We all look at the world through lens, and since you can see EVERYTHING through lens–think looking through sunglasses–they are very, very hard to see, themselves, particularly if you have been looking through that lens your entire life.
In my own case, and I am probably again sharing too much, my principle perceptual filter has been self loathing. It is not that I have been a particularly bad person–although no doubt my emotional detachment has led to episodes of unconscious cruelty, in ways I could not see at the time–but that I have lacked that part which looks out for me, which counters negativity with positivity. I lacked a mothers love, and that matters.
On the contrary, I seem to have had a part which worked daily to punish me for crimes I did not commit, which is an ancient emotional energy dating back to my first few years on Earth.
Within Kum Nye, they say you are done processing when you feel calm. I felt calm yesterday, and hope to again today.
When I get this thing processed, I will be capable of a great deal of effective work, and better for having lived in the muck for a very long time.