would suggest you read some history.  He won’t do the shooting–he is most likely an all-talk pussy.

But people like him can find people quite equal to the task of mass murder.  I don’t doubt this for a second.

If you are not afraid, you have not understood the situation.

And to be clear, black people who disobey will be treated exactly like white people who disobey.  There is no concern for minorities, for gays, for the trans community, or any of the other groups they have used from time to time as hammers on the glass of public opinion and even public sanity.  There is no concern for anyone who is not in their elite, small tribe of truly insane radicals.

There is no morality, no compassion, no common decency, and nothing remotely intelligibly humanitarian in any of this.  It is the creed of anger, hatred, violence and rage, which I have labelled Cultural Sadeism.

 Well worth the watch: Tucker Carlson on the debates

 This country has been run by roughly the same 100 families for at least the past one hundred years.  And some time in the 60’s and 70’s all of their children got radicalized.  They grew their hair out, marched against the war in Vietnam, and have never since changed their views or ways, and have brought their kids up the same way.

Their parents were infuriated and disgusted, but that did not prevent the graduates of Exeter and Harvard from going into “public service” and filling the highest echelons of our government with their fellow travelers.

And for these people, Trump’s greatest sins are that 1) he isn’t one of them; and 2) he is gauche; he lacks style of a sort they recognize.  He is vulgar, and even if he has principle, he lacks class, and class–in all senses of the word–is all they care about.  Where you come from, who you know, how you dress and speak and carry yourself.  If you merely enact great policy, that scarcely excuses the crime of being blue collar and unelite.  Trump carries himself as nouveau riche.  That will not do.  Simply will not do.

These people have benefited greatly from an American system they nonetheless despise.  And even though they have zero intention of relinquishing their control of it in whatever they want to come next, they nonetheless want to be known for their sense of Noblesse Oblige, which in their case is a farcical sense that the people they are killing and ruining through malignant neglect and bad policy somehow benefit from their ministrations.

And these people, plainly, are willing to cause global starvation and to inflict major psychic and economic wounds on the world in order to pursue their aims.  That they have tea parties and receptions with the Communist Chinese seems obvious to me. Xi must seem to them their sort of fellow.  Most of them, of course, are insane.  Most ridiculously rich kids are.  David Rockefeller, Jr. thought Fidel Castro was one of the coolest guys he ever met.  But if you think of Cuba as a prison, and Castro as a prison warden getting rich on the system, you’ve come very close to the reality.  Think of the warden in Shawshank Redemption, except that he was never caught.  He lived a long and prosperous life, able to deliver 6 hour rants to audiences too terrified to pretend they were not interested.

But this is the world we live in.  Nobody will write about it, because only the people inside of it really understand it, and they are taught from an early age to look out for members of their class, even if some of them wind up as heroin addicts on the streets somewhere.

I feel this.  I can’t see it.