Month: September 2021

I’m a reasonably reliable person.  I’m certainly not flaky.  I may get drunk, oversleep, and only remember an appointment at the last moment, but I will send you an excuse apologizing, and letting you know that I really want to be there, but something is preventing me.

And the next time, I will be there.  I’d say I communicate 100% of the time, and do what I say I’m going to do 90%.  Those are imperfect numbers, but in my neck of the woods they seem to make me elite.

And there are certainly people who are actually reliable, but who are working on things without telling me.  To my mind, completing a task STARTS with informing the person affected you are starting on it.  Until then, making sure is on their to-do list, since although YOU may know what a solid always do the right thing person you are, the rest of us, absent long experience with no exceptions, don’t.

Lately I’m dealing with more and more people who just don’t communicate.  As easy as it is–a few keystrokes for a very short message which is infinitely different from a non-existent one–it is too much for many.  They seemingly don’t realize that there is a two way street, that there are two people, and that even if YOU know what you are thinking, if you don’t communicate it, you have left the other person hanging, which is an impolite thing to do.

And I was pondering several recent incidents, and it hit me that, whether this recent bout of dealing with flakiness is just bad luck on my part or not, there is no way the past 18 months of misery, confusion, darkness and fog have not left an indelible print on much of humanity.  

I think most of us, when this ends–if indeed it ever DOES end, with Australia’s example being so extreme it has to be seen as political conditioning and perhaps foreshadowing–will find ourselves a bit less happy, a bit less trusting, somewhat bitter at the loss of life, less spontaneous, and a bit more irritable.

Why not assume this was intended?  Answer that question in your own way.  I am not even asserting it was intended, although there is ZERO doubt in my mind none of the people running this thing give a flying fuck either way otherwise.  I am simply saying that a grayer people is a more manageable people.

And I will remind you that the Color of the Year in Corporate America–which I interact with daily–seems to be battleship gray.  No joke.

Update (I don’t think I’ve ever done an update): one of the flaky people–I have about 4 in mind specifically–just had an emergency surgery to remove his gall bladder.  He was in the hospital until today.  That’s a quite satisfactory reason not to communicate.

 

DO NOT ALLOW THIS TO BECOME A CRIMINAL INVESTIGATION BEFORE RELEASING THE RESULTS TO THE PUBLIC.

It would not surprise me if the FBI was calling nearly daily to check up on everything, offering assistance, and asking where things stand.  Super friendly.  Super professionally.  Why?

To TAKE OVER AND KILL THE INVESTIGATION.

That’s what the FBI does.  If you want something gone, you Federalize it and they more or less make things disappear.  That seems to be the clear evidence.

Have you heard any more about the “malfunctioning” cameras in Epstein’s jail?  Have you EVER heard about malfunctioning cameras anywhere in any important case, much less one where he was EXPECTED to be murdered?

Or Hillary.  We KNOW–and the FBI ADMITS–she committed hundreds of prosecutable felonies.   Robbing a bank is not “gross negligence”, and the felonies she committed are on par with that; and that is over and above the EXISTENCE of the server in the first place, which alone should have put her in jail.  She good and goddamned well knew what the rules were.  That is why the server existed in the first place: to by-pass the Federal Records Act.  We all know this.  It’s obvious.  That means there were emails she did not want in the public records.  That means, in my view, her emails and texts, had they been found–and recollect they deleted 40,000 emails and smashed a number of cell phones with hammers AFTER they were subpoenaed, which is ALSO a serious crime–would have contained hundreds MORE felonies directly related to political crimes like selling Uranium leases to the highest bidder.

Now, the enemies of freedom and human dignity KNOW that the Arizona audit could–and should–be a game changer.  It is one of the main present sources of hope for many of us, in a world gone mad because grotesquely corrupt.

As I understand it, they were supposed to release it several weeks ago, but they got access to the routers.  If the routers show patent foreign involvement, the tendency to involve national law enforcement will be strong.

I am not sure what the best course of action is, but whatever is decided GET THE RAW FACTS OUT TO THE PUBLIC BEFORE ANYTHING.  This is vital.  The future of the country may depend on it.

What that will do is empower those seeking similar audits in other States.  I hope not everyone at the FBI is corrupt–you only need a few James Comeys and Robert Muellers, ultimately–and that perhaps, if a miracle happens, something honest can be done.  In the end, I’m honestly not sure who else would wind up with it.  A Special Prosecutor would be warranted, but Joe Biden’s people will not allow it, for the obvious reason that he belongs in jail, not the White House.  No criminal can be expected to oversee his own investigation.

