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One last, last song. This one is really sick

My apologies for posting this. It is horrible. But I want to show what some of our kids are listening to. We need national leadership on this topic.

I am going to warn you: this song is very obviously intended to elicit a feeling of revulsion and outrage. It references sadistic murder, and necrophilia. I decided to give you the option of whether or not to actually read the lyrics. The link is here: I cum blood.

Ask yourself: what psychologically normal person listens to things like this? Answer: none. These people are not psychologically healthy. My suspicion is that most of them are atheists, like Loughner, and have deduced nihilism from it. This makes destruction a virtue, and the bright light of frenetic self immolation their only consolation.

Now, this band does not have a lot of fans, I assume. And historically there have always been sick people, many of whom got their jollies in the wars which have happened everywhere in human history.

Nor am I advocating banning them. What I want people to realize is that there exist scientifically sound reasons to believe in something like God, that philosophically sound remedies to moral pessimism exist, and that misery is not endemic to human existence. Happiness is possible, in spite of everything.

When you truly look the Devil in the eye, he always blinks. I know this. I have done it. Never quit: this is my creed, and it works. There are ample reasons for genuine hope.

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One last song: “Down with the sickness” by Disturbed

When I was growing up, we were taught is church that Ozzy Osbourne was satanic. I was taught that KISS meant “Kings in Satan’s Service”, and Rush “Rulers under Satan’s Hand”. They missed, of course, some more obvious examples, not being fans of rock music. A good example would be the Stones “In her Majesties Satanic Service”.

Yet we have grown far past the suggestive, into the explicit “selling” of evil and hatred. We have grown into what can only be called a death cult. Death metal is a type of music, and it is filled with anger, hate, viciousness, and violence.

This music is mentally sick, and it inspires mental illness in those who consume it. We keep seeing how “right wingers” might inspire some frail mind to violence. This is, as usual, the opposite of the truth.

We saw, quite recently, death threats issued against Sarah Palin by left wingers, after she was falsely accused of somehow inspiring Loughner. Leftists are people who NEED someone to hate, and the only way they can manage it is by pretending someone else is a hater, then venting all their pent up aggression on them. Keith Olberman is vicious. Glenn Beck very explicitly rejects ad hominem, and builds his cases with care and diligence.

What we need to be worried about, is the nihilism advocated in this sort of song, of which there are thousands of example. Some of our youth listen exclusively to this sort of crap, and in my considered view it will very literally warp the foundations of how they view the world. Virtually none of them will grow to practice literal violence, but all of them will be less open and giving than they would have been, less committed to participatory democracy and community involvement, less able as parents, and less charitable generally.

These are the sorts of results that take decades to manifest, but which are very hard to undo once they are present. My hope and my optimism is based on the fact that the people who listen to this sort of thing have certain operative assumptions about the nature of the world. This would include pessimism about the future, atheism, and a tendency to indulge in self pity and resentment. If a movement can be created which counters these tendencies, the effects can be reversed.

Can you feel that?
Ah, shit

Drowning deep in my sea of loathing
Broken your servant I kneel
(Will you give in to me?)
It seems what’s left of my human side
Is slowly changing in me
(Will you give in to me?)

Looking at my own reflection
When suddenly it changes
Violently it changes (oh no)
There is no turning back now
You’ve woken up the demon in me

[Chorus:]
Get up, come on get down with the sickness [x3]
Open up your hate, and let it flow into me
Get up, come on get down with the sickness
You mother get up come on get down with the sickness
You fucker get up come on get down with the sickness
Madness is the gift, that has been given to me

I can see inside you, the sickness is rising
Don’t try to deny what you feel
(Will you give in to me?)
It seems that all that was good has died
And is decaying in me
(Will you give in to me?)

It seems you’re having some trouble
In dealing with these changes
Living with these changes (oh no)
The world is a scary place
Now that you’ve woken up the demon in me

[Chorus]

(And when I dream) [x4]
No mommy, don’t do it again
Don’t do it again
I’ll be a good boy
I’ll be a good boy, I promise
No mommy don’t hit me
Why did you have to hit me like that, mommy?
Don’t do it, you’re hurting me
Why did you have to be such a bitch
Why don’t you,
Why don’t you just fuck off and die
Why can’t you just fuck off and die
Why can’t you just leave here and die
Never stick your hand in my face again bitch
FUCK YOU
I don’t need this shit
You stupid sadistic abusive fucking whore
How would you like to see how it feels mommy
Here it comes, get ready to die

[Chorus (last line changed to “Madness has now come over me”)]

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More lyrics: “Bodies” by Drowning Pool

Loughner included this on a video. I’m curious what was on his iPod, which he apparently listened to everywhere.

