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Masochism

It occurred to me that masochism is really an externalization of shame.

I really think there is a lot of value in adding shame to fight and flight.  I got that idea from Sebern Fisher.  If you think of two dogs, they can fight, they can run, one from the other, or one can SUBMIT to the other.  You’ve seen dogs who have been kicked too much (Springsteen lyric): they cower.  Their heads go down.  They are saying “I am not a threat”.

So there are really three ways of dealing with the threat of violence, but all come from approximately the same place in the limbic system, although now that I think about it, there is no neurological reason to think one or the other might not tend to predominate for various reasons.

When the klaxon is going off all the time, the world itself becomes the enemy, the threat.  Masochism then becomes a way of quieting that alarm by showing you present no threat.  You are nothing.  Nothing to worry about.  It’s instinctive, like cringing when something gets thrown at you unexpectedly.

Sadism, then, would be a counterreaction to masochism, which is to say expressed shame.  But masochism is logically first.  It comes from the frightened child, hiding in a corner, or in my case the attic and closets, trying desperately to avoid death and injury by signaling a lack of threat.

And even though, of course, the threat of death and injury passes–even if it is endured daily for many years–it is almost more real than real threats.  Real threats come to seem a relief in contrast.  This is another motivation for otherwise apparently irrational violence.

But masochism is showing obeisance to the universe, first, and not infrequently to other human beings.

I have told, I think, the story of the stripper who told me how she liked to be tied up and suspended, naked.  She was an “exhibit” at some emo music event at least once.  She said it relaxed her and made her feel free.

This hypothesis would explain that.  Her shame, ironically enough, disappeared when she was fully controlled.

I think this makes sense.

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Stupidity and truth

Watch this video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ww47bR86wSc

It discusses the conclusion of Dietrich Bonhoeffer–who was a hero by just about any standard, not least because he had escaped to America and chose to return–that the main problem at least in modern life is not wickedness or intentional malice, but STUPIDITY.

And this really is the case. I was going to post on this the other day.  I have had many nice in person conversations with people I knew were hard core Leftists.  They are often nice people, friendly, and I can chit chat with them easily.  But if I told them I was a huge Trump supporter, I can readily imagine this dark cloud coming over them, and the conversation ending abruptly, and some sort of accusation being thrown at me.  And me denying the accusation–usually racist, but they have a palette to choose from–only reinforces its validity in their minds.

Many of us have tended to say that they are reacting to feelings, not thoughts.  That feelings are not arguments.  And this is true enough, but the underlying reality when we have to make that excuse for otherwise civilized people reacting like primitive savages is that they are being STUPID.  That is the word.  They are not thinking, and not thinking is stupidity.

And you can counter bad logic with good logic–as Plato in the voice of Socrates ably demonstrated long ago–but you cannot counter stupidity with intelligence.  It goes unheard.

And I have run into this countless times.  It does not matter how good your argument is if someone has DECIDED–in reality, if not in their own minds–to be stupid.

The motion of all this is towards violence, because differences that cannot be addressed through dialogue are sooner or later addressed through violence.

I have counseled non-violent resistance, because the aim of that sort of thing is to wake people up and cause them to realize the shared humanity they have with the people they are trying to oppress.  But that sort of thing would not have worked in Nazi Germany or the Soviet Union, or Maoist China, or Castro’s Cuba, or Maduro’s Venezuela.  The stupidity is too strong.

And I honestly think Communists are worse than the Nazis were.  Bonhoeffer was allowed to write letters.  The Communists, who in most cases denied the EXISTENCE of their labor camps, would not have allowed even that.  I truly believe that, as horrific as they were, the Nazis were still more humanitarian than the Communists.  The Nazis only wanted your body: the Communists wanted your SOUL.

The one thing working on the side of sanity is that the people who have lost their minds remain a minority.  As I have said, the sympathetic are about a third of the country, and the outright lunatics about 10%.  These are roughly the numbers for Islamic terrorism, which is opposed, I read, by about two thirds of Muslims.

