You have to know yourself, what you are capable of, what might come out of you. All of us can feel, potentially, all the “shadow” emotions, and it is not enough to simply make contact with them. You have to learn to manage them, to master them, like training wild beasts.
And you don’t do this violently. This is a major mistake emotionally unintelligent people and systems make. You do not get angry at anger. You expand it, and then trace it back to its roots, in feelings of helplessness and fear. You understand that you are in part a biological organism, and that that organism has needs which you cannot avoid, even if you can learn to meet them in non-traditional ways.
And I ponder, how do you put a value on something like Kum Nye, which can give you EVERYTHING and MORE than you could get from the most successful career? That can make you more free than the richest billionaire with his beautiful women and expensive toys, and absolute freedom of action? He can go anywhere, do anything. But until he changes who he is–or rather, until he makes contact with his inner recesses, and learns to see in new ways–nothing really changes that matters at all.
I likely spend too much time introspecting. I should be out drumming up new business. My bank account is not what it could be. But at the same time, these processes are so intriguing, so interesting, so satisfying, even when hard, that I have been tending to get driven by necessity rather than planning properly.
I make things work. I always have. It takes some ingenuity sometimes, some audacity sometimes, but I have plenty of both.