Just ponder for a moment how this music could possibly contribute to positive outcomes. It may be useful for soldiers getting ready to engage in combat, but even there I tend to think it would foster an excessive desire to kill.

I included the lyrics in full just to show the obsessiveness of them, the lack of creativity, the mechanistic quality.

More than a thousand years ago–it’s like closer to 2,000 or more–the author of the Wen Tzu pointed out that a culture can best be understood through its music. You look at the words, the topics chosen, and the method of delivery.

Ponder what this song says about us, or at least about those many of us who listen to this song and the many others like it. If you are not familiar with the actual sound of it, find it somewhere and listen to it. I’m sure there’s a YouTube video.

“Bodies”

Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floooooor
Beaten why for (why for)
Can’t take much more
Here we go!
Here we go!
Here we go!
One – Nothing wrong with me
Two – Nothing wrong with me
Three – Nothing wrong with me
Four – Nothing wrong with me

One – Something’s got to give
Two – Something’s got to give
Three – Something’s got to give
Now
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the flooooor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the flooooor
Now!
Push me again
This is the end
Here we go!
Here we go!
Here we go!
One – Nothing wrong with me
Two – Nothing wrong with me
Three – Nothing wrong with me
Four – Nothing wrong with me
One – Something’s got to give
Two – Something’s got to give
Three – Something’s got to give
Now
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the flooooor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Skin against skin blood and bone
You’re all by yourself but you’re not alone
You wanted in now you’re here
Driven by hate
consumed by fear
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floooooooor
One – Nothing wrong with me
Two – Nothing wrong with me
Three – Nothing wrong with me
Four – Nothing wrong with me
One – Something’s got to give
Two – Something’s got to give
Three – Something’s got to give
Now
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the flooooor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor

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Sample lyrics

Look at these lyrics, then think of Jared Loughner. What you see is incoherence, rambling, a sense of moral and mental decay, and sexual frustration. Presumably the reference is that he needs someone to sit on his “flagpole”.

This song is undoubtedly in part autobiographical. This is our culture, or at least a significant part of it. These are the tatted-out, pierced, black wearing people with purple hair. It is not just a momentary ideosyncracy. It is a failure to adopt a formal meaning system, which is the say the mantle of our shared, traditional culture.

This is a subterranean river, but this is in my view the rough sentiment that is causing Europe to slowly dissipate through the failure to maintain its population. Environmentalism is just the ideological cloak. As I understand it, some Muslims in Sweden are already wearing T-Shirts that say “2030: then we take over”.

Flagpole Sitta

I had visions, I was in them,
I was looking into the mirror
To see a little bit clearer
The rottenness and evil in me

Fingertips have memories,
Mine can’t forget the curves of your body
So when I feel a bit naughty
I run it up the flagpole and see who salutes
(But no one ever does)

I’m not sick, but I’m not well
and I’m so hot ’cause I’m in hell

Been around the world and found
That only stupid people are breeding
The cretins cloning and feeding
And I don’t even own a TV

Put me in the hospital for nerves
And then they had to commit me
You told them all I was crazy
They cut off my legs now I’m an amputee, Goddamn you

I’m not sick, but I’m not well
And I’m so hot cause I’m in hell
I’m not sick, but I’m not well
And it’s a sin, to live so well

I wanna publish ‘zines
And rage against machines
I wanna pierce my tongue
It doesn’t hurt, it feels fine
The trivial sublime
I’d like to turn off time
And kill my mind
You kill my mind
Mind…

Paranoia, paranoia
Everybody’s comin’ to get me
Just say you never met me
I’m runnin’ underground with the moles
Diggin’ holes
Hear the voices in my head
I swear to God it sounds like they’re snoring
But if you’re bored then you’re boring
The agony and the irony, they’re killing me, whoa!

