Author: White Whale

“Transformation comes from not knowing what’s next.”

Self evidently, an obsessive pursuit of understanding is a core element in my personality as it has manifested historically.  It drives me.

[I saw the movie The Accountant last week, and recognized some parts of myself in Ben Affleck’s character.  I was actually pondering this morning if we have become a nation of Asperger’s Syndrome, with our emotional disconnection, and comfort with abstraction and computing]

But I know there is an infinite amount of Not Knowing in me.  I am playing with seashells too (albeit much smaller, less pretty ones, in a reference I assume you get), amusing myself by the seashore.

And as I have said, what I FEEL is that growth comes from curiosity, from play, from sending something out and wondering what will come back.  Will it be blue or green?  Will it come back at all?  I don’t know.  There is no way to know.  But it should be INTERESTING.

Growth is saying, often, this is INTERESTING. Interest pulls you, it moves you, but you can never know where it is going.  It goes from here to there, to there to here.  You are following a trail, tracking a scent.  It can end in many ways, but there is a thrill in the chase, in the seeking.

All wisdom is found in play, in curiosity, in laughter, in an expanding pool of happiness that the world is such a rich treasure with so much yet to discover.  It is a path you need never fear will end.  That is one certainty we are given.

In the Bible, Adam and Eve are cast out of Eden.  All of humanity is marked with their sin.  We are born with it.  We cannot erase it.  All we can do is repent, and if we are Christians beg God to forgive us as we take shelter in his Son.

This is bullshit of course.  My God is a loving God, and that is very much the behavior of devious power mongers–of which humanity of course produces large numbers–but not a loving God.

But ponder how we are all being asked to apologize for things we haven’t done, in response to crimes no living person remembers.  White guilt/white privilege is NOT about empowering black people.  Have you seen any plans to create jobs in ghettos?  Have you not yet realized that failing schools is the GOAL of Democrat policy?  Is anyone so stupid as to think an actual magical incantation that will affect real lives is achieved when groups of white people engage in shared self loathing?

It is about fomenting doubt in the minds of the people who would otherwise to continuing the Liberal American tradition of inclusion, personal responsibility, civic mindedness, and actual fairness.

In form, intent, and outcome, White Guilt is exactly homological to Mao’s form of brain washing, where people were expected to confess to all sorts of crimes they had not committed, which were pure abstractions.  Crimes which would not have hurt anyone, had they happened, which they didn’t.  The whole thing was, again, a type of Gaslighting, a method of psychological torture intended to break the core self, to infuse a perennial and inescapable sense of worthlessness and helplessness, and to do so in the service of psychopaths whose only longer term plan was destroying all longing from freedom, all curiosity, all love, all independence of thought, all creativity.  It was and is a purely destructive enterprise.  It takes everything good we are born with and crushes it.

All of this is evil.  It is pure evil.

One point I had never considered is that happiness and enthusiasm have every bit as much survival value as fear and aggression.  They create work.  They create effort.  They facilitate exploration and learning and emotional and technical growth.  If you love to do something, you get good at it.  And happiness also is closely tied with creativity.

The second point I would make is that free markets and property rights and enforceable contract law have evolved in the direction of happiness.  Being a happy organization is literally a competitive advantage.  As he puts it, happiness leads to creativity leads to innovation leads to success.

How opposite Socialism is in this, in denigrating work, denigrating challenge, and disempowering everyone.

We are starting to see censorship, the purging of alternative opinions, of the consolidation of power in silence by a criminal elite.  None of those things bode well for your future, or that of most of us.

Moreover, if we put Hillary in place, our economy will over some fairly short time horizon crash.  Your entire empire depends in large measure on some degree of economic prosperity.

Worse, she seems to WANT nuclear war.  If the Russians attack us, or the Iranians are able to set off an EMP, all your work is done, gone, useless.  Your world will fall apart.

Hillary has much more money to spend than your campaign, but you yourself can make up that difference.  That is one of the best things about your campaign.

You can’t go back now.  Victory is your only salvation. Seemingly, it is OUR only salvation.

Obama’s lawyers file bullshit lawsuits against banks, make it cheaper to settle, then send the money not to the people they supposedly want to protect, but to left wing hacks, criminals, and activists.

