Yes, this is a drinking blog. I need to “freedomize” (software to keep yourself off the internet) myself when I pop the cap. Sorry about that.
As I reread it, actually, it is not fully hopeless/idiotic. All that happens when I drink is I get more honest, which is hard to do, since I am very honest.
I took a personality profile once, which measured adapted versus “real” personality. They were in precisely the same quadrant, with the difference that I tone down my real self slightly. This, because I am an enthusiast, and most people are not.