I think much of trauma is effectively a deep seated sense that there are no good people in the world.
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The great virtue of cynicism is that when people behave badly, as they are continually doing somewhere in the world–and usually not far from you–you have no problem integrating it into your worldview.
The great challenge for many of us is integrating the very real observation that people are often shitty–they nearly all, nearly always, turn shitty when pushed–and that life is hard, on the one hand, with optimism and hope that things can be made better with effort and intelligence on the other.
It’s all an interesting game, where we are all guessing all the time at the rules. On this level, I think just surviving without becoming a horrible human being counts as a victory. Killing yourself, numbing yourself continually (effectively the same thing) and learning to hate humanity: those are points scored by the other team. That I’m pretty sure about.