Author: White Whale

It is in the nature of children to play, to pile blocks, one on the other, to minister to their dolls, to move sand around, to climb up and down from the couch, to experiment and explore.  This is how they find and use their power in a healthy way.

When they do not feel safe doing this, when this natural energy that wells up in them and is expressed in the world is stunted by chronic anxiety and experientially warranted fear, they do not establish a gut level connection with the expression of their power to move the world.  There is no easy in and out between in here and out there.  It becomes problematic, and when this happens, a feeling of relative helplessness ensues.

The nature of the human organism is it tries to correct deficiencies, and psychologically it tends to overcompensate.  Where there is fear, there will be aggression.  Where there is helplessness there will be a quest for power and control.

In an adult who has not been socialized properly, who is suffering from unseen because primal traumas, it is best to imagine the healthy quest for power as existing in a suspended, timeless, inactive state.  This is the wax museum I have sometimes described that I feel in Leftists, that I felt in Sade.  120 Days of Sodom could be seen as consisting in hundreds of dioramas that never change.  There is no actual motion anywhere in the book.  Everything is frozen, dead.  A paralysis is on the world, which can never change, never evolve.

I found the mythos of the Dr. Strange interesting.  The main villain seeks a world beyond time and death.  He wants the many to become the few, and the few one.  And the one to be suspended in one pose for something beyond an eternity, since time does not exist.  But what role could consciousness possibly play in a world without motion?  None.  His deathlessness is actually lifelessness.  To live is to die, and to move is to die, to change and evolve, to not remain the same.  If it is a death to change from moment to moment, then dying continually is our task if we want to live healthily.

But what a ritual dedicated to evil–and these can exist in many forms, as there is a ritualistic quality to much left wing activity–accomplishes is it creates a bridge between the present world of that person/those people, and the suspended power within them.  That energy comes flowing out, and in the process creates the illusion of motion.  It is a motion confined to that time and space, and so it is necessarily temporary.  It must be repeated regularly for that person to maintain some outer sense of wellness.

What it is NOT is integration.  What it is NOT is a movement towards wholeness.

Frits Perls used to say “the only way out is through”, and I believed this for a long time.  But pushing is often counterproductive.  If you attack a latent powerlessness in yourself with violence, it hardens and resists.  It becomes worse.

The way out is out.  That is my formulation.  What I mean is that we have to expand.  All of our limitations exist as a sort of knot within our psychospiritual energy flow, and they have to be ALLOWED to release, to grow, to add their pace, their sense of time, their unique contributions to our consciousness, such that over time we feel larger, more encompassing.  We can go more places and do more things and still feel at home in our latent power.

This election cycle has brought to the surface all the ugliness underlying the carefully crafted outer appearance of civility, caring and compassion that the Left has so assiduously cultivated for so many decades. The demons and ghouls are out in the open, and they are PISSED.

All of my work posting–my trying to understand and describe what I see–has had as its purpose helping to contribute to what I have always considered a fighting retreat.  We have been on our heels for decades.  Even Reagan had to contend with a solidly Democrat Congress for all of his eight years.

What Trumps election represents is an end to the retreat.  It is by no means the end of the fight.  Politically, it will be the equivalent of house to house, room by room fighting.  The shrieking will be continuous for a very long time.  Anyone who needs a safe space for protection from non-existent crimes and threats will obviously feel an existential threat in someone as unabashedly pro-America, pro-Progress as Trump.  Weakness breeds fear and fear breeds hatred and violence.

I do think we will see a lot of violence tonight, in many places.  You can’t plan a riot at 3am, but you can with a day intervening and a concession speech from Hillary.

But the riots will only prove us right.  We are not the violent ones.  We are not the hateful ones.  We are not the ones animated by spite, greed and anger.  The darkness is on them, those who lie, cheat and steal in the service of nothing, no meaningful principle, no carefully thought out program.  The Soviets did not care if their programs worked, and the Leftists in America don’t care now.  It was never about ameliorating the human condition, building bridges between people, or pursuing a deeper, more spiritual life.  Inherently, any cult based on conformity cannot but degrade humanity.  We need ACTUAL diversity to thrive, and we lack it in far too many places, but particularly in what should be hothouses filled with countless breeds of ideas–our universities.

