It feels to me like the process of integration–which is both bringing into awareness lost parts of yourself, as well learning to get them to work better together–is turning a circle into a line. It is moving from repetition to movement.
And it feels to me like actual growth feels like open ended exploration, movement without purpose beyond curiosity, with ideally a touch of play and humor added in. What it is not is work. Work is survival. Work is getting through the grinding.
Effective work is learning not to work. We have mechanisms within us which can, if we let them, take care of most things. The task is to allow and trust. That is very, very hard.
I”m not sure I agree with all of this, but I’m going to post it anyway.