I’m not sick, but I’m not well
And I’m so hot cause I’m in hell
I’m not sick, but I’m not well
And it’s a sin to live this well

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Fascism and mental health

The discussion I want to see, following the shooting in Tucson, is one about the mental health of our youth generally. I have cited the effects of media, but even taking a step back from that, I would like us to start thinking about the future of our culture, of our American and Western civilization generally.

If you wander the halls of most universities, what you will see is pessimism. You will see exhausted minds whose big idea is socialism in some form, as if solving the material problems of life would solve the philosophical and spiritual ones. They are closed minded when it comes to philosophical progress. They have decided that language cannot be used to solve abstract moral problems, since no moral absolutes exist. Obviously, one can study ethics, but does anyone really know or care what ethicists do? I am speaking in general terms.

Since it is politically advantageous for them–teachers unions being huge contributors to the Democrat Party–our professional left likes to talk often about the state of our educational system. Yet, we spend as much as Norway, per capita, on education, and get results worse than countries that spend a third less. Why? Because we do not place the same value on education, culturally, and because we do not teach our children self discipline.

The huge gap I see is one of emotional balance, of psychological well being. When I grew up “cutting” was unknown. Now, children know about it in the fourth grade. A well known Disney actress took it up recently.

As I see it, there is this void in the social/emotional lives of millions in this country, that is the same void that led to Fascism in the last century. What would be totalitarians lack is a charismatic personality. They thought they had it in Obama, but didn’t. He has no character or charm–just the ability to read speeches as if he meant them.

And as I ponder this, I think about how Fascism is always labelled as “rightism”. In one sense, and one sense only, this is accurate: where Communists try to invent a new world, Fascists seek to reinvent the past, to hew to the past, and to radicalize and reify cultural traits that were assumed to exist then, and which are to be praised in the present. Traits such as courage, nobility, honor. This is what Mussollini did, in invoked the “Fasces”, symbol of the Roman Consul, and symbol of the Roman Empire in its youth. This is what Hitler did, in invoking the people–the Aryans, which is a Sanskrit word–from whom all the Indo-European peoples evolved, such as the Romans, Greeks, Persians, and Indians.

In important respects, Fascism should be seen, I think, as anti-Communism. It uses the same authoritarianism, the same appeal to conform to the dictates of a ruling elite, as Communism. Yet it does not require the relinquishing of the past. It rather glorifies and flatters ordinary people with a new found nobility of character, that is best expressed through warfare and the glory of battle, and success, as envisioned and led by a powerful Leader.

But both doctrines start from alienation, from holes in the souls of the people to whom they appeal. They presume emotional problems, most of which are concealed in the motion of normal life. They assume people breaking from within from an abundance of energy they cannot figure out how to express creatively, and with which they are slowly being poisoned. The leader who figures out how to harness that–always through some greater or lesser extent of deception, for totalitarians–can conquer the nation.

What we need is moral reform. We need to recognize that Socialism has no ideas for cultural reform. Comfort is not a creed. It is not a code you can live by. It is the doctrine of the old and tired–the Europeans–who simply want to quietly fade away. I do not see this as the path for Americans. We are much younger, and still much more energetic.

In important respects, I have been wrestling with these ideas since my youth, roughly 16, when I started confronting them. And to be perfectly honest, the ability to reject atheism formally, from a scientific perspective, was important for me. I suppose I would make do as an atheist, but I would not be as resilient, and not as happy.

The older I get, the more I realize worldview is everything. Hitler–who was a rhetorical and psychological genius of the first order–invoked it constantly. He said all the time that the German Weltanschauung was unique, as I understand the matter. He told people they were special, that they had a historical destiny. That science was on their side. That morality was on their side.

And this worked, because people were longing to be told who they were. He met a deep seated need to fit in, to belong, to be CERTAIN of something, in an unsure world.

I think to finally achieve world peace–which I continue to view as a valid and viable goal over the next century, in conditions of freedom–we will have to learn to accept some degree of ambiguity in life. We can agree on general principles, but need to realize that there are some parts of this universe we will never really understand. We need to alter our focus from purported Divine Laws, to rules that clearly work in the here and now to foster happiness, including sincerity, honesty, generosity, wisdom, and love.

Here below, as above, these patterns bring fulfillment. Things, per se, do not. As miserable as many of our poor are, they live like kings of old. Why are they not content with this? Culture. Culture is everything.