Durham did finally indict someone.  Maybe he IS honest.  All this could be added to his investigation, perhaps.

But an actually woke and aware populace HAS to be strongly disadvantageous to our aspiring tyrants.  Those actually woke people might be among the people they want to use as storm troopers.  It will be hard to know for sure.  It’s far better feeding them lies they believe as long as possible.

In the end, the questions facing us is: How do you uncorrupt so much corruption?  It is no trivial task, and it requires allies in power.  Some nations have survived this sort of thing without revolutions, but some nations have not.  Violence is always a bad answer, but sometimes it is the only answer.  It is, as the mobster father of a friend of mine from long ago said “the last recourse of an exhausted mind”.

And I will note that “revolutions” are in effect civil wars.  Such civil wars have been fought often in history, and very often with very unsatisfactory results.  We say the one side is terrible, but the same sorts of people tend to predominate on the other side.  Our own Revolution is one of the few exceptions.  The French did not really benefit from their revolution, at least for many years.  Things got WORSE, in fact, much worse.  The Spanish would have been screwed if the Stalinists (ostensible “Republicans”) had won, equally, and perhaps much worse.

Let us hope and pray that enough people prove themselves honest that political involvement is all that is needed.

Start at 23:55.  It’s powerful.  It is still highly topical.

In my view, if you look around you, look at all the people mouthing Communist gobbledy-gook with glazed eyes, even though they have Ph.D’s or power at a national level, it’s impossible to conclude that Barry Goldwater was wrong about anything.  I personally don’t think he was.  He was simply the target of one of the successful smear campaigns in American political history.  If he had been elected, we most likely would not have gone to war in Vietnam, but if we had, we would have won, at a fraction of the cost.  And the people who were, then, pushing that war KNEW IT.

It is perhaps stating something mostly true that he was the Trump of that era, and lacked Trump’s money, name recognition, and overall charisma.  But he was also the daily target of nearly every media outlet in existence, even though he was speaking obvious common sense, as indeed Ron and Rand Paul have been.  In their own ways, they have continued in his footsteps.

The Dark State–or if you prefer Deep State–goes back we don’t really know how long.  Psychopaths are good at getting power and wealth, and when they do, they want more of both, so that becomes their main policy aim.  Their names and specific agendas vary, and as I say, it is reasonable to suppose their agendas sometimes conflict, and sometimes cohere.  There may be a unitary Them, but that is rare in human history.  Strange bedfellows are common.

Big Lies in this country are likely very old, going back many decades.  That the Fed should exist at all is perhaps the biggest.

Anyway, give it a look: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qXBswFfh6AY

Postmodernism is Dada in fancy French wrapping paper.  Ponder in this regard the outer, obvious meaning of Post-Structuralism, which tends to used for most purposes as a de facto synonym.

Narcissism could be accurately defined as an anti-reflective personality.

I saw a guy today who had “Until 2+2=5” printed on his shirt.  He was a mask person, so it seems unlikely it was ironic in any way, or that he knew the original reference, at least the most famous one, is to George Orwell.  I point that out, since the Left was buying 1984 in large numbers when Donald Trump was President.

Now that Biden and the people making decisions for him are trying to bring it about, they could not care less.  Orwell is so last year.

I think I commented here that the way things were trending, the Left was going to try and make 2+2=4 a “racist slogan”.  Work is apparently proceeding.

And it occurred to me that the real problem is not that they are crazy and don’t know  it.  It is that they are crazy and they DO know it.  They don’t care.  The pain of un-belonging is vastly greater, as a potential risk, than any present reality of continual irrationality, grotesquely inappropriate and destructive hyperemotionality, and a chronic sense of grievance and anger.  All worth it.  Totally worth it.

To state the obvious, you can’t reason with people who have not only lost the habit of reason, but who KNOW they are being unreasonable and don’t care.  Who in fact are PROUD of it, and who even brag about it.  Educated rednecks, arrogant in their willful ignorance.

Psychologically normal people seek out order and coherence.  They try and square what they say with what they do.  They don’t try and hold two contradictory positions at the same time, or even in rotation.  That sort of thing creates anxiety for them.  Stress.

But for the Post-Rational-Them, the anxiety comes with the thought of a world where they are no longer told what to do and how to behave.  They will give their souls to belong, and many have.  This means there is always a mob there for them when they need one, if not honest dialogue, sincere hugs, or real friends.

Artemesinin is AVAILABLE OVER THE COUNTER.

