Author: White Whale

 Both stable love and stable hate precede the objects.

I reached this conclusion introspecting.  I have, by the way, found that Wim Hof breathing gets me drunk enough for me to have learned, largely, how to forego the real thing.  

But laying there in a breath hold, all sorts of interesting thoughts and feelings course through me.  I am a large man–256 this morning–but I can get a tad over two minutes, which is not bad, especially considering I am doing it the correct way, as I understand it, on a full exhale.

What I feel is there is hate in me.  Hate, as I have commented, is the combination of anger and shame, which are two of the three “colors” of the amygdala (rage is anger and fear, and craven conformity the outcome of fear and shame, with all three playing prominent roles in all authoritarian regimes).

Hate of this sort, of the wounded sort, of the traumatic sort, has no object.  It seeks and finds objects in its vicinity.  It is pernicious particularly in the intelligent, since it is not hard at all to rationalize the feeling ex post facto without realizing one has the process backwards, in terms of what actually happened psychodynamically.  Most, and more likely all, of Antifa works like this.

And what I feel is that addiction, for me, and I think for many people, is a sort of small suicide in which I kill rather than express what is hurtful in me.  I drown it in alcohol.  I dim my light.  I extinguish my flame, for a time, rather than risk full exposure.

And I think addicts always have a sort of split in them, a dual personality, in which neither element is really honest, really open, and really true.  One is more honest than the other, but the reality is blood and pain, and people like me rarely are even ABLE to get there, much less able to resolve these sorts of things.  You toggle back and forth between one personality element which is not addicted–the one that sends you to AA meetings–and one which is, without resolution.  This is why too much is never enough.  Too much never gets it done.  Too much feels like it should work, but it never does.  That’s why you increase the dose.  It’s all just on the wrong frequency.  It’s not even really close.  It has no hope of working, even if it kills you.

I’m not sure what I am saying here makes sense, but I do feel there is something useful here at least in seed form.

 If reason were a virus, chronic fear would prevent infection.

If chronic fear were a virus—and it is—then reason prevents infection.

And I will comment reason is not emotionlessness. It is not cold, or clinical. Reason is the mental counterpart to emotional health and intelligence. It is a mentally proportionate and appropriate response to any given stimulus.

 It is most likely no one listens to me, but my OCD compels me to comment I rarely throw ideas without downsides and immune to objections.

It is the positive generative aspects that interest me. I leave it to others to find the holes and problems.

 Joe Biden wants a national mask mandate. Ponder that he could not BEGIN to implement it before January of 2021

 Tara Reade tells her story in prime time

Health ministers or equivalent from Sweden, Switzerland, and/or India tell how they beat the disease.

Subject to HCQ availability—a big if—. Trump could literally end COVID before the election.

I get the politics of deferring to Fauci, but Trumo remains President, and in my view he needs to take a strong stand on this issue. The evidence is there now to support him.

 Only being able to see with your mind is a form of blindness. This is true no matter how intelligent you are.

I feel and rue my own blindness daily. I am perhaps in this regard merely severely myopic, but the point remains. I have not, in my own view, even begun to honestly tap my own potential. It seems to me most people never realize anything else is possible.

 It has long been obvious to me that Democrats take care of Teachers Unions because Teachers Unions give all their money and support to Democrats. By and large this is and long has been true of most Unions, with out and out graft and rent seeking both being common in most solidly Blue States like New York and New Jersey.

But one aspect that occurred to me is that Teachers Unions also play the unique role of reliably delivering Democrat VOTERS, and children so stupid and ignorant they have been effrctively blinded to their own interests.

Ponder and witness their nomination of a 79 year old man for President, who is clearly suffering dementia—and I will note that at his age it is not even the oft quoted “early onset” dementia—and who has been credibly accused of rape by a Democrat, who can produce plenty of winesses who were told about it at the time. He has a long history of being grabby in truly creepy ways, even with very underage girls. He has said countless stupid and thoughtless things on cameta, told blatant bald faced lies, and is under investigation in the Ukraine for a crime he ADMITTED TO ON CAMERA, and for which Trump, though obviously innocent, was impeached.

ONLY conspiracy theories, of one sort or another, are able to explain this astonishing and completely unprecedented situation.

 Children who dont hear No, or do not hear it often enough, find themselves living in a world which is much too large, and much too hard to navigate, without simplistic and generally destructive heuristics. If patents do not provide boundaries—lines of demarcation—their grown children will grasp straws in the flood.

Evil is in important respects nothing more complicated than an inability to feel life within one’s self.  It is, perhaps, a striving for life by those unable to know it. We are all born with an innate urge to light, and to an internal sun. But if you do not know what the sun feels like, you will be lost for a very very long time.

 https://banned.video/watch?id=5f400edfdf77c4044ef0973f

A psychiatrist talks about HCQ and why kids need to go back to school.

 This is a great motto, but we need to remember real swamps are passive, and this one has things like COVID in its inventory.  The alligators are large, smart, mobile, and well funded, and they DO NOT LIKE THE LIGHT OF SCRUTINY.

This thing is a fight.  It will be a fight for a long time.  Trump has not even really been able to get started.  But I think he can in his second term.  That is why the Swamp will throw every dirty trick you can imagine at him–and us–and many tricks most of us cannot imagine.