Instead, generations of intellectual in-breeding and insufficient light have bred monsters.  And those monsters will not be tolerant in coming years.  They will not be silent.  And they will not be peaceful.  That is my prediction.  But bringing all this out in the open easily gives the lie to notions of their compassion and caring.

People may well wake up.  That was the point of my previous post.  There are degrees of moral and intellectual degradation, and it is the nature of human life to seek order, and I foresee many people suddenly taking an in-breath, and wondering why there is a knife in their hand, and where they were going, and how they got there.  These people should be treated gently and with patience. 

A lot of people are grieving right now.  Some are doing their best to hope for the best, and I think as conservatives we need to reach out to these people and reassure them.  We are and always have been the better people, and there is no better way of showing that than being magnanimous in victory.

Don’t hold these people in contempt.  Yes, if they react in reflexive anger and that hate they have been taught so long to value there is no reason to do anything but avoid them.

But if they are probing and questioning, if they are saying things like “will my son be deported”, or will black people be respected, etc. tell the truth, which is that Trump is a decent human being.  We probably will stop taking refugees from places where large segments of the population wants to kill us, but my honest guess is that after he deports the criminals among the illegals in this country, and shuts down Sanctuary Cities, and starts again enforcing the laws of our nation, that amnesty of some sort will be granted to the vast bulk of people here illegally.  This, after effective border control measures are implemented, including walls along long stretches of our border with Mexico.  This has been my vote all along.

I do think it would be reasonable to deport people who have come here in the last 4 years or so.  What exactly will happen is unclear.  Decisions will certainly be made, though, and executed.

But many of the fears people are expressing are ridiculous, and I guess what I am saying is that rather than laugh at and mock them, I would encourage people to comfort and reassure them that Trump really will be the President for all of us, rather than that of the elites, as Obama has been, and as Hillary would have been.
This is why he won.  

To the very evident satisfaction at her correct answer on the part of the media, Hillary promised at least twice to accept the results of the elections.  No ambiguity.  Zero.  Self evidently, everyone assumed that the accepting would have to be done by Trump, but he can blast her relentlessly–he can run the video on loop– if she wants to backpedal now and pretend that whatever fraud there was, was done by Republicans TO Democrats, rather than the other way around, and open up multiple investigations, a lot of her people, in my view, are going to wind up in jail after Trump wins anyway.  The mood–the Tao–is clearly not in her favor.  The tide is going out, rapidly, and she may still stay out of jail if she keeps her fucking mouth shut.

He is not going to investigate too carefully if he doesn’t have to, but if she wants to raise a big stink, LOTS of her people will likely go to jail, and she has to know that.

Hillary: you lost honestly, and you fucking know it.  Concede, then go crawl under a rock.  Trump is not going to be pushed around, and you know these numbers were real. You lost PENNSYLVANIA for God’s sake, likely as a result of Amish and others in the middle of the State who have never voted in their lives. 

Move on.  Isn’t that a motto of yours?

We need to create a working group that will make our elections very, very hard to rig.  Paper, unduplicatable ballots, national voter ID like all other nations, and generous provision for monitoring by both sides.

If we take voter fraud alone off the table, Democrats may never see the White House again.  My personal opinion is that the 5% margin of victory last polled was about right, and that Trump likely did win by that much–but that vote switching machines, undetected ballot stuffing and the like deducted a few points.  The Democrats likely thought that would be enough, but as of this moment, it wasn’t. 

And after all the screaming about “accepting the election”, and given many instances of fraud helping Democrats and zero that I have read about helping Republicans, Hillary really needs to accept the result.

It really seemed to me like Eric Prince had solid, highly plausible intelligence when he said that the NYPD forced the reopening of the email case.  They said that if the FBI didn’t do it’s job–and they didn’t–that they would release the emails to the public.  This obviously hasn’t happened.  Today would have been the day, since many Americans will vote on the way to work tomorrow, likely before they watch any news.