Here is the Amazon link: https://www.amazon.com/s?k=artemisinin&crid=1G8NQE97AQXOY&sprefix=artem%2Caps%2C216&ref=nb_sb_ss_ts-doa-p_1_5

I was thinking theoretically, then got to wondering if I could get this thing, and THERE IT IS.

This could be HUGE.  It is, I suspect, and what data I have supports this, roughly on par with HCQ.  It is an anti-malarial by design, and as I say, it’s discoverer shared the Nobel Prize with the inventors of Ivermectin.  That is just too good a “coincidence” for me not to see some deeper order involved.

And based on nothing other than intuition, I suspect this is what China is using.

The protocol would be like the HCQ protocol outlined by Vladimir Zelenko.  I linked the treatment protocol, but this stuff is so safe you could actually just follow the Prophylaxis protocols and add this in.

If I’ve understood the science, this medicine would do the same thing Quercetin is supposed to do, which is help get the zinc in the cells, so you could most likely take one or the other.  I’m not a doctor, and this is virgin ground, but that is a solid guess.

Again, if you are afraid (perhaps with reason, if you are sickly) take both.  I can’t guarantee its safe, but I also can’t guarantee you won’t have heart attack five minutes from now, or get hit by a bus tomorrow.  Life is unsafe, but taking both would most likely not affect your daily odds in any measurable way.

And SHARE THIS.  Particularly share this with doctors treating patients.  

Feelings are orienting signals, particularly negative ones.  They are supposed to cause us to move.

Growing up, many of us are terrorized into doing things we don’t want to do, and a common outcome of this is learning to lie to yourself about what you are feeling.  “Of course I am fine with this.  Why wouldn’t I be?”

And I think for the rich world a complicating addition to this is the sheer volume of noise, pace of life, and countless distractions that it sometimes seems to me amount to our main cultural product.  If you are never in silence, and stillness, you never learn to feel.  If you never learn to feel, you watch other people and do what they do.

That is why it has been so easy to induce Stockholm Syndrome in so many people.  Their instincts are kaput.  Their senses have the nuance of leather, and their minds are most comfortable with black and white.  Being told what to do by “respectable” authorities actually decreases their anxiety, even if the commands are ludicrous, as now in much of the world.

This is what you get when you never learn to consult your own feelings, to never take the time to ask basic questions and listen long enough to hear the answers.

And of course most of us like to think of ourselves as good people.  I would hazard a guess that if Goodness could be measured–and I would assume some psychological proxy could be and probably has been created, although I doubt they called the trait “Goodness”–95% of us would honestly believe we are above average.

You know, like 95% of men are better fighters and lovers than average.

Much of this of, I will hazard a guess, stems from the insulting belief that we are inferior.  That word insulting popped into my head.  I had intended to go another direction, but will now try and work into something that makes sense.

Most of us are mashed up, aren’t we?  Crushed, emotionally?  Our feelings as children not consulted, not cared about, and the demand made that we feel on demand whatever we are TOLD to feel.

Does that match anything in your experience?  It certainly does with me.

With my own kids I did a LOT of mirroring, in that when they were very, very little I would imitate the little noises they made.  As they got older, I would often match them emotionally in various ways.  I think explicit acknowledgement of inner states, without attempting to control them, by parents helps the feelings grow in a healthy way.  Each child is an individual seed that will grow in his or her own way, IF ALLOWED TO.

They are like little art works that build themselves.  It’s a pleasure to watch, not least because I have no ego stake in the outcomes.  I want them to be happy and have self respect, but the details I leave fully in their hands.  If they want advice, I give it.  If they don’t, I still give it sometimes and they tell me to stop, and I mostly do.  Some work needed there on my side, but not desperately.

There have to be boundaries, obviously, but there also needs to be respect.  I think this respect is missing from most cultures.  The parents beat their kids into conformity, and those kids do the same with their own.  It’s a pattern for a stable culture, and it’s not intrinsically bad, but there is a happier middle somewhere in most cases.

In our own culture, of course, we have gone much too far in the other direction, to the point where I think many parents want to be friends with their kids in unhealthy ways, and the kids do not hear NO  a fraction of the number of times they need to to build up resistance through use to the difficulties of life.  No is an immunization of sorts, no?  Rich kids act one way, poor kids another.

But for myself, one current work is watching the flitter of feelings when it comes to my work.  I will often make lists, then find myself doing something else completely.  Not infrequently, it is blogging.

