Here is what was really going on with that post. I know I shouldn’t care, that my passions, from most perspectives, are silly, but that whole thing felt woolly to me.
It does feel to me like the world is changing, that some astrological alignment, some configuration of energies, something in the air and water, is changing for the better. That was the feeling I had. There is literally zero rational content to it. Then I thought that maybe I was just looking at the world differently. How can I know if the world is changing when I am changing too? When you change how you view the world, the world “changes” without changing at all.
Then of course I went to Galadriel. As a spiritual being, it would be unreasonable to say she was unchanging, but at the same time, she was very stable, she was coming to her intuitions from a stable place.
Now, all this may make no more sense to anyone, but I feel better.
I might have mentioned a variation on an old saw that I read a few months somewhere, about a Yiddish saying that “if you should be someone else, then who will be you?”
I yam what I yam. A big, bookish, emotionally timid/damaged, sometimes insightful, curious, and hopeful human being.