There remains hope, I think, but the sooner the mass of Americans wake up, the better.  We need to whittle away at that one third with reason, understanding, and wherever they permit it, rational dialogue.  The 10% are hopeless, in my view.  They can only be contained, and their damage limited as much as possible.

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Artemesinin

I don’t know who reads this blog, or how many, but I am going to put this question to the world, again: why am I not seeing any studies on Artemesinin?  I know there is a focus among the sane and decent on Ivermectin, but Ivermectin access remains curtailed in much of the world, and the whores of Big Pharma have done what they were paid to do, which is run a smear campaign against it.

The herb from which Artemesinin is formulated is apparently plentiful, and grows wild in many places.  Amazon has a dozen offerings to choose from, and presumably has had for many years.  It is not and to my knowledge never has been an herb, at least, which required a prescription of any sort.  It’s like buying Turmeric (which also seems to help with COVID).

To my eye, there are a few heroes out there, and plenty of Keystone Cops.  I don’t honestly understand, really, how we are being so fucking stupid in 2021.  Cowardice and corruption are the obvious candidates, but it seems even worse than that.

 

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A few of the COVID claims I want to make

Particularly as concerns KIDS.  KIDS.  5-12 years old.  Who are being forced to wear masks whose long term emotional effects cannot be good.

No informed person can say masks protect kids, and few informed people would claim they protect their (whiny and opposite of heroic) teachers.  Sweden did the experiment: not ONE student or teacher died in a year of instruction with no masks.

The VERY BEST case scenario is that mask wearing is not damaging the psyches of most kids, but do you really think that is true?

1. The risk to people under the age of 25 or so–a case could be made for 35–is nearly zero.  All of the deaths in this demographic, as near as we can tell from the poorly presented numbers from the CDC, came with major comorbidities like cancer and severe existing respiratory illness.
2. Messenger RNA takes healthy cells and turns them into spike proteins, against which the body mounts an immune response.
3. Evidence is good that this mRNA spreads throughout the body, which is in contrast to a traditional vaccination, in which the pathogen stays in the shoulder.
4. Death rates plummet with early treatment, with many doctors reporting zero, or near zero, deaths with early treatment using safe drugs and vitamins.
5. Natural immunity is better than injection induced immunity.  Many studies now exist showing that natural immunity is particularly better against the Delta variant.
6. A Nobel Laureate–Luc Montagnier–is claiming that Antibody Dependent Enhancement is a likely outcome of the widespread use of injections which do not confer full immunity.  This can mean both that a stronger bug evolves, and that individual immune systems get weaker.
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Ionophore

I think it is the editors of the Oxford English Dictionary, which is updated annually, who propose the “word of the year”.  I may be wrong.

But I myself will propose “Ionophore”, as used in the phrase “Zinc Ionophore” as the word of 2021.

The logic of treatment for COVID–and most likely other diseases like the flu–is to get zinc into the cells.  You need a way to do it.  That way is a Zinc Ionophore.

Quercetin does it tolerably well.  Ivermectin and HCQ do it much better.

If freedom and truth survive, there will need to be some global soul searching as to how all this was enabled.

I personally think there needs to be a sort of Nuremburg Trial for crimes which in most cases likely EXCEED those of the Nazis, in terms of death and misery.  I think people need to be tried, convicted, and hung by the neck until dead.  I mean this literally.  No exaggeration.  I will likely hate myself afterwards, but I would pull the lever.

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Thought

I think many people control their own anxiety by controlling other people.

Logically, depersonalization will lead to externalization, and the behavior of others become conflated with one’s own behavior.  If you cannot feel your own Self, then confusing your own emotions with those of others is easy.

Interestingly, to me, I can see the residue of this being done to me.

If true power is mastery of the self, then incomplete and fake, ersatz, power comes from mastering others through fear and manipulation.  Such power does not in the end buy lasting or deep peace.

I am speaking out loud here.  I think there is something here, but feel free to doubt me.

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Some thoughts on a beautiful, rainy and cold, Fall day

If you wanted to drive a people insane, you would deprive them of time and silence.

