Month: August 2020

 As I think I have commented, this whole COVID attack on humanity–which in my view constitutes the largest crime ever committed against humanity in peacetime, and depending on the eventual numbers, with over 100 million people at risk of starvation, perhaps ever, absolutely–is a risky strategem by people whose names we can’t be sure we fully know.

The truth will out, if allowed.  The fact that HCQ works, and was known to work long ago, will out.  The suicide numbers will come out.  People will find out masks don’t work that well, since I’m sure labs will be busy testing all this for a long time to come.

Thus, if Light fails us, and somehow the quasi-demonic (I truly believe he is a sociopath, and absolutely believe he is a sadist) Joe Biden manages to get into office, one of the first orders of business will be managing the narrative.  Something like a “COVID Truth and Responsibility Act” will need to be passed, or issued as an Executive Order, mandating that “untruths and scientifically ungrounded and damaging information be removed from the public domain in order to protect the American people from damaging lies.”  All, of course, in the interest of public safety.

Such a thing is possible.  You ask why I would believe that.  Look around you.  That was manifestly possible.

As I continue to say, no sane person can look at all this and not see some form of organized conspiracy.  Take your pick as to the culprits and motives, but that we are being lied to is in my view an established fact. 

 I read rates of depression among the young are up 400% and suicides are up 25%.

Given that as of today only 320 people total under the age of 24 areclaimed to have died of COVID, the televant pandemic for them is depression.

It seems obvious that their future thriving requires them to fo back to school, normally.

Our teachers are being asked to enlist as foot soldiers in this war on teenage depression, and most if them are refusing, for what amount to grotesquely selfish and and cowardly reasons.

 I can’t bring myself to feel regret for what I did, but I do feel regret both for losing my temper, and later last night allowing myself to get drunk.

Still, as often happens, latent and deep feelings emerged this morning that I am processing.

I felt contempt for that guy.  I felt contempt for his fear, and for his obsessive rule following, even to the point of ridiculousness.

But I REACTED to him.  It was emotional.  He triggered me.  And this means that my contempt for him was and is in some measure something I feel for myself.  I don’t respect myself.

This is a useful insight.  Because seeing it means that it has become possible that I COULD respect myself.

What I feel is that the spiritual task is learning to swim in social realms without rules.  You should not be triggered by anyone, even if all people create both practical problems and opportunities.  And all of them have Spirit in them.

If you look at the world as a machine, the task is to learn to navigate without using the rules of the machine.  There really are no Laws in this universe.  Everything is possible that is possible (you can quote me on that).

This doesn’t mean murder should be allowed.  What it means is that our morality should not consist in a series of conditioned reactions of the sort we see in squirrels.  If your nervous system will not even ALLOW you to contemplate certain things, can it really be said you made a choice to avoid them?

All of reality is an illusion.  If we believe the mystics, this is literally true, but it is also true that our social realities, likewise, are illusions.  Learning to see this is the task.  Learning to LIBERATE ourselves from this is the task.

I won’t go back to that place–it’s in any event not really my sort of place–but this guy accidentally taught me something.  And I may have helped the next guy or gal who is feeling the same way as me.  That guy may just keep his mouth shut.  We were literally discussing ten feet in a restaurant filled with people sitting at tables without masks. Violence definitely causes social renegotiations.  It’s a bad tactic, but sometimes a necessary one.

 You know, Thoreau is who made me interested in the examined life, or the intellectual life, or the thought worker life, or whatever it is I do here.  He’s known for “On Walden Pond”, but he also wrote an essay called “Civil Disobedience” which , if memory serves, had to do with the Mexican-American War.

Me, I’ve reached that point.  I’m always out exploring, and checked out a place I had not been to in a while.  They used to have a bar you could sit at and talk to people.  The last time I was there I had a long conversation with the owner of a trucking company about working with gangsters in New Jersey.  Good times.  But he creeped me the fuck out.  I inferred things I wish I had not.  But it was still interesting.

Tonight, they took my temperature as I walked in (masked, of course).  The gal with the colored hair asked me how I was.  I told her “I’m living in the fucking Twilight Zone.”

The bartender was nice enough.  I tipped him $10 on a $30 tab.  That’s not great, but not terrible.  He said he had been doing fine.

But walking out I was like “I’m done with this fucking mask”.  I had been watching one of the managers walk by me for a while.  You can tell fearful people by their body language, and he was definitely fearful. 

I was walking literally about 30 steps from my table to the front door and he told me “you need to wear a mask”.  I told him “oh, I’ll be putting it on in just a second”.  He said “you have to wear it between the table and the door”.  I got to the door, turned around, patted him on the shoulder, and told him “don’t worry, I won’t come back.  And go fuck yourself.”  Verbatim quote.  

If you are saying to yourself “hey, this guy is an asshole”, yes, yes, sometimes I am.  The world needs assholes.  It needs them a hell of a lot more than it needs more fucking sheep.  I AM an asshole, sometimes.  I have never felt any need to deny it.  I am also fiercely loyal, principled, and thoughtful.  If I might channel my inner Kant, would I will that all the people in the world be like me?  Yes, yes, I would.  Dear God it would become complicated, but ideas would flow like rivers, and sooner or later all of us would become congruent, and really, really interesting, creative and good things would start to happen.

I’m done with this bullshit.  Unless it is absolutely necessary for work, I am asthmatic from this moment forward, and anyone asking me to wear a mask is risking me hyperventilating and even passing out.  I might have even passed out last week.   I’m not sure yet.

I think of the Taoists.  I don’t remember if it was Lao Tse or Chuang Tse, or both, but one or both commented that if you have too many rules, you make liars of everyone.

Well, I am going to become a liar.  I have natural talent for it, but in general I prefer the truth.  But idiots and cowards do not deserve the truth.  Fuck all of them.  

Let’s all devoutly pray that this period where so many Americans were tested and found wanting passes soon, and we can go back to pretending that a good chunk of us are not ignorant, cowardly, conformist douchebags.

 Most Governors seem to be getting away with calling the normal effects of easing lockdowns problematic.  Farr’s Law says the only way through a pandemic is for 60-70% of the people in the population to get the disease, or at least be exposed to it.  If the population is healthy, then you can get through it easily.  If it is unhealthy–as happened in 1918–then many of those exposed also die.  

But regardless, THIS IS HOW HUMANITY HAS GOTTEN THROUGH EVERY PANDEMIC IN HISTORY.

To be sure, we learned to prevent some, such as measles and tuberculosis, through vaccination, but when the thing is raging, the fastest way out is through.  The science is very clear, as far as I can tell, and no qualified epidemiologist can, in my view, be unfamiliar with this FACT.

But our Governors keep extending their draconian limitations on our freedom every time it becomes obvious that we are moving towards Herd Immunity, which is to say the cessation both of the disease, and the increasingly flimsy justifications for the assaults on our liberty and emotional and economic health.

Look up the death rate in your State, in normal times.  Use, say, 2015 as a benchmark.

If you see what I am seeing, then the disease is causing much less than 10% of the deaths which would be expected in any month in any normal year.  

To state the obvious–which is seemingly necessary any more–that level of death does not come CLOSE to justifying the measures being taken.

If the cause of freedom and goodness wins, then this will in very little time come to be seen as the largest public policy disaster in modern times