This is my place where I just let words pour out, which doesn’t take much effort on my part. I just watch the screen, think “oh what a clever fellow” from time to time (as I have said before, I find I agree strongly with nearly everything I write), and hit Post.
When I want to tackle something, though, that is large and important, I make it hurt. I focus my attention so intently that it becomes a physical effort. Your mind wants to wander; you can’t let it. You push and push and push, until this energy builds up in you where you feel like you have x-ray vision and can see everything. It is like rolling a rock up a hill: you can’t let up, at least until the necessary insight appears. It is not Sisyphean, in that you can reach the top . It IS Sisyphean in that after that, you take up another rock, and then another.
This is not futility, though: it is the energy of life.
I say this as an apology in advance for the following post, which I have been wanting to make for several days, and just can’t find the energy and time to make it hurt properly, to hammer it into a better form.