To deprive them of time, denude the value of their labor by devaluing the currency, slowly, and imperceptibly, as indeed has obviously happened.  Even Milton Friedman accepted a slow erosion of the currency, but in reality, in a just society, the value of money would steadily increase, and our wealth would have increased vastly more than it has, for all but the connected few driving all this.  As a general principle, the bank’s gain is a loss for the rest of us.  If there is a villain in our system, it is the banks, not the creators and risk takers who get labeled “Capitalists”.

To deprive people of silence, push and fund every possible source of noise, and ideally get people addicted to noise as a distraction from the pain brought on by lack of time.

Then, to weaponize the madness you have created, blame everyone but the real culprits.  For otherwise mostly sane people who have tools like religion and community to keep up, more or less, create enemies who seem to present an existential threat, such as terrorists.  For those on the border between sanity and insanity, blame the System itself, without ever mentioning those who create and control the money supply.

And why would anyone want to do this?  They are insane, too.  They are merely trying to drag the world down with them.  They are the rats in Utopia, who have lost the will to live, to procreate, to create, and in the end any residual sense of self and purpose.

 

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The purpose of being is being.  I think often about what it may like to be an infinite, immortal soul.  What is it like, to live 100,000 years, and know it is only a small drop in the endless expanse of time?

Even in a beautiful universe, is ennui–or something like it–impossible?  I wonder.  And as an immortal being, how would you commit suicide?  Amnesia, that is how.  Perhaps we all chose to forget:  something.

I get and value Victor Zammit’s weekly newsletter.  In some of the channeled sources they speak often of service as a purpose of life.  But I wonder: if we created utopia, what then?  If being needed is a purpose of life, then imperceptibly people would begin enabling, on an unconscious level, the problems of others.  Call it spiritual codependence.

It seems more accurate to me to feel that service–helping, caring, carrying and teaching–is an outcome of a spirit which exists in its being, which feels the connections between all of us.

But the purpose of being is being.  To exist, and to expand within ourselves what is beautiful.  That is the main and best form of service.

Wisdom, perhaps most commonly, is leaving people to their own suffering, and their own overcoming of suffering.  And if someone needs a helping hand out of a ditch, give it to them.  Animals in general do not worry about other animals, but there are many videos out there of them helping each other.  I watched one the other day of an elephant helping a man out of a river.  Another, of a goat protecting a chicken from a hawk.  Dogs helping dogs.

But death comes to us all.  I was looking yesterday at a wooded area, and it is filled with both life and death.  Trees, alive, but going to sleep for the winter, but also dead trees, rotting, feeding other life forms.  Animals, likewise, that died one day because it was their time, feeding bacteria and fungi.

And I felt that death is as beautiful in its own way as life.  It is a completion.  We are born into this world, we live, and then we leave this world.  This is just one arena, one place.  We come in, we play a game, and then the buzzer goes off, and it is time to move on, to go back to wherever we came from.

And it is impossible to live without enduring pain, and causing pain.  If even plants have feelings–and I think Cleve Backster, among others, clearly showed that in their own way they do–then we literally cannot maintain a pulse without inflicting at least temporary pain on living creatures.

I suppose we could try and live on apples and grapes and nuts and other things which, when harvested, do not kill anything, but it is worth asking if that is desirable or necessary.

Death is a defining feature of all life at this level.  It will be my turn one day too.  And all life is born able to endure death.  Obviously, we can’t avoid it, but I am making a higher point: we all feel it the moment we are born.  It is my destiny, and that of a cow, and a rabbit and chicken.

This means some cruelty, on some level, is a part of life too, but if not expanded radically, if minimized as much as possible, then it is consistent with the laws of this world, which we did not create.

I would posit that all life on some level chose to be here, to live within the constraints of this game.

And if you look at something like the Squid Game, it is perhaps for many equal parts horror and revelation.  We are so disconnected from the core realities of life.  Few people die at home any more, and in America at least we spend enormous sums of money, and expend enormous effort, buying weeks and months for people who in another time would most likely have died much more peacefully and naturally.

