Author: White Whale

As a general principle, as a default tendency, is it useful or cruel to undermine in others comforting illusions (or at least what I see as illusions)?

Somebody posted one of these things where you pick an image then see whst it says about your personality. The five I read all fit me reasonably well. I pointed this out, then felt badbecause this is a method for making people feel special. It makes them happy.

I apparently figured out there was no Santa Claus well before my 5th birthday, so I cant remember wha it may have been like. I didnt want to raise my kids to believe in him, but I got outvoted and gave in. In my own life I hate lies, and Santa Clsus is a lie.

But perhaps I am a grinch. I have no answer her. Just thinking aloud.

If we take the metaphor of “fathering” to its logical extent, we have to admit that there are good, bad, and horrible parents. Albert Schweitzer had a fathet, but too did Joseph Mengele , Adolph Schickelgrubet, and Vladimir Ulyanov.

The metaphor does not take account AT ALL just how we are to weed out the good parents from the bad ones, and in practice, to state it tsutologically, those who seek power seek power. It was precisely to keep domineering and cruel fathers from gaining general influence anywhere that distributed system was constructed how it was.

If we imagine Communists as parents, they are domineering narcissists who not only do not want their children to develop, but who sctively seek to break their will so they become carbon copies of themselves. They beat their children severely, torture them psychologically, lock them in rooms all alone, and kill the ones who insist on retaining a personal sense of self.

On a lesser scale, consider Father Bllomberg: obesity is UP, not down. I predicted this. Adults can buy two smaller drinks rather than one larger. Thet can est more just to piss off their father.

No person lacking true empathy is fit to rule anyone.

Im sitting inAmish country, surrounded by beautiful rolling hills, the morning fog, watching buggies and women with bonnets on riding bicycles. It is easy to forget this America exists, where doors are unlocked, people are honedt and diligent, and even though most homes have a gun, very, very few are fired in anger. It is prceful like rural Switzerland is peaceful. When we hear constantly about how violent America is, we forget that in terms of land mass, most of America is like this. Where whites predominate, there is peace.

Yes, I went there, but you know I am right. When we compare the US with Canada or Europe, we are actuasly safer than some nations  like Britain, once you the statistics out for non-whites. Convenient or not, this is fact.

But it has not always been fact. For long periods of history, blacks were no more violent than we were. All the crime, all the blight, all the horror which stays mainly in their own neighborhhods, began when thecleft started trying to use blacks to get power, by pretending they cared. They did not care. They dont care now. Barack Obama would gladly set the ghettos on fire, if he could blame someone else, and get more power in so doing.

And culturslly, what IS the problem, today. Aside from the lack of economic opportunitied createf by asinine leftist ideas, on a deeper level blacks have not processed both the traumas of their past, or thrir PRESENT, in which for most violence is a constant threat.

Ponder this: is a pimp really that different from a slaver? Do they not assert, by threat of force, the right to the labor, body, and wealth of their thralls?

Here kiis an idea: before the black community can “grow up”, mature into a group of peaceful, diligeent, serious people, they will, emotionally, have to have a genuine alternative to permanent dependence. People like Barack Obama, in working to make this increasingly difficult, sre cursing them, not helping them.

It occurs to me as I look at my own emotional energies that the true toll of being molested is not so much the physical act, so much as being forced into an accommodation with someone CAPABLE of that.  The abused or neglected child is forced into a sort of Stockholm Syndrome.  It is all the time when you are NOT being molested, but being forced to act normal, being forced to live in denial, that truly causes lasting damage.  Authenticity and emotional honesty become impossible, and are quite often never again attained.

And in my own case I have always felt like I was molested, but I wasn’t, at least as far as I can tell.  Both my mind and my gut tell me I wasn’t.  But what makes sense to me is that the same sort of energy, that same combination of emotional detachment, and excessive clinging was present, and had a similar effect.

And I’m not sure why I’m using this as my journal.   I suppose the orthodox answer would be boundary issues, which I have certainly struggled with.

But in my heart, I do also wish humanity well.  I want everyone reading this to take courage in their own struggles, to see that many other people are secretly facing similar demons, and handing them an ass-kicking.

I used to debate leftists often.  I spent hours daily for a number of years, logging many thousands of hours in all.  I enjoyed the process of pounding them on the head because they were stupid.  I enjoyed shutting them down, which I nearly always did.  You can only defend the indefensible so long.

But as I grow, I see that I, too, was using this process to express anger, hurt, and cruelty.  My ideas were sound, but my approach was not.  The simple truth is that you cannot convince anyone of anything, in almost all cases, in an antagonizing manner.

The process was useful in helping me clarify my own ideas, but I am not that angry any more.

