If you were hoping for something sappy, I am going to disappoint you.
I will say this: if you NEED to say “I love you”, it is only because there might have been doubt. For people deeply in love, saying it is superfluous.
Or so I suppose. I haven’t had this experience. I may not ever have it in this life. That is OK.
But I’m going to let my grumpy old man out of the closet and say this: most of the time, men say this to women to help them–the women–rationalize their way through a long series of warning signs. Women say it to men to storm the gates, and try and win power.
Now, obviously, I GET that men REALLY DO feel love for women, and women for men. I am a cynic, but I am also a realist, and obviously there are happy stories out there. Not enough, but they do happen. Truths are told. Souls are exposed and the trust rewarded. It often ends badly, but not always. Not always. Most of life is rolling dice, and sometimes you get lucky when you deserved bad luck, and vice versa.
Most of the time, of course, what you might reasonably have expected to happen, does in fact happen. This still somehow often surprises people. Mon Dieu.
But if I might continue to indulge my obsessiveness, my four stomach (I think that is right) cow, Camus’ more or less said this of Rieux and his mother. They loved each other. Both knew it. Neither said it. And nothing was lost by this. The words were superfluous.
Often what needs to be said will be a lie, and what cannot be said is the only truth.
That sounds deep. Maybe it is. I’m on my fourth beer, so I’ll leave it to you to determine. Is there a three quarters deep? Is it an either/or proposition? Is there a deep-ish? Deep with reservations? Almost deep?
Yes, that is me joking. I am however also listening to King Lear, and wondering what Cordelia’s problem was. Unlike her sisters, she was inarticulate but sincere.
This is a fascinating world. I am intrigued by damn near everything I see. I really am a fucking dog, sniffing everything and wagging my tail and especially when drinking smiling my dog smile.