Few talk about it, but this is one very real problem with American healthcare in particular.  Something like a quarter or more of our money goes to this extension of life at all costs.  It is of course very profitable for Big Pharma, which is most likely a big reason it happens.

But if I define sanity as “peace within Truth”, then for our world to expand into generalized sanity–which is the core task of our time–we need to speak the truth, and accept it.

That is of course what I try to do every day.

Even if we build machines that somehow preserve some aspect of human consciousness, will they be eternal?  Do we WANT them to be eternal?  I would assert there is peace in death, too, particularly if we accept the overwhelming preponderance of scientific evidence that some part of us continues on.  To what, for what: we don’t really know.

It is reasonable to suppose, though, that the universe has an order, that we can find tranquility accepting that order, and simply take things as they come, which will always be in a Moment.  We flow, and there is no reason not to enjoy the ride, even when it hurts.

How is this: accepted necessary pain is limitations leaving the body.

Put another way: to expand into the joy and peace which is our natural birthright, we have to stop clinging to what is small and trivial and fleeting.  Each in their own way, all the authentic spiritual traditions teach this.

And at root, what is Satanism–and I think something that may as well be called that underlies the globally coordinated activities doing so much to destroy the peace and prosperity of humanity–but an effort to build a world within fear?  Fear rejecting Truth?  Face rejecting, soul rejecting clinging?  To live as an island in an endless river, never at peace, never at rest, fighting, fighting fighting?

If you reject death, would it not be possible to become addicted to it?  We cling to what we don’t accept and process.  There are many gates we must pass through, and I could see the very rich, particularly, being much too large to pass through that gate.  They have more to lose than most of us, and so they lose everything.

Lao Tzu taught several thousand years ago that only by losing do we truly gain.  I promise you are there are many, many, many people living in huts with dirt floors, for whom hunger is a continual threat, who have vastly more than Bill Gates, George Soros and the Rothschilds put together.

This is emotional logic.  This is speaking to the content of an average day.  The Four Greats are also the four true forms of wealth in this world: Joy, Compassion, Love and Tranquility.  Everything else is a distraction, a mirage, an illusion, wasted time.

An honest life is simple but difficult.  A dishonest life is also difficult, but very complicated.  Lies beget lies, and soon you are lost, and then forget that you are lost, at which point life becomes burdensome, and an endless effort to deflect while trying to maintain some sense of balance, which has been made impossible by the lack of a stable reference point.  It is falling, falling, falling, and trying to resist the falling.

Life has rules.  Every bookstore on the planet has at least a few texts describing them, and every culture which has survived has developed some iteration of them.  There are countless ways to be approximately right, to be good enough.

And I will repeat the old line that courage is the only reliable path to every other possible virtue, which is to say, to every other form of stability, connection, and purpose.

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Random observation

For some time when I was younger I thought it would be cool to be a bartender, because you get to listen to people’s stories.  That never materialized for me.  Whatever work I found was not in bars.

But the reality is that just drinking in bars, you will still hear a lot of stories, and you can actually focus, since in reality most bartenders are busy.

Just in the past week I’ve heard at least half a dozen crazy stories.  People tell me things, because I have no shame admitting I’m half crazy too.  Especially when I’m drinking, I don’t judge anyone (within broad limits: if anyone ever tells me they hurt a child that is a line).  Anyone talking to me is completely safe.  And I focus.  When I listen, you are the rock star, and it’s not an act.

You know what the root of misanthropy is?  Feeling disconnected, and like everyone hates you, or is judging you.

I watch human beings, and all I see is logic.

LOL.  I mean that sincerely though.  You, yourself, are logical, even when you are at your most crazy.  There is a reason, an emotional reason, and looked at carefully, it makes perfect sense.  No one ever does anything that does not make sense to them.

The task I have set myself is to have committed every sin–at some level, which is an important qualifier–that I may see in anyone else.  Then I can SEE.  I will not be blind.  And whatever I have done, I need not cling to or stay with.

Can I say love is remembrance?  Yes, apparently I can.

 

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True? Not true? Somewhat or sometimes true?

Honest laughter is shame leaving the body.

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Bon mot

Rage never built anything.