Pursuant to my last post, I think Postmodernism could be summarized as “there is no problem because there is no solution.”  Put another way, that philosophers could stop worrying about problems of meaning because they weren’t problems at all.  They could simply talk and talk and talk, mainly about the process of talking, and because the very method they used was PREDICATED on failure, they never needed to worry that the process would end.

These people created nothing useful, and worked hard to destroy things–like common sense morality, as in the Golden Rule–that were.  Countless thousands of years and lives have been wasted on this drivel.

Another way of thinking of this might be “there is a problem, and we have a distraction: look at those shiny beads!!!”

Imbecility and irresolution.  The world is filled with it.

As I progress in Kum Nye, it is causing a considerable amount of pain.  I am pulling up things that were well suppressed.

As I think about it, the ability to create psychological numbness is an important protector of our sanity. It enables a sort of circuit breaker, after which you stop processing.  The down side is that you lose a part of your consciousness, your ability to be emotionally present.  The upside, though, is that you can keep going without killing yourself.

Here is the point I wanted to make, though, my ability, now, to access these layers is entirely dependent upon my complete confidence that there is an out, that there is an end, that at some point, if I only keep moving, only keep doing these exercises in a reflective and interactive, focused way, that my pain will end.

And I would generalize this.  I would submit as a general principle that the only way we can begin to process trauma is if we can see an end to the process.  It helps working with people who have endured something similar, and worked their way out of it.  They are models of what is possible.  This is why it is so helpful for fellow survivors of your trauma to be with you.

And this is the genius of the Buddha’s Fourfold Path, which states not just that “there is a problem”, but that “I have a solution, and here it is”.

Part of the problem of “Modernity”–which we might usefully define as “the disintegration of effective moral discourse through sloppy thinking and flawed models of reality”–is that it is stated over and over and over that “there is a problem”.  The essence of Existentialism is stating that there is a problem, then asserting there is no solution.  Angst is authenticity.  Not very attractive.

Effectively, this has meant that we have created an emotional crisis, then denied a way out.  No exit.  This can ONLY lead to, what?  Numbness.  Moral and psychological numbness. Making our present realities uglier, less rich.

This is the root, psychologically, of Cultural Sadeism. I am certain of it.

But there IS a way out.   All of my work points to it.  Ontologically, in how we “are”, the solution is in my view Kum Nye, perhaps with occasional Holotropic Breathwork sessions.

Cognitively, the answer is Goodness.  I have outlined what I view as a solid philosophical treatment of it, which I believe is internally consistent, useful, and not contradicted by any part of reality of which I am aware.

Scientifically, we have to integrate the empirical fact that reality is much more complex that solid bits of matter interacting with one another.  We are connected as spirits in intimate ways with the visible world, and our souls survive the deaths of the transportation vehicles that are our bodies.

Environmentally, we could put every man, woman and child on Earth into a house with a yard, and fit them in Texas.  The Neo-Malthusians, the Neo-Hysterians, have lied about the extent of the dangers we face.  There is no global warming, or at least no man-made global warming.  Resources are not running out.  We are not in danger of mass starvation. 

The people who created the panic NEED a crisis in order to justify their existences.  Again, they are in inward pain which forces them emotionally into numbness, which is manifested by abstractions which have as their outward aim the remediation of some alleged problem, and which function internally, in emotional reality, as vehicles for cruelty, which I have said many times is a sort of outsourcing of pain.  If you cannot feel your own, you seek it in others.

All of our problems, individually and collectively, have good solutions.  All of them.

In my personal view, based on what I read and what feels right to me, we choose our lives before birth.  I chose my life.  I chose my parents, knowing full well that it would cause me considerable grief and suffering.

What my parents taught me was invaluable, which is how to diagnose mental illness by what is NOT there.  We assume lunatics will act like lunatics.  We picture people walking around talking to themselves, or going on stabbing sprees, or making endless doodles on the wall, or cutting themselves incessantly.  We expect them to talk about voices in their head, or to see things that aren’t there.

But insanity has a curve.  There are grades of insanity.  And it is quite possible to under the thrall of very primal, very basic emotions, and to act quite genteelly, as George Bernard Shaw does in saying “Sir or Madam, please be kind enough to justify your existence.”  Do we not speak of “Shavian wit”?  Shaw was a functional psychopath.  He believed strongly in mass murder.  He supported Hitler.  And his plays are still performed often to this day.  His legacy has seen no reckoning.

What Shaw was missing was empathy, and its fulfillment, Love.  He was missing the most important emotion possible in a human being.  Seeking it, without being able to name or even imagine it, he came upon Cultural Sadeism as an ersatz moral compass.  He came upon something which does not exist, “Society”, and came to see in it all possible good, all possible moral development of precisely the sort he was incapable of.

