Author: White Whale

 This whole murderous madness of the responses the world over to COVID-19 is pure evil.  None of this makes sense, and no doubt millions of people will die of starvation and of misery.  We knew Vitamin D and zinc made a difference virtually from day one, but no one is speaking about them on the main platforms.  Fauci has mentioned them, but made no point of them.  

If they had emphasized Vitamin D and zinc the way they emphasized masks, this pandemic would have 75% or more less death, and we would be done with the lockdowns.  Ponder that.  Take as long as it takes.

I continue my process of trying to understand this sort of evil.  It is not passive.  It is aggressively anti-human.

And these vaccines may well attack women’s reproductive capacity.  It is a stated risk in the literature.  Snopes had a “debunking” article they removed, which is always a sure sign that there is both smoke and fire.  They were debunking the claim that the vaccine WILL cause infertility, and their debunking consisted in a senior VP at I think Pfizer saying that it MAY cause infertility.

And keep in mind Big Pharma cannot be sued.  They bear ZERO legal risk, no matter what happens.

Consider that any theoretical risk, deployed across hundreds of millions–no, BILLIONS, over the next year or so–WILL cause all possible damages in some people.  Let us say it is 1 in 5.  20% of the population no longer able to bear children.  Bill Gates handed out vaccines in Africa that caused infertility, without telling anyone, at least according to Robert F. Kennedy, Jr.  The template, and indeed the RESEARCH, already exists.

How do we get to Children of Men?  Well, this vaccine may be one way.  What if the process winds up being 80-90% over a period of ten years?  This is what the psychopaths running this world want.  This is a key goal.  Permanent sterilization.  The human herd unable to reproduce without the aid of experts they control.  

Here is the thing, and the point I started to make: no one who lives in a prison wants to be reminded of it.  And all people whose inner emotional core is characterized by unprocessed and unacknowledged trauma live in cages.  They are on leashes, tethers.

What is the most painful thing for such people to see?  Happiness.  Innocent joy.  Why?  It REMINDS THEM OF WHO THEY ARE.

All of us, all day every day, have happy thoughts, joyful thoughts, connecting, compassionate and loving thoughts, popping up all day every day.  It is in the nature of being human, of living in this endless sea of light.  If nothing more complicated happens than allowing them regular expression–subject of course to the fits and defensiveness all of us are prone to–then all will be well.  Let the mustard seed do what mustard seeds do.  It will work out in time.

But there exist people in whom seeing this provokes first the image of their own cage, then rage at their confinement, then rage at those who reminded them.  The first two flit through so quickly they don’t see them.  They just find themselves wanting to hit something, to punish something, to cause pain and misery.

This is the ultimate root of evil.  It is a resistance to natural progress.  It is damming up a river because you cannot stand the water.  It is attacking life itself out of a sense of futility born of confinement that cannot–they believe and feel at the most basic root of their being–escape.

Evil is a facade consisting in lies they tell themselves, then a second set of lies they tell others.  They delight in lies since they are familiar, since their lives depend on them.

And mockery has bitterness as a source, does it not?  Happy people do not mock others.  They are not mean.

I will say this, to any such people who remain torn in two, and conscious of it: I will find a way out.  Every day I make progress.  I know the feelings of helpless rage, of being crushed, of being hopeless, of the desire to inflict harm on others.  The problem in me, and in people like me, is that it exists at the most primitive emotional levels.  I was broken before I was able to form memories.  I don’t remember a time before the pain started.

But I am on the path to finding the way out.  I just need time.  Every day I pray, and every day I work as hard and as intelligently as I can manage, and with ups and downs the average continues to rise slowly.  Don’t close the door yet.  Some of you do not know you are trapped, but some of you do.  I feel this.  

 It feels vaguely foolish to me talking about “life” when everything in our lives may be on the verge of being overturned by lunatics and truly evil human beings, but until that happens, I guess we all need to do the best we can, and even if and when it happens, that remains true.  We need to seek out wisdom, comfort, kindness and what joy and gratitude we can create or find.

I was dreaming the other day about someone who used to be in my life.  He is an ambitious man who through relentless focus and hard work has done very well financially.  He is on all accounts great at his job, and paid very well for it.  His wife had a child from a previous marriage, and that child is a neurotic mess, from what I can tell, and is in turn raising a child that is also a neurotic mess.  His focus was always on his job.  That always came first.