But just in the past week or so, I have noticed this shadow that flits over my mind every time I look at a task.  There is a sadness that flits through me, and a fear.  It is those feelings, not the task, that I am avoiding. I’m not weak or lazy.  It’s just that I’m pulling much more weight than what is in the physical room.

So I’m going to try and spend an extra moment, when making my list, and when beginning each task, to allow those feelings to come up consciously, so I can learn to live with them.  It will be a bit like learning to walk a different way, but I am sanguine it can be done.  I’m ready.

I am going to make what may sound like an uncharacteristic claim: all human beings are rational, most of the time.  They are consistent, most of the time.

But much of the time they are either unaware of their real motives, or LYING, to you or to themselves or both.

If someone says their greatest hope is to win the lottery, but they don’t buy lottery tickets, there is a back story.

If someone says nothing excites them more than getting married, but they look miserable every time they are with their future spouse, there is a back story.

Any long term problem which does not get fixed, does not fail to get fixed because of incompetence, but rather competing rationalities.

I would articulate this general principle: All long term problems continue to exist because they benefit someone.  Someone rational has appropriated some aspect of the problem to serve them.

Wars serve military careers.  They serve arms dealers.  They serve politicians.  Some people–and I have met them–just LIKE war.  “It gets in your blood”, as one Army officer confided in me.

Poverty serves many agendas.  Most proximately, it provides the raw ingredients of racially divisive rhetoric, and the following ability to build group cohesion off of shared hate.

And ignorant people are easier to manipulate.  And they are less likely organize politically against you if they can be made to believe you are on their side.

Rationality often means literal money in literal bank accounts.  It means perks when you travel.  It means being showered with attention and respect and sex.

So whenever there is a disconnect between claimed intent and following action, I don’t think we should assume incompetence.  I think we should assume competing rationalities are interfering with the resolution of problems that benefit them.

COVID (and obviously, when I say COVID I am nearly always referring to the RESPONSE to COVID, and not to the disease that could as easily have been made to disappear, had the media chosen to do so) is a great case in point.

If we had given Vitamins D to everyone at the outset, almost no one would have been hospitalized.  The data is pretty good on that.  The cytokine storms only happen when the body gets to a certain stage of its immune response, and the floor drops out because of the lack of a needed tool; and a tool, I will emphasize, that is readily available and CHEAP.

Ivermectin and HCQ, along with Zinc and Vitamin C, also seem to make a huge difference in early to middle stage cases; and very, very few cases, treated early, should ever progress past that.  Based on what I read, the deaths from COVID should literally have been on par with a bad flu years, which is to say 100,000 or less of mainly old and sickly people.

So what gives?  Why push unproven and potentially very dangerous spike protein injections before recommending general supplementation of a Vitamin that is in any event essential to health, and really hard to overdose on (although it is possible)?

Competing rationalities.  When I say “some conspiracy theory is needed to explain all this”, “competing rationalities” could be used as a synonym.  Other agendas.  Conflicting agendas.  Competing greed.  We are greedy for a return to normal and for our loved ones not to suffer with idiotic restrictions, and die sometimes from a not dangerous disease; others are hungry for power and money, and all that money will buy, which does also include power.

And I commented elsewhere, and will share here, that the denigration of “Conspiracy Theories” is itself the result of a conspiracy to silence people telling unwanted truths, or at least partial truths.

Most of history is conspiracy theories.  It is psychopaths plotting in secret with one another to off one person or group so they can get their stuff and start telling everyone one else what to do.

To take a long ago example, from about 2,500 years ago, Babylon seems to have fallen to Cyrus “without a battle”.  The existing king was unpopular, so traitors invited in a replacement.  That is a conspiracy.  Those who suspected that was about to happen would have been “conspiracy theorists”.

To denigrate “conspiracy theories” as a class of ideas is to claim that psychopaths do NOT plot in secret, that they DO telegraph their intentions, and that there do not exist many people in the world who are capable of literally anything to get what they want.  This is obviously a counterfactual claims.  Conspiracies do happen.

It is simply the case that some conspiracies are more plausible than others.

I was thinking this morning that one intellectual task any honest person confronted with the many competing secret rationalities of this world must undertake, is to overlay each on the facts, like templates, to see what matches, what doesn’t match, and to identify the many gray areas where there just isn’t enough information, either about what IS happening, or who might be driving it.

For example, I listened to this talk (https://www.thriveon.com/911/) yesterday with David Icke and Foster Gamble (descendant of the Gamble of Proctor and Gamble, who seemingly grew up pretty comfortably).  What to do with it?