I look at my parents and what I see are automatons, with as little true freedom as insects.  That is of course a gross exaggeration, but somewhere within them is a complex, or set of complexes, of unprocessed traumatic emotions, things they simply cannot integrate into their consciousness, which drive them, and which, to the point, prevent them from the exercise of true empathy, from truly being able to connect with an outside world.

And I see important and substantial similarities between the world I grew up in, in which everyone was expected to pretend they were happy even when they were miserable, and that which the psychopaths working to build a global socialist order want.  Perhaps that is another reason I chose my parents, to be able to see this connection.

Until you can truly and fully relax, you are much less than fully human.  Until you can take pleasure simply in existence, you are less than fully human.  You are insane.

In important respects, this in my view is what the Buddha actually meant by “suffering”.  You can’t know how trapped you are until you become free.  You can’t know what other emotions and sensations are possible until you feel them.

You have likely not heard of the book American Betrayal.  Read this review:  http://www.breitbart.com/Big-Government/2013/09/26/Its-worse-than-a-conspiracy-it%20-s-consensus

Our social order is insane at the moment.  We have lost the capacity for basic moral reasoning, or at least a large segment of our populace has.  They live in a zombie world, where they recite propaganda.  Leftists–Moral Sadeists–have made it so they can say up is down, and people will nod their heads and go out and repeat it. 

Take Syria.  The “rebels”, most of whom are not Syrian, are cutting the heads off of Christians, and torturing children. They are literally cannibalizing their enemies.  None of this was happening under Assad.  All of this is new.

And Obama says “support them”, and people who have claimed to viscerally oppose war their ENTIRE LIVES now say that we should support Syria.  This is insanity.  This is a loss of moral agency, of the capacity for principle based behavior.

Prior to the last election I posted about a dream I had where people were voluntarily allowing themselves to be decapitated, in a ceremonial procession.  This process has been going on for a long time.

If you want to find zombies, look in our halls of allegedly higher learning.  You will find genteel, well dressed, polite, polished people who are INSANE, who justify by ignoring the slaughter of MILLIONS of men, women and children; who ignore the massive and predictable horror in South Vietnam, Laos and Cambodia that followed our reckless and indefensible decision to abandon our allies there.

These people are not only still with us: they are running our government.  Why won’t Obama bend on Obamacare?  Simple: his vision is a totalitarian world in which he gets the massive narcissistic supply of being a dictator, and taking control of healthcare is only one short step in the direction he envisions.  Not only does he not care about the predictable and preventable suffering that will attend the idiocy that is Obamacare, he intends MUCH MORE.  He wants it to get much, much worse.  He won’t suffer.  His family won’t suffer.  And that is sufficient.

Do you think Fidel Castro has EVER cared about children being treated for cancer with expired aspirin?  Of course not.  He is a sociopath.  Functionally, so too is Obama.  So are all of these people.  These ideas make them like that.  They can rationalize in principle the destruction of principle.  They have found a way to discard all the advances of Western civilization, and fall back to the darkest periods of the human race, before any social order was possible.

And I want to be clear that OF COURSE they can found an order based on power and the fear of that power.  But that is not a social order.  We do not become more connected.  On the contrary: this is the limit of alienation.  This is making all human beings alone and solitary, without hope, without a sense of being.

In a formal sense, this is the essence of evil, because it is the polar opposite of love.

You likely did not see this: http://www.mirror.co.uk/news/uk-news/princess-diana-assassination-plot-claim-2275500

I have long felt, based on a dream I had, that Diana was murdered.  Here it is alleged that a bright light was put on the car while in the tunnel, presumably while they were being chased and possibly sideswiped by an SAS team put on the task by the British royal family.

I have long felt Diana was either pregnant or considering it, even though if my memory serves she was 38.  I don’t know where this came from: the dream, a gut, or a thought.

But here is my point.  The British do not have a Constitution. They have a body of habit, a body of habit which technically still includes the House of Lords as a body with power, and which technically still recognizes the Queen as the Monarch of the domain.  As far as I am aware, she still has veto power over any legislation, and seemingly the power to command anyone to do anything she wishes, even if this power is never used.

Any criminal investigation is going to focus on the actual perpetrators.  But they are going to immediately point to orders, and the allegation is going to be that the orders came from the grandmother (or, at that point, I think it was the great-grandmother) of Diana’s children.  How far could any such investigation go?  Could it not be suppressed?

Here is the interesting question: one of them is in line for the throne.  I have spent a life not caring a whit about the British royal family, but I think it was William.  Surely HE, if no one else cares whether or not his mother was taken from him to protect the pride and pretensions of his own family?  Will HE initiate a serious investigation?  It seems likely the SAS members involved will still be alive.