Author: White Whale

So,
I sleep on a futon on
the floor.
The sun hits me at an
angle, but from the
other side of this thing
I live in.
(I face South),
and I Wake Up and
try and remember if
I am lonely
This morning, I’m
not sure.
I worry more about the
Enemy Within, than the
Friend Without.
I sit down on the crapper and
read Bukowski and think:
Shit, everyone can be a
poet.

I view myself as nothing more, and nothing less, than a foot soldier in a spiritual conflict.  My job is no more, and no less, than to stand my ground in the face of everything in this world which is seeking to distribute darkness and lies.  I have my Lambda, and I have my code.

And when I die, however I die, I ask only that I die knowing I did my job.

And I want to be clear: I am not melancholy.  Having a sense of purpose is a beautiful thing.

I will contextualize this post several ways.  First, I just watched the first episode of Wormwood.  I must confess to feeling uneasy, among other things, being reminded of the previously prominent roles both Dick Cheney and Donald Rumsfeld held under Ford, and seeing documentation on the role they played, apparently, in suppressing further disclosure in the Olson case, which involved among other things willfully lying to and misleading a grieving family. I see no reason to doubt this happened.

Then I got wondering about Laurance Rockefeller, who funded Stephen Greer, not least after being reminded it was the Rockefeller Commission (led by his brother Nelson) which exposed many of the misdeeds of the CIA.

Then I read that Laurance funded the legal defense of a man I had not heard of, Dr. John Mack.  Mack was a highly erudite, intelligent, and seemingly honest man who investigated supposed alien abductions, and concluded that, since the people involved seemed neither to be crazy nor lying, that something real must be going on.

This, my friends, is a rabbit hole.

Finally, most saliently, I was attacked by darkness itself last night. And I laughed at it. That was when I posted about fear.  It was 2am.  Who and what am I protecting?  This is the foundational Buddhist question.  It is the foundational LIFE question.  What I am is indissoluble, and within that is the key to peace.  Everything can be blown to bits, and yet something remains.  It always remains.

My work continues.  I have many, many miles to go.  But I seem to going in the right direction.

Well, I’m off now to some sunlight.  Enough of the cave for today.

I was watching a video on positive thinking.  Just tell the universe what you want, and it will come to you. 

This seems to me like an imposition.  You are telling the universe you want more of you.  You want to grow materially, and you want it to support you.  You are pushing out.

I am very leery when I hear people say “control what you think”.  Clearly, tactically, when you are in the middle of some time delimited operation, it’s important to stay on task.  But in life, telling yourself to laugh when you are miserable, to act happy when you are not, to think good thoughts when you hurt emotionally everywhere: it is a recipe for self destruction through self deception. It makes you fake.  It is easy to spot the people doing it.  Miserable but not fake is a thing.  Happy and not fake is a thing too, but one doesn’t see it very often.  Modestly OK but pretending to be happy: this one sees every day.

It is quite possible to hang an invitation to the universe in the air, and ask it to come to you, so that you can share coffee together in the middle. You can ask it what lies ahead, what it can tell you about the best path for you, where the learning is to be found.  You can give and you can take, and both parties leave satisfied.

Now, this is quite separate from the relationship you have with yourself.  It is important to learn not to be self abusive, but this is very different from positive thinking.  This is a gradual process of untying knots, of opening energy, of remembering that you too are a child of God, and God a Father/Mother/Light from whom you can seek guidance.

There is an ecology of spirit which I feel should be respected.

We get so many things so radically wrong in this world.  My hope we can do better does not rest on positive thinking, but on the observation that the future is unpredictable, and that if the past is filled with miracles–as it is, if you look for them–so too might the future be.

My two cents: no matter who Trump nominated, the Left was going to scream and hiss and pout and scream and try to hold it off until November and make it an election issue.  This would have been true if he nominated Alan Dershowitz.  His nomination alone makes it abominable.  Nothing else matters.

Now, one of two scenarios will pay out: Kavanaugh will get confirmed BEFORE the elections, or after.  If the Democrats play hard core partisan politics to delay his confirmation, then they open themselves to charges of being obstructionist.  Kavanaugh seems to be a moderate, and more or less a  replacement–which conservatives did NOT want, for Kennedy.  We want someone who reads the Constitution and sees it as binding law.  There is no evolution.  Evolution is provided within the Constitution through the Amendment process.  It is a changeable document, but through a process.  Valuing the Constitution as written is the JOB, as I and many see it, of the Supreme Court.  We have a Congress for everything else. You want a  new law, pass it, and get it signed.

But here is the thing: if they block Kavanaugh, and get painted as obstructionist–accurately, since he’s not the preference of most conservatives–they lose political points.  And if then Republicans keep the House and Senate, and overall put on a strong show indicating national support, as I think likely, then Trump can withdraw this nomination, and put in someone much more conservative, and dare the Democrats to block them too.  They can’t yell and scream forever, especially in the wake of an election in which the opposing party usually sees strong gains.  So they will confirm that person.

So, unless there really is a Blue Wave, which I very much doubt, given how insane the Democrats have become, and how widely and rapidly this realization seems to be spreading, they can either confirm Kavanaugh now, or someone more conservative later.