And Socialism destroys culture. If we are to survive, we will have to abolish this pernicious doctrine. This is not to say we should not take care of our old, sick, and poor. It means that we should not make the sole value that of egalitarianism. To pretend all people are equal in quality in principle is to eradicate the very possibility of moral progress. Having eradicated the ideal of progress, you get the REGRESSION which currently defines our current cultural decline.

This is a bit meandering, but I think there are some important points here.

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Media violence

This is a response I wrote elsewhere in response to the common objection you see when raising the issue of media violence–in this case in particular case of Jerod Loughner–that violent media plainly does not MAKE people go out and commit murders. No, in general, it doesn’t, although this does happen. Every decade several murders can be attributed directly to media, such as the “Dexter” killing in Indiana, in which one brother strangled his other brother, so he could “be like Dexter”.

More generally, though, it amounts to social malnutrition. As I have stated often, violent media decreases empathy, increases pessimissm, and increases lifelong rates of depression. It alters worldviews.

Anyway, here is what I wrote:

In his case, what I think we are looking at is a “Perfect Storm” of negative factors. There are thousands of kids like him around the country, who will never shoot anyone. He made the decision, and needs to face the consequnces, clearly. “Society” can never be measured in any way other than the aggregate of movement that is initiated on a personal, individual level.

At the same time, we do all live with other people, and it is worth asking the question from time to time if our common “culture”–the frequency upon which we send and receive–is beneficial.

One of the most common analytical errors is failing to see what COULD have been. People are always ready to point to cause and effect in things that DID happen. FDR was elected, the Depression eventually ended, ergo he facilitated it. That sort of thing.

Yet this is always imconplete. With regard to this question, we can ask if the media we consume makes us as mentally healthy–as happy, as functional as social begins–as possible. It is not a question of banning books or movies or films. It is a question of asking what is HEALTHY, and trying to teach people about it.

I would draw an exact parallel with nutrition. The solution to people eating Twinkies daily is not to ban them. It is to teach them that they cause net energy drains, unnecessary weight gain, and less strength than that person would otherwise possess.

The media you consume is food for your mind. It affects it. Americans consume some $86 billion in anti-depressants annually. Clinical studies have been done showing enormous increases in rates of depression in the last century. Monopolar depression was almost unknown bck then, absent some major tragedy.

Clearly, many factors play into this, some possibly diet related. But the evidence is clear that watching a lot of violence TENDS to increase rates of depression. It does not do it every time, with every person. It does not induce clinical depression in a linear way.

What it does do is affect your worldview. You see all the time the worst of what people are capable of. You become less trusting and emotionally open. You tend to fear more violence than actually happens. You tend to be more likely to imagine violent solutions to problems than negotiated ones. I personally think this effect is quite clear in our society today.

Loughner was a loser. He couldn’t get a date, had probably never been with a woman, couldn’t get a job, got kicked out of school, and in the end had scared away all of the friends he had. Bad tends to feed bad, and worse tends to go to worse. Many people like him kill themselves. Had he done that, we never would have heard about him. A few people would have gone to his funeral, then he would have been forgotten by all but his family. You may not know this, but there are many dozens of suicides in every State every year. The media does not report them since it has been found that reports of suicides tend to spark MORE suicides, the so-called copycat effect.

As things stand, what he seems to have done is chosen to stoke the hatred and resentment that the self pity that often marks failure causes in weak minds. He fed it with music, like that song by Drowning Pool. And in the end, he walked up to a very attractive young woman, his Representative, and put a bullet in her head. Then he shot and killed her assistant at the same point blank range, a 9 year old girl, an elderly man, and 3 little old ladies.

Clinically, I would describe this as evil.

When I speak of psychosis, I am referring to an acute psychosis, of the sort that makes speed freaks do absolutely incomprehensible things after being up for three days. They commit the most horrific crimes imaginable. When they come down, though, they are psychologically normal, relatively speaking.

I believe we need to be concerned with the sub-acute manifestations of the same evil we see all around us: the glorification of violence, the demonization of enemies, and the desensitization–the drain of empathy and compassion–that all this leads to.

What you put in your head has an effect. I have no doubt of this. It may be subtle, but is nonetheless as real as the effect of a Twinkie. Not eveyone who eats Twinkies is fat, but that does not make them healthy.