So we are there in dream space and he tells me that I have to come stand in a line, because a terrific, not-to-be-missed sale on stuff is coming up, and if we don’t hurry we will miss it.  So I’m standing there with him, and people start cutting in line in front of me.  One of them I knew, another guy who did very well for himself.

This goes on for a while, then suddenly a have a small girl over my shoulder who seems lost, and my focus shifts to her, to helping her, to helping her find her family and her way.  The line sort of disappears into a sort of mist.

Now, I had been talking with my oldest the other day, about a time when she was little and had to be hauled out of a mall over my shoulder because she did not want to stop watching a dancing Santa Clause.  She has become a healthy, well adjusted, successful person.  She is a good person.

And it hit me that most Americans live their lives waiting for the Next Big Thing.  We work and wait, work and wait.  The next house, the next car, the next promotion, the next vacation: that will do it, for sure.  And if not, well there’s always the line to the Next Big Thing.

If I might paraphrase and in my classify-it-how-you-will opinion improve on, a quote by John Lennon “life is what happens while you are waiting for it.”

You know what is at the end of the line?  A cliff.  You fall off.  That is it.  You wait and wait and wait, and then your time is up.  Poof.

One of my jobs in this life was to interrupt the pattern of abuse and trauma from which I emerged.  I have done that.  That is an intrinsically valuable use of time and life energy.

And as far as YOLO I would ask this: how much time in a life can you spend skydiving, Rocky Mountain Climbing, going 3.7 seconds on a bull named Fu Manchu? 

There is a place for all that.  I am not saying any of that is wrong, particularly the process of learning to embrace fear.

But I would suggest that all of us, if and when we make it to old age, will value vastly more loving deeper, speaking sweeter, and giving forgiveness we’ve been denying.

https://www.infowars.com/posts/attorney-lin-wood-claims-jeffrey-epstein-still-alive/

There will come a day soon when there will be a fight over the memory of 2020. People will claim all of this was regrettable but necessary.

This is an obvious lie. None of this was necessary. It seems likely that 8 or 9 out of 10 people who ACTUALLY died of COVID-19 would have lived if they had not been Vitamin D deficient, and they would not have been Vitamin D deficient if they had been TOLD from the get-go to supplement.

It is also the case that the average age of death from COVID-19, in nearly all countries, is the average age of death from ALL CAUSES. This means most of the people who died were on the verge of death anyway.

So basically you were either knocking on death’s door to begin with, or lacking in an easily obtainable nutrient. Take those numbers out, and you get a mild to moderate flu epidemic. That is the cold hard truth.

And you have to add back on to the back end what I suspect will be at least a doubling of the number of suicides and drug overdoses, and a huge increase in overall mortality that will last some years from the stress of this year, the stress joblessness will continue to create for many, and from an overall reduction of preventive care of half or more. Cancer screenings, heart screenings, wellness visits, vaccinations for kids: all down immensely. All this will lead to more death.

And whatever the merits may be for single use surgical masks worn properly, they are not seen often. Most people wear cloth masks, and cloth masks CLEARLY INCREASE infections from viruses. This, even if they are changed and washed daily. Here is that study: https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/25903751/

So anyone who is not filled with rage and resentment is either a vastly better person than me, ignorant, or enjoying the process for reasons of profit and the enjoyment of the abuse of power.

When the wheels start turning, resist them. Speak the truth.

Specifically, I am going to encourage those of you who have read this far to share the link to the mask study. We have been called “science deniers” all year. Well, this is science, and it says the OPPOSITE of what is being claimed.

Things will change this year, in some ways for the better and no doubt in some ways for the worse. I hope things get better, but they may get worse. I continue to believe, though, that in a world of lies there is merit in working a bit daily to speak the truth to the mob. So here you go.

Happy New Year!!!

 In our physical work, the job is to be competent.  To do quality work at a reasonable pace, with good focus, and reliable outcomes.  We know it when we see it, in general.

The work of the soul is to become brighter, more coherent, more clear, and more open.  We “do” soul work every day, although often it is done poorly, and not infrequently people are trending in the wrong direction, that of bitterness, anger, futility, frustration, humorlessness and the darkness that follows all of these.

But qualitative growth is possible and the core REASON we are alive.  It is the meaning of life, if one wants to use that phrase.  But it is a FEELING of meaning.  This is what we want.  It is neither necessary nor in most cases even desirable to explain it, any more than it is good to wonder why you feel good, or why a joke is funny.  Just let it be.