Positive Scenario one: Wikileaks has been under attack, and perhaps they could not upload them, but will soon, or will find an alternative distribution method, which, if the key allegations are true, will certainly result in a widespread outcry that no law enforcement will be able to suppress short of riot police and a mass violence that will make things WORSE. Which should, even in this Alice in Wonderland, or Machiavelli in his home turf, world, result in criminal charges, convictions and substantial jail time.

2) They are going to wait and see if Trump wins outright.  DoOJ–the Department of the Obstruction of Justice–has been threatening them, and it may be they are willing to pay the cost, but only if they have to.  They will release everything if Trump loses, and only if he loses.

3) My favorite: Comey, Hillary and what would amount to the Trump campaign reached a deal that if Hillary calls off all the people who were going to cheat to win her the election, and allows Trump to win, then they will close these investigations and she can finish her life in peace.  Trump might have even granted Obama the right to pardon her.  Me personally, I have always been a wheeler and dealer.  You can’t always get everything you want.  Very often you have to settle for the best you can get.  Trump knows this better than just about anybody.  I would assume that if he could get a deal like this, that more or less guarantees him the White House in exchange for not prosecuting the Clinton crime family, he would take it.  He can do so much good, and most of the Clinton crimes exist in the past.  With this deal, he would more or less prevent future crimes.  I would try, of course, to get the dissolution of the Clinton Foundation on the table, in exchange for dropping the investigation.  You do no more wrong in the future, and you stay out of jail for what you did in the past.

4) It is also possible that the usual methods of threat, bribery and coercion were effective, and the NYPD, or the parts that matter, have been permanently silenced.

I like to fantasize that I was Jesus Christ in a past life.  I am lonely and it is a congenial fantasy.  Judge me as you choose.  To be sure, the psychiatric wards are filled with Jesus’s.  As Mark Knopfler sang, of Speakers Corner “two men say they are Jesus; one of them must be wrong”.  It’s a good line.

But I would like to present to you some unique ideas, some notions that I have not seen presented anywhere else.  This is my burden: to be filled with ideas, which I have every reason to believe are highly useful, and to be understood, as far as I can tell, by no one.  To be sure I could be more determined and more effective at getting my ideas out there, more steadfast in working to find supporters.  But I do tire sometimes, trying and trying and trying and failing and failing and failing.

And I have actually been enjoying some peace the past few days.  The part of me that reacts with an electric jolt to the notion of our society failing is not reacting as much.  I am not caring as much.  I am not so much becoming apathetic, as realizing that no matter how much I excite myself, no matter how much I set myself on fire, most people will not care, and for the most part it makes no difference.  The illusion of control can be comforting, but accepting that it is an illusion also makes life much less serious.

Christ began his ministry around age 33.  Where was he until then?  He was politically engaged arguing with his fellow Jews against a suicidal rebellion, which would lead to the end of everything left of traditional Jewish life oriented around the Temple.  He could see that the Romans, while tolerant enough in peace, were quite willing and able to commit acts of mass murder and destruction if driven to do so.

He could feel the murder in the air, and the end of an era.  He begged people not to do what was in their hearts.  And at a certain point, he realized it was all useless.  It might be ten years, it might be a hundred (although that wasn’t likely), but their way of life would be broken.  Parts might remain, but the fabric would be torn.

And that is when he began his ministry, his highly impractical creed of love.  It was born in part of despair.  The larger project of saving the whole failed.  He was unsuccessful and he knew it.

So he preached let us love one another, for soon all will be for naught. Let us love one another as God loves us.  Let us forgive our enemies.  Let us no longer fight them, for soon all will be for naught.  Let us seek the good and the beautiful and the sacred in our hearts, and let us try to feel the ways of God in our hearts, for soon all will be for naught.  We must prepare, because our world is going to become dark, and ash will fill the air, and the screams of the guilty and  innocent alike will fill the air.