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Sociopathy through worldview

Most of us have seen this term, sociopath, for someone who is utterly lacking in compassion, empathy, or conscience. They are not clinically insane, and can act quite normal for entire lifetimes. They are just missing something, in some situations. When other people cry, they have to pretend. If you want an example of the sociopath as hero, just watch the hugely popular Dexter, currently the most popular show among Democrats, but no doubt also very popular with Republicans. I would suspect it’s a few point swing.

Can sociopathy be created through ideology or conditioning? I am thinking, specifically, of Jerod Loughner, assassin of a nine year old girl, 3 little old ladies, one judge, and someone I believe in their thirties. He does not appear to feel remorse.

Who shoots little girls, and feels no remorse? To call him schizophrenic does not seem right. His writings could quite easily be explained by being high. When you are high, things seem to make sense that really don’t. You can quite easily get to a clinically acute psychotic state through sleep deprivation, without actually being psychotic.

What I think most likely is that he absorbed in his environment an ethos of violence, specifically through music, but also through other media.

The question I want to ask is this: can ideas, in themselves, deprive people of conscience? Take the Communists in Vietnam. They committed all sorts of atrocities, for example taking flamethrowers to a village, killing hundreds, as very conscious policy. Who are these people who kill in cold blood simply because people are “class traitors”? How do you get to the state where torture is justified simply because someone has been accused of being an ideological other?

I see no practical difference between the rank and file soldiers who kept order in the “reeducation” camps of the Vietnamese “revolution”, and those who saw to order in the concentration camps of the Nazis. Who were these people? How did they justify to themselves what they did?

Effectively, it seems that the symptoms of sociopathy, of consciencelessness, can be achieved simply by creating a world view in which others are denuded of their humanity as a result of their belonging to some other group. For example, Leftists routinely blame Liberals for all sorts of things, in this particular case of complicity in murder.

Would it not be permissable to kill people who are complicit in murder?

I have been told explictly, on the Daily Cause, that it is acceptable to hate people who hate others. If you want to hate, then, all you have to do is find some group of cultural or ideological Others that you can paint as being “hating”. Then it’s on.

Clearly, some leftists are simply sociopaths searching for an outlet for their aggressive and often sadistic energies. Such seems to me to have been the case with Sergei Nechaev.

If you read that text, it advocates consciencelessness. It advocates destruction. It advocates the subversion of all social institutions, and essentially everything that is standing. It Nihilism, in a formal sense. That was the term used by opponents of this pattern of thought, which offered nothing but death, in pursuit of goals that were never defined.

How does ideology create hate? How does it enable people to stop feeling sorry for other people, where sympathy is a very natural human reaction?

These are of course old questions, but good ones, nonetheless. The reliable one inference I will make is that hatred is always wrong. It is clearly sometimes necessary to fight and even kill one’s enemies, but hating them is always wrong.

If you hate haters, you are a hater. This seems clear enough.

This is a bit rambling, but I wanted to think out loud on this for a few minutes.

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Continuity of Belief

I was in Half Price Books today, and for whatever reason every hipster in town seemed to be there. I am told those disks people put in their earlobes are called “gauges”, and there were a lot of them. I could certainly be mistaken, but in general I don’t think there would be much use asking people like that their politics. I’ve met pot smoking conservatives (who usually self identify as libertarians) but no true conservative hippies.

And I was thinking about it: in general, I associate bookstores with leftists (again, I reserve the word Liberal for people whose main aim is protecting liberty). Why is this, I wondered?

And as I thought about it, it occurred to me that conservatives know what they believe. They have a consistent worldview, that really doesn’t change with the latest study or poll. They tend to believe in the Bible, limited government, the importance of family and marriage, the right to keep and bear arms, etc. Most of them could write their core beliefs on a poster on the wall, and not find them significantly changed 50 years later.

For example, take the following from William Boetcker, first penned in 1916:

You cannot strengthen the weak by weakening the strong.
You cannot help small men by tearing down big men.
You cannot help the poor by destroying the rich.
You cannot lift the wage earner by pulling down the wage payer.
You cannot keep out of trouble by spending more than your income.
You cannot further the brotherhood of man by inciting class hatreds.
You cannot establish security on borrowed money.
You cannot build character and courage by taking away a man’s initiative and independence.
You cannot help men permanently by doing for them what they could and should do for themselves.