America is run by criminals.  There is no other way to look at it.  We look down on the Russians and Mexicans, and Nigerians, but why?  We are the same.  Fucking psychopaths doing what fucking psychopaths do, with the active support of Obama, Hillary and for that matter the Bush’s, both of them.

It seems to me we all graduate into adult life with miniature–or perhaps large–hells within us.  We put boundaries around it.  We push it from consciousness and push it from our daily lives.  That is not who we are, not who we choose to be (hopefully, although some clearly do).

But we have to stay alert.  In Christian notions, the Devil, temptation, is always there.  You have to fight it.  You have to keep the devil in the hole, as Tom Waits puts it.

This is misguided, in my view.  God has not asked us to observe some strict and unbending moral code predicated on our abdication of all normal human instincts.

What is needed, rather, is an allowing: establishing a conscious contact with these feelings of rage, and anger and jealousy, and fear, and humiliation, and shame,. and violence, and despair, and sadness and disconnection, and AMPLIFYING THEM.  This is Kum Nye.  You find something small and pay attention to it. You merge it with the breath.  You expand it and amplify it, and it becomes a cloud that eventually travels beyond you and becomes irrelevant.

I have discovered a new personal development method I am testing and will share if it bears the fruit I expect.

But I wanted to say that the goal of psychospiritual development is to erase the past, and to encounter and interact with what happens as it is, in the present; to bring nothing to the table, to have nothing within you which is “triggered”, to be perfectly present, perfectly responsive, perfectly perceptive.  Life is fun in such situations, even when difficulty knocks on the door.  You do not trigger despair: you trigger RESOURCES.

Most people lead lives of “quiet desperation” as Thoreau memorably put it.  But it is possible to dispose of all unwarranted anxieties, and to do the OPPOSITE, which is learn to cultivate happiness, contentment, confidence, power, engagement, control, agency. Not only are you not acted on then, but the world, life, becomes a game, a game you can often win.  That is what we all should aim for.

Obama can pardon them, but particularly if Trump wins, he himself will be subject of criminal probes. It might make sense for Trump to leave him alone, politically.

But none of knows who will win, and once the FBI presses charges neither can know if they will be pardoned.

It is a shitty thing that Obama is so corrupt or this would be easy.

It may be the case too that pardons can only be granted AFTER charges are filed. I’ll leave it to professionals to decide, but if the FBI had not DELIBERATELY fucked up, they could have squeezed the IT folks BEFORE they gave them immunity. Hillary should be in jail for numerous felonies, not campaigning for control of the DoJ and FBI.

The smoke is lifting. Trump, by speaking obvious, important, and necessary truths has lifted the curtain and exposed the corruption and deceit at the heart of BOTH parties.

BTW: Camille the Pirate is back: http://www.spectator.co.uk/2016/10/the-woman-is-a-disaster-camille-paglia-on-hillary-clinton/

Seemingly too independent for Salon, she landed in Limey-land.

But acts are not.  Acts are less important than words.  It is almost like anyone speaking in an unapproved way, who is seeking–not having been contented with the Foundness which was foisted on them in school–their own truths, is casting spells, is committing witchcraft, is enfeebling the very world with their horrific acts of treachery.

It is a primitive thinking, infantile thinking, as as I ponder it it has much in common with the “spells” cast by people suffering from Obsessive  Compulsive Disorder.  OCD appears highly structured–you have to tap yourself 16 times before eating, you have to wash your hands exactly 5 times after touching a doorknob, etc–but in reality that external order results from inner chaos.  It results from an inability to manage anxiety, and a constant need to “ground” it in concrete, controllable acts, without which the world will disappear.  You may not be sure that stepping on a crack will break your mother’s back, but why chance it?  For all you know it is working.

This whole explosion of control-oriented behavior–did I read wearing a clown costume is ILLEGAL in some places?  WTF?–is the outgrowth of profound terrors, unresolved anxiety disorders.  It is NOT the result of clear, outcome-based thinking oriented around improving human life in any definable way.  On the contrary, it ACTS TO make people weaker, more pathetic, more needy, and more miserable.