And he knew that after all the attacks on the Jewish leaders he had made for so many years that his new turn to the crazy would set them against him.  They wanted and preached victory.  They fought for Jewish independence, and they sure as fuck didn’t need some dirty beggar and rabble-rouser putting those sorts of ideas into people’s heads.  Victory was on their mind, victory of the sorts preached throughout their scripture.

And he knew this.  But he was a stubborn mother-fucker, and he didn’t quit.  He was a warrior, and warriors accept only victory and death.  And victory, now, was healing people hurting in their souls.  He focused on the down-trodden and invisible because they are the only ones able to listen, to hear with new ears, to accept new truths, to be taught in any way, shape or form. It is largely still this way, today.

And when they nailed him on the cross he felt fear, yes, but more sadness.  He had failed again.  He had been misunderstood again.  It was not the death that bothered him, but failing to be heard. He knew he had touched some hearts, but he could also likely sense the bandits and robbers–the wolves–already circling around the emotional effect they could see that his words had, and trying to figure out how to use them for their own benefit.

Maybe he came back from the dead, maybe he didn’t.  People come back from the dead, according to the reports of people I believe, many times every year around the world TODAY, albeit typically through mediums.  This would not be a unique miracle.

And over time the story persisted of something unusual, something inexplicable, behavior that did not fit within any good narrative other than those of sacrifice and love.  And over time the story grew.  A virgin birth was added, walking on water, loaves and fishes, magical healings.  The mother, who in fact he dreaded, became a saint, and was worshiped in her own right.

And for thousands of years a fossilized institution has preached of love, and practiced charity with the same diligence as the Goodfellas in Queens–who did distribute toys every Christmas to all the kids–with all the genuineness of wind up toys.

And thus a global, Catholic institution of immense wealth and power grew up on the seed of someone whose main virtue was being willing to risk everything he had and was at every moment of his life.

Is any of this true?  I don’t know.  I don’t tell my mind where it can and cannot go.  Once the notion of limits is in place it shrinks instantly.  I don’t share everything, and was not sure if I should share this, but it feels right, so here you go.

Whoever wins tomorrow, I am ready to change my life and my focus.  I think this is true.

As I think about it, if we elect Hillary EVEN AFTER ALL THIS, that amounts to a mandate for law breaking and crime.  It is the American people collectively saying: we don’t care if you love this country, or if you are for sale, or if you are mishandling daily our best kept secrets for years.  We don’t care if you lie, we don’t care if you steal, we don’t care about FUCKING ANYTHING.

Because, you know, you are a Democrat and a woman.

Jesus H. Christ.  I called it in 2008, but I am REALLY calling it this time.  We are done as a nation which deserves the right to govern itself. I can’t of course know what will happen, but the writing is on the wall.  Every sacrifice every soldier has made for this country is rendered null and void.  The work of our Founders will be undone.  Everything good we have created will come under attack and fall, over some period of time.  We are decadent, and is what happens to decadent people.

There is nothing in the Hatch Act about prosecutors doing their jobs.  Knowing nothing more about it than that it was passed in the late 1930’s, we can safely assume it was a Republican bill intended to curb FDR’s countless abuses of power, which often included what amounted to publicly funded bribes.

You can Google it and read it.  It simply says political leaders within the bureaucratic apparatus should not campaign for specific candidates and causes.  It says nothing about law enforcement doing its job, and it would seem obvious that the Americans of the 1930’s would stare in disbelief at our present political system, in which we stand poised to possibly give the most important job in the world to someone we KNOW is a crook, we know got good Americans killed pointlessly then lied about it.

This time is astonishing.  I know I can track the lies, who told them, and what their purposes were, but it is still a daily source of astonishment that people can be made to believe them.

As far as Hillary, if Comey waits for an indictment until AFTER the election, if Hillary wins, he is going to have rioting on the streets on both sides.  Trump supporters because he had a DUTY to tell us, and Hillary supporters because they will assume it is politically motivated.

Particularly if the charges are as serious as alleged, particularly pedophilia–and the evidence substantial, as alleged, then that needs to come out NOW.  If the American people then STILL want to vote for Hillary, and the voting seems on the up and up, then I will accept that result, and simply start making plans to move to a nation where people are not batshit insane.