Author: White Whale

I think this is a good motto for me.

We live in a world where many words have been converted into NewSpeak, such as “homophobia”, “Islamophobia”, “Racism/ist”, and in my view most notable “hate”.

We know the left does not oppose hate per se, because it is uniquely gifted in practicing it, and preaching it, and inflicting it.  It is FOUNDED on it.  Without hate, they have nothing.

I woke up this morning feeling I have never actually hated anyone, myself.  I have always said hate is a lot of work, and it is not repaid, at least for emotionally well people.  If I disagree for one moment–or even express insufficient enthusiasm–for the propaganda de jour–soon to be de jure, if the actual haters get their way–then I am called a hater.  They take the notion of hate, then add the appropriate propagandistic appellation.

Do you think the failure of blacks to thrive is in some measure their own fault?  Then you are a hater and a racist.

Does it make you uncomfortable seeing two flamboyantly gay men adopting a little boy?  Then you are a hater and a homophobe.

Do you take Muslim radicals at their word when they say they want to destroy America?  Then you are a hater and an Islamophobe.

We all know the drill.

The actual point I wanted to make, before I got preachy, is that I think hate is a combination of fear and disgust.  We have six primary colors of emotions, and hate is a mixture of those two.  I don’t know that Ekman has said so–although he may well have–but it would seem to me that hatred and happiness are physiologically incompatible and likely opposites.

You cannot be a genuinely happy Communist, at least a practicing Communist.

I got deep into some childhood stuff last night, really to the heart of my shaking, which has always lacked pictures, and I can tell you that my previous post was a much less unpleasant process than going to my diary and writing.

At root, evil is an avoidance.  It is avoiding dealing with horrible traumas through the mechanism of enacting them.  But it is circular: the trauma makes its presence known, a sadistic act is committed, temporary peace is bought, then it all starts again.  It can never heal, and the farther down this path one goes, the harder it becomes to stop, because the pain is accumulating.

Talking about evil is in some respects for me an avoidance, but it is also I think a necessary process for me to go through, to wrap my brain around what happened to me and why.

Through an intrinsic ability for deep concentration, I was able to hide myself well enough to survive the floods.  Now, it is time to being planting seeds, and watching living things grow.

As should be obvious, I am somewhat sympathetic to New Agey sorts of things.  I believe in chakras and energy meridians, feel there is something to astrology, although I can’t explain it, and of course believe in the survival of death and psychic phenomena of all sorts.

But I cannot accept this simplistic understanding that the world is a kind and wonderful place, or that some sort of miraculous improvement in the human condition will come about by any means other than clear thinking based on very unemotional, clear eyed fact gathering and following effective action.  We cannot just sit on our duffs and expect good things to happen.

I read today that Obama is trying to undermine US sovereignty: http://www.breitbart.com/big-government/2015/10/02/obama-administration-and-un-announce-global-police-force-to-fight-extremism-in-u-s/

This is no longer paranoia: there was a press conference. I will note that we ALREADY have the Department of Homeland Security, which to my knowledge, and despite an enormous budget, has not stopped ONE terrorist attack, while simultaneously failing miserably to do its job protecting our borders.

I read the Chinese are killing people and selling their body parts: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-3257383/Thousands-religious-prisoners-China-livers-kidneys-corneas-ripped-ALIVE-sell-transplant-tourists-claims-new-film.html

Many of the bodies used in these “human corpses as art” seem to be Falun Gong.  I was talking with a woman on a plane, and at the exhibit she went to they even had fetuses in all stages up to the new born,which she found quite disturbing.  She said all of them looked Asian, and it is my assumption that the Chinese, in tandem with truly horrible human beings, are “harvesting” them as needed and selling them for profit.

And while I am being dark, can I ask: do we even know who the buyers are of baby parts that Planned Parenthood is selling, or what their purposes are?

I will recall this story to your mind: http://worldnews.nbcnews.com/_news/2012/05/18/11755862-thai-police-arrest-man-after-babies-bodies-found-roasted-wrapped-in-gold-leaf

I read this shooter in Oregon wanted to be welcomed into Hell: http://www.nbcnews.com/storyline/oregon-college-shooting/oregon-shooting-umpqua-gunman-chris-harper-mercer-what-we-know-n437351

It is no doubt comforting to be able to ignore evil in the world–and that is the word, used to describe something very very old–but serious, responsible, genuinely spiritual people do not get to do this.  We have to learn both to know about the horrors in the world, and to care about them, but to not let them get to us.  We need to both know and to forget.  We need emotional skill and considerable fortitude.  There is no other way to do it right.

http://www.infowars.com/fbi-far-more-murders-committed-with-knives-than-assault-rifles/

Both abstract ideas and emotions have their own languages.  And I think it is important to understand that the answer to a question which is expressed in emotional language may never satisfy those who want it expressed in abstract language.

Specifically, a sense of meaning is exactly that: a felt sense, an emotional state, and way of being in your body and interacting with the world.  What is the meaning of life?  This.  This is how you do it.  Do you understand?

I am strongly tempted to say that the purpose of all human activity is emotion, either freedom from “negative” emotions or the enjoyment of positive ones.  Our minds are harnessed to that end, when usefully employed, and it seems one of the precise defects of Western culture that we have pursued abstraction as an end in itself; that we have supposed that all “true” philosophical premises must exist in the intellect.

Deconstruction can be seen as a reaction to excessive intellectualism, but it merely substitutes an incoherent intellectualism for a previously coherent, even if unsatisfying, intellectualism.

Universities pay people to at least pretend they are doing something, and sitting around feeling, as useful as it may be in reality, does not lead to words, and the production of words is the task of people in the Humanities.