And if one asks “how do you GET the feeling that life has meaning?” the answer is you don’t.  Life well, and it alights on you like a butterfly.  It may not stay there, but as time goes on, you see it more and more.

At root, the core problem of modernity is that our philosophers and scientists–I will note the latter often mistake themselves for the former–have lost this sense that “being” per se can be qualitative, and that it can be improved at the individual level.

At its root, Socialism is nothing other than the INEVITABLE emergence of a morality rooted in the abstraction of “society” made necessary by our innate moral sense–the moral sense of materialists who are also philosophical pessimists in most ways that matter–combined with an intellectual incapacity to figure out how to pursue it at the individual level.  They have to pursue social morality when they cannot make sense of individual morality.

And self evidently social morality is a convenient hiding place for the dissolute and awful people of the world.  Cheating and horrendous behavior come naturally to most people attracted to the Democrat faith.  It is a church which both admits everyone, and demands nothing other than obedience to its POLITICAL creed, and at that to the words and ritual behavior, not to anything concrete that could ever be seen in the physical world, which is to say not to outcomes, and not to the alleviation of suffering, or even the AWARENESS of suffering.  It is enough to brag, to preen, to posture, and to gloat.

 Bread feeds your body.  Emotional and spiritual digestion of experience–of the energies in the world–is what feeds your soul.

And how does one “digest” experience?  By accepting it, then adding it to an existing flow of energy–both emotional and subtle–within oneself.

Kum Nye, on this account, could literally be rendered “the practice and science of emotional and spiritual digestion, which is to say internalization and integration and reradiation.”

What is the life of the body?  Doing.  What is the life of the soul?  Being.  They are intertwined.

I recently started reading Marcus Aurelius, and the Stoic philosophy is in important attributes identical to that of Buddhism.  You are reject desire and aversion, and you try to “cling” to what is real, what is good, what is eternal.  The Hindu phrase Sukkhadukhasamo (Happiness and pain the same) applies.

And spiritual digestion is health, and health is happiness.

This morning I was contemplating the odds of the survival of our Republic as something not run by leering bastards who sell themselves cheap and don’t understand anyone unwilling to do so. The odds are against sanity, decency, and goodness.

But then I thought to myself: all I can control is me.  My focus needs to be on maintaining my own integrity–of keeping myself from being pulled to pieces and scattered to the four winds by inconsistency, lies, and denial–and the rest is out of my control.  And here is the core truth I realized: this is simultaneously PRACTICAL and idealistic.  It is the best of all worlds.  It is very difficult, but intelligent, and generous to the extent generosity truly is a gift to the world.

I get moments of this, of connection even to “bad” energies, and it is FASCINATING.  The sum product of “bad” energies and my own life is completely unpredictable.  Beauty can be found in ugliness, joy in the processing of pain.  Life can be a miracle where it DOES NOT MATTER what “happens” to you.

These are old teachings, old skills, not very common any more.  But everything that was ever possible remains possible, in my view.

Cut and paste from an email:

 I thought this worth the watch. It is clear, coherent, factual as far as I can tell, and fits the need well for some sort of conspiracy theory to explain this mass madness, that I keep commenting on day after week after month.

 I posted on this some years ago, but in my mind, this is the best movie by means of which to begin to appreciate what Communism is: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ssJbC2pNaCA

It takes a while to set up.  Be patient.  It will kick you in the balls.

 There was a saying, back in the days when most Americans knew that most politicians were for sale, that “an honest politician is one who, once bought, stays bought”.  It was half joke, half serious, I think.

I have said this before, but what we need are less politicians who are “honest” this way.  We need more tech titans–some of whom may have “borrowed” money from the Chinese to start up or stay up–who are less “honest” too.

It would be a boss move for Trump to proactively offer to pardon anyone willing to come forward with details.  Some people have no consciences to speak of, but there are certainly a lot of people who, in times of duress or hasty greed, made decisions they have come to regret.

What has to be understood is that the tyrants always eat their own.  Some of Stalin’s worst excesses were directed at people that helped him and Lenin gain power in the first place, the Old Guard.  He hated the Old Guard.  They were a threat to him.

EVEN IF you are part of a movement you think will protect you, EVEN IF you think you are safe, you are not safe, if you know too much.  There can only be a few.  Everyone else is burned in the fire.  There are compartments inside of compartments, and if you are not at the middle, you are driftwood once your particular task in the whole thing is complete.