Let me say I had posted that on my wall at age 16, and was now 94. Could I not still believe it? Would I have had to alter any of those beliefs in the interim?

Good principles are eternal, even though their time-delineated iteration may differ: this is foundational Conservatism.

Leftists do not think like this. Being “modern”, they depend for their worldviews on science, and “science” changes constantly both for valid and corrupt reasons. When someone says to eat soy, they eat soy. When someone says to stop eating soy, they stop. When someone says the Earth is warming, they vote to get rid of 100 watt lightbulbs. If and when those same people say they were wrong, we will get them back.

And they have to spend a lot of time reading since they are incomplete. They don’t know who they are. They “know” they are the good ones, who want to help the poor, minorities, the Earth, animals, women, and everyone else who is “oppressed”. They are just not always sure why and how. They need to be told. They have to spend a lot of time synchronizing amongst themselves.

I would suspect leftists DO read more books than conservatives. They have to. The reality is that core realities about the human condition really don’t change. The core elements of politics and economics don’t change.

Thus, they are the only ones who listen when someone “proves” that you CAN in fact strengthen the weak by weakening the strong; or that you CAN help small men by tearing down big men; or that you CAN help the poor by destroying the rich.

As I see it, conformity to the herd, and conformity to principle are the only two options, and only one of them is suitable for a free and dignified nation. Yes, conformity to principle is a conformity to tradition–that of Rationalism–but that is the only human tradition which has enabled sustainable self governance and freedom amidst a multiplicity of worldviews, and in radically changing circumstances.

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Intellectuals

Intellectuals are people who start with cartoons, and buff them until they look like portraits. Serious thinkers–another animal entirely–are people who look for as many actual pictures as they can find, from as many angles as possible, and reach decisions only after having done so.

Intellectuals are people who want to believe certain things about the world. Serious thinkers are people who have a vision for the world, who care about outcomes, and who realize that the starting point is always what is, not what ought to be.

What led to these comments was pondering that Van Jones became a Communist–in his own words–after being jailed in the aftermath of the very defensible “Not Guilty” verdict with reference to the officers who arrested Rodney King and his friends. He has dedicated a lifetime to what he probably refers to as an ideal (and what I would refer to as a nihilistic cult), on the basis of a lie.

Did he ever bother to try and learn the facts of the case? Do any Communists? No: if they did, they would not be Communists. Self evidently, people who simply want power can and have used Communism, but I am referring to people who on some level are delusional enough to self identify themselves as trying to help the world.

They start with very simple-minded, muddy, confused ideas, then read and write long books based on those cartoonish premises, such as greed being unique to Capitalism, and autocracies based on a different rhetorical stance as being even possibly better in reality.

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Mental Health and morality

It seems to me that a short definition of mental health is the ability to achieve chosen tasks that take time. Mental health is goal achievement, and goal achievement is mental health.

Morality, in turn, is nothing but goal achievement applied to how our behavior correllates to our chosen principles. It is doing the things we think should be done (charity, fighting for what is right, being responsible), and not doing the things we think we ought not to do, even when they are more convenient than hewing to our moral beliefs. Example would include lying, cheating, and stealing.

In the spirit of openness, it is truly stunning to me how rapidly I personally get distracted from chosen tasks. If it involves writing of some sort, it will usually get done. If it is work-related or family-related, it will get done. My friends can rely on me.

But I can’t rely on myself. I am better than most, but how is it that someone–in some cases, this is me–could join a gym or Weight Watchers, or buy a set of motivational CD’s, or vow to take up a musical instrument and not even last a MONTH? Or even a WEEK?

Who are we when we are that disorganized? Who am I when I am that disorganized?

I had asked the question a week or something ago about where we rest. It seems to me we “rest”, seemingly paradoxically, in goal achievement. In creating and accomplishing goals, we determine for ourselves and others who we ARE. And Being, in what amounts to an existential ontology, is where we rest. Becoming approximates Essence. I came up with that a while ago, and think it is clever. Perhaps I am wrong.

Net, net: I can’t speak from personal experience of complete personal congruence of thought, word and action. They are often at odds with one another. Yet this seems to me the path forward.

I have been making some progress in this of late, which is encouraging.