Icke makes a lot of points that seem well documented.  He explains in some detail who brought down the towers, and how they covered it up.  The culprits, on his account, are an elite cult which controls most of the world’s intelligence agencies, the Vatican, most think tanks, and certainly Israel.  They are nominally Jewish, but secretly highly anti-Jewish (Anti-Semitic, as he points out, would functionally mean, if the term were used properly, anti-Arab in nearly all cases, which is something I knew, but had not thought much about), to the point of having played a role in the Holocaust.

[ Holocaust, by the way–as he points out elsewhere– is itself a somewhat blasphemous term, in that a holocaust is an offering to God.  It is an offering that is burnt to smoke in the fire.  It is fully consumed, to ash.  Is that an appropriate term for the murder of 6 million people?  An offering to God?   I knew that was what a holocaust was, but never thought about it in those terms.]

Is he right?  I don’t know.

And this morning, I was thinking about Stephen Greer.  He is all about the aliens, and the coming alien false flag.  In his world, the dominant reality is that our government knows about UFO’s, BUILDS them using technology most of us don’t suspect exists, and is in contact with a number of alien races.  As I have said Edgar Mitchell backed this up, as did Paul Hellyer.

Is he most right?  Can elements of both theories not be true?  Along with something else?

As I was discussing with someone in a bar a few weeks ago, it’s really important, in my view, to have a large gray area marked “Unknown”.

To me, the NEED for a conspiracy theory to explain the world’s willingness to march into Fascism over an easily managed disease is absolute.  That is not in the gray for me.  That is an obvious and indisputable fact.  Incompetence and stupidity just won’t cut it.  Not by a long shot.  It is willful.

But why?  For whom?  Those are questions that cannot be answered with confidence.  They go into the gray area.

But I will say that all of us should ALWAYS look at the congruence between what someone says they want, and what they actually do.  Anthony Fauci does not want to save lives.  That is obvious.  What his real rationality is, his real calculations are, I cannot answer from evidence; but if what I might term primary rationality is not present–and it clearly is not–then you have to move into the darkness, into the conspiratorial, and most of what lives there is guns, drugs, sex, money and a power elite.

A meme on this study (link is https://fee.org/articles/john-b-calhoun-s-mouse-utopia-experiment-and-reflections-on-the-welfare-state/)–which deals John B. (not John C.) Calhoun’s experiments in mouse utopias–has been floating around, and I had intended to make a post on it.  But I this is a good commentary.

The gist of the thing is that mice, when you give them everything they need, such that life is easy and requires no decisions, become stupid, decadent, and die.  Literally.  All the individual mice in the contained utopia die.  Every time.

And ask yourself if any specific examples of this come to mind:

Other young mice growing into adulthood exhibited an even different type of behavior. Dr. Calhoun called these individuals “the beautiful ones.” Their time was devoted solely to grooming, eating and sleeping. They never involved themselves with others, engaged in sex, nor would they fight. All appeared [outwardly] as a beautiful exhibit of the species with keen, alert eyes and a healthy, well-kept body. These mice, however, could not cope with unusual stimuli. Though they looked inquisitive, they were in fact, very stupid.

I will append two comments.

1) Mice have obviously survived just fine in the wild for millions of years.  So you cannot use this experiment to generalize to “humanity”, at least humanity OUTSIDE OF A CAGE.

And to be clear, we live very easy, very decadent lives, most of us, that don’t involve life and death decisions, the POSSIBILITY of hunger for most of us, or any real doubt that we will be taken care of, in some way, by someone.

We are not yet in cages of someone else’s making, but greater wealth and ease are clearly not what would be GOOD for us.  On the contrary: we need more pain, more challenge, more fear and excitement, and more difficulty generally.  Most of us.

In that vein, I’ve been considering reading this book: https://www.amazon.com/Comfort-Crisis-Embrace-Discomfort-Reclaim/dp/0593138767/ref=sr_1_1

You can cut and paste the link.  As I say, you need more work in your life.

I probably won’t read it–I think I’m doing OK in the challenge department–but then again, I MAY.

2) What I would suggest is that the system as a whole lost information by losing Complexity, as an Emergent property of countless individual volitional–which is to say they could have gone this way, or could have gone that way, as in the wild–acts.

This leads to the conclusion that just occurred to me that opposite of complexity is not simplicity, but rather decay and decadence.  A living human beings behavior is complex.  The decay of a human body, much less so.  A vibrant human society is complex, richly ordered, many faceted.  A decadent human society is monomaniacal, repetitive, simplistic, and lacking in energy.