One of the more unpleasant aspects of personal growth, for me, is being shown in very clear light how stupid I have frequently been in the past.
I say something that makes someone wince, simply because I’m being stupid. I don’t see the wince at the time. I see the wince now, and I cringe inside. Etc.
And I’m still being stupid. I have not yet figured out how to stop, at least this phase, and this level and this type of stupidity. I think the loop of time in which I am blissfully ignorant is shortening, but I am still doing what I’ve always done.