http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=5etFfRefGhk
In general, I avoid self disclosure, as I am not an exhibitionist. It may seem at times like I am sharing, but most of the time I’m not. There is a lot at play that is invisible, and which I intend to stay that way.
This I will grant: I am extraordinarily sensitive, to the point that I have to tame the flood by willfully limiting the flow. Having done this my whole life, I am good at it.
As I put it to someone once, though, I feel like I am a 12 cylinder car operating on 3 cylinders. The difference in performance is pain tolerance. I have a very high pain tolerance, but imagine being able to see and feel the pain of everyone you meet. Being able to feel their joys, too, would not counteract this.
I truly believe that I am capable of walking into a room and feeling EVERYTHING in there. I am not strong enough to do that.
I’m not sure why I am sharing this, but it feels right.