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Demons

I think all demons want to cry out HELP ME, but they don’t think anything, or anyone, will.  And failing would make everything worse.  They might be mocked for feeling pain.

So they embrace their plight by doubling down, and seeking to make everyone else’s lives worse.  This is why they mock others, are driven to mock others.

It is a cursed life, made necessary by their fear that love does not exist, and that there is no remedy in the universe anywhere for their pain but the temporary pleasure they feel in causing it in others.

Whatever unions they may form are known to be temporary, and they are unified not as soul to soul, but only in outer form, under symbol and rite, under external form, since no internal form, no internal order, is present.  It is chaos and ripping only.  This is what brings about the necessity of power relations.  There is and can be no rest, no easy give and take, take and give.

I am enough of a demon to see this.  Efforts were made to destroy me, but they failed.  I did survive, however, only by hibernating in shock.  I have both angel and demon blood in me.