Most of our wisdom is in the body.  That is where we find truth.  That is where we experience states we cannot talk about, and which cannot thus be thrust into the philosophical realm, but which are nonetheless both real and relevant.

I have said this before, but one reaction to internal conflict is being preachy.  What you are implicitly doing is assuming a potential power position relative to others.  You speak, they listen.

As a general rule, the preacher appeals to abstractions, to “formulations of the good”, to what everyone knows they ought to do, but often do not do.  Neither does the preacher, in a great many cases.  If they did, they would not feel the need to preach, and would find some more directly useful form of service, some more productive way of sharing what in an ideal case is an overabundance of positive energy and love.

The preacher in general seeks to be good, but also seeks to be SEEN to be good.

Me, I think what happens is I touch a place in myself which is tender, and immediately THIS–and I am preaching now–flows out.

How does one blend with a day, like a blade of grass in a field, and enjoy it humbly, like every other blade of grass, while not forgetting the principles of life, and the need for growth?  I think if you let it, it happens.  So much of life could be downhill, easy, if we let it.

Life is hard as a square wheel.

When I stop preaching, that will be when you can fully trust me.

I expect to see this as a bumper sticker within the next five years.

What I feel, and I am a diffuse, complicated, constantly shifting human being, but one in touch with the rhythms around me, is that most of the power elite culture is oriented around moving the trauma energy of the solar plexus down to the sexual centers.

What I feel as the converse, is using the sexual centers to raise solar plexus energy.  What I feel is that sexual rituals, sexual energy, can be used for BOTH good and evil.  Sex is as natural as drinking water.  I think Lenin said something close to that.  What is not natural is tying it to weird rituals which confine rather than elevate and enrich the human experience.

Tantra invites sex, but sex is a means to something else, something higher, something beyond sex.  To bring the human gestalt down to mere sex: ah, that is profane.

I watch and I feel. Every day it is like a continuous breeze blows through me, talking to me, telling me what it knows.  I feel these people, working for destruction, working for ruin.

They are mistaken to believe that this universe is large enough not to punish them. Hell is quite real, but you have to work hard to get there. and even harder to stay there.

I have gotten to where I go quite deep in my Kum Nye practice.  It is a very altered state.

And the contrast between that state, and workaday America is really quite astonishing.  We are all mad.  We really, truly are.  All we need to be happy is enough to meet our physical needs, shared beliefs systems–plural, as in many groups–some form of meaningful work, and a sense of belonging to a community.

The global elite know perfectly well what their monetary tinkering has done to the otherwise inevitable accumulation of generalized wealth, and I can only assume that they wanted America not to get too rich, because their academic gurus are already telling them–as they have for the past 150 years at least–that THIS TIME disaster is really just around the corner.

What this analysis misses is that TIME is the most important commodity in a morally wealthy people, and that TIME does not deplete resources, add CO2 to the atmosphere, or devastate the fish populations in the ocean.

Culturally, all that is needed is a conversion from the demand for more stuff to one for more time.  That, coupled with reasonable population control measures, if they seem prudent, is all that is needed for sustainability.

The entire issue is moral/cultural.  And it is precisely because they have rejected culture that the socialists seemingly pulling the strings cannot see this.

We do not need a global machine.  We need a global web of robust and nourishing interpersonal connections.

Posted here: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-3249892/Corbyn-s-conspiracy-theory-9-11-attacks-manipulated-make-look-like-Osama-Bin-Laden-responsible.html

It’s been several minutes, and it says the comments are unmoderated. Comment won’t upload, as usual. That’s why I copied it.

The Daily Mail always gives me trouble.  So does Salon.  So too do DailyKos and HuffPo, Media Matters, and others I forget.  Being worth censoring has to be a good thing, right?  And feeling the need to censor is a reliable indication of anti-Liberal tendencies, is it not?  Fascistic tendencies?  That would be my argument.  Of course, I can’t make it with them.  Daily Kos even has a lynching feature, which is just one of the many charms of that lovely site.

There can be no question both that explosives were planted in all three World Trade Center buildings (yes, 3: most people do not know about Tower 7 because the media made it disappear), and that the official government investigation did not follow standards investigative guidelines, and reached what in its own report it admitted were incomplete conclusions.  They did not preserve evidence, and did not test for explosives, despite many hundreds of reports of people hearing explosions.

Who did it remains a mystery, but the only people who had access to the inner core were working for an elevator company which has not been, but could still be, investigated.

Some 2,200 architects and engineers–including a number of high-rise architects, structural engineers, demolitions experts, and fire safety experts–have called for a new investigation.  You can read about them, and the problems with the official story, here: http://www.ae911truth.org/gallery/evidence.html

Edit: I checked back this morning, and this comment never appeared.  I had two comments disappear this morning from The Atlantic.

Everyone needs to remember that in a digital age, waging informational warfare is quite easy, and it is quite hard for non-experts to fight back.

By and large, no censorship is needed, because the herds they have had indoctrinational success with–which is 2/3rd’s of the country–simply get their news from places which do not tell stories the power elite do not want told.

This point is missed by many.  At issue is not falsehoods told, but truths not told.  Even Fox ignores many major stories, like the farcical claim that Obama provided a valid birth certificate.  And I continue to wonder how so few are asking hard questions about our apparently on-going support for Islamic “rebels” in Syria with a long history of back stabbing us, and more importantly, what the fuck our actual national interest in Syria is.  Should we not back the Russians and Chinese fighting the psychopaths of ISIS?  If they want to risk their soldiers and their money, why shouldn’t we let them?

And what sane person could not see the value of national energy independence, or relative independence?  None: the people opposing it, opposing things like the Keystone pipeline, are nuts.