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Confusion

My goodness, I just spent the last hour convinced it was Monday.  This is not something that happens to me.

Maybe it’s because I didn’t get drunk last night.  I usually get drunk on Saturday night.  I only had 5 beers.  That’s a binge, the “experts” tell me, but light drinking by my standards.  I did forget my teacup.  I weighed 286 this morning.  I had a gooey calzone–2 actually–which is a mess of melted cheese and butter for dinner, but other than a small thing of natto, that was all I ate all day.

I think I am slowly getting in touch with my stomach.  That is where the energy I need to release lives.  As long as it is a repository for nervous energy, I will feel tension and I will feel the relaxation of that tension when I overeat.