This time

I was watching cars racing by yesterday, thinking I’m in a modern, strange age, and it hit me that this is a very interesting time to exist.  I don’t have a fucking clue what will happen, but things like this have already happened.  There is a Buddhadharma which we know has been preached, and which we can study.

I am told continually in my Kum Nye teaching that even bad things can come to seem interesting, can come to seem enjoyable even, and I am slowly, slowly, slowly starting to feel it.

You can feel continual anxiety in the age of nukes (and biologicals, and AI, and some fucking powerful chemicals, and plenty of powerful psychopaths), but for moments–and moments can add to years, and even lifetimes–it is all very interesting.

Where is it all going?  If you can separate a need to know, and a need to be sure you will be OK (you won’t: you die.  Sorry), then it is fascinating.

I got stuck in a traffic jam tonight and found it interesting.  Surely this is good.

I will admit to having had 5-6 beers, but for me, this is good.  I have cut my drinking by at least 90%.  That is a good thing.  I won’t drink tomorrow.