And strategically, putting up a hard core conservative likely would have helped the Dem’s in the mid-terms.  They could have played on the likely destruction of Roe v. Wade.  This guy doesn’t seem to care one way or the other, which mitigates this campaign theme. He’s as far to the left as Republicans will tolerate, and as far to the right as we can manage, and still make a strong claim that there is no just cause to delay his confirmation.

Trump wins either way.  It is not an ideal solution, but if politics is the art of the possible, maybe this guy is what was possible.

Or maybe we got sold down the river.  I don’t know.  I prefer the first option, though.

I will wonder out loud if the British Empire–the “white man’s burden”–could be explained as a pervasive attachment failure brought on by British child rearing methods, especially among the nobility and their genteel equivalents.

Being forced to deny being a Nazi is already to be the subject of Gaslighting.  It is already an assault, already an imposition, already a violence, which is being answered, but not ended, because what you are really being told is you are insane, and the insane–the accusers–see only madness everywhere but their beloved mirrors, where they see only virtue, kindness, and a quirky humor and mad sex appeal.  Ha ha ha: I can’t help it if I’m sexy.  These people love Stephen Colbert.  And he loves them nearly the way he loves himself.  It’s a sick union.  We don’t want to know the details, but it involves asses and darkness and shit.  And mirrors, always mirrors.  No one else can see you quite the way you see yourself, now can they?

Watch watch:
As the Great of the world
transit sunrise to sunset.

They see themselves on noble
destriers:
their shadows show they ride
asses.

See see:
Noble of face, noble of mien:
the darkness in them shows common
cuthroats.

What is large in this world is diminished.
This is the way of the universe.

And what is small is amplified
Beyond Measure.

Take care in your steps
for
they last a very, very long
time.

And the sands
Remember.

is you must be protecting something. Nothing to protect; no fear.

Paraphrase: for unfailing calm, posit no harm. 

Unacknowledged, by Stephen Greer.  It’s on Netflix.

Net, net: UFO’s are real, our government has known about it for a long time, at some point and over some time frame quite literally trillions of dollars have been diverted to what amounts to a shadow government, and we have reached a point where the people running this operation have replicated and made operational alien technology, and cut most Presidents and intelligence directors out of the loop completely.

This of course sounds nuts, but the sources are mostly former high ranking officials in our military and intelligence apparatus, and Greer has many, many primary documents of apparently very good quality.

As I’ve said before, when you look at the people involved, some of them you would believe without hesitation on any other topic, such as Fife Symington, former Governor of Arizona, and if memory serves a fighter pilot–and thus Air Force Officer–in Vietnam.  He made fun of the UFO seen in Phoenix by thousands of people while in office, but later admitted he had seen it, and that it was either unknown DoD technology, or an alien spacecraft.  That interview is included.

Not everything is buttressed with enough evidence to warrant complete faith, but one does wonder why the Chinese are making a point of surveying the dark side of the moon, and what all of the motivations might be for Trump ordering a space force.

It’s beyond question that some $10 TRILLION, I think was the number, cannot be accounted for by the DoD.  Do you really think they are losing it?  This is an amount equal to the entire Federal budget for 2-3 years at current spending levels.

According to Jimmy Carter–who claims to have seen a UFO–he asked George W. Bush for the records on UFO’s when he became President, and as Director of the CIA Bush told him no.

Place all this in context, and a coverup with regard to 9/11 really seems like a pretty routine operation.

My gut tells me this is all true.  I actually had a dream one time where I saw how alien spaceships move.  What people don’t realize is that we exist in a vast ocean of energy–which they also discuss in this–and the trick to moving at any speed you want, and turning on a microdot is tunneling through the Quantum Vacuum.  If you can get the energy out of the way, then nothing opposes you. There is no force.  There is no momentum.  Perhaps there is not even mass.   Newtonian physics does not apply because in important respects you are leaving space/time.

And I will point out again, as I do from time to time, that Einstein did not in my understanding get rid of the Aether.  He just renamed it, more or less.  For space/time “curvature” to happen, there must be a space time.  Logically, if “gravity” consists in a disruption in the space/time continuum, then it is affecting the Quantum Vacuum somehow.  Anti-gravity and quantum vacuum tunneling would be related.  Gravity is perhaps the interaction of the Quantum Vacuum and the IDEA of mass, with the transmission of the IDEA of mass being translated by what manifests in our reality as the Higgs Boson.

I proposed some time ago that the connection of General Relativity and Quantum Physics can be accomplished through the equation E+i=MC squared +i, where i is information, and for information could be inserted the infinite knowledge of the Quantum Vacuum, aka Zero Point Field, aka what we may as well call God.  If the Higgs Boson is the God Particle, perhaps the ZPF is the God Field.

And if you think about it, Einstein failed in his creation of a Unified Field Theory because in the universe he wanted to live in, everything ultimately resolved down to known “bits” which he wanted to be fields.  You can get the Strong, Weak and Electromagnetic forces local.  You can get them to equal one another in both particle and wave forms.  But you can’t get gravity in there.

But what if the ENTIRE UNIVERSE is one field in which everything is local to everything else?  Could you not do it then? 

I think so.  Lots of thoughts here requiring extended digestion.

I don’t know how we survive, but we all need to keep doing what we can, where we can, to the extent we can, knowing that Fate will deal us the hand it will deal us.  Maktub.

Karma is what is acting when you are doing nothing.

I can feel it, and how one dissolves it. I think much of this is common sense.

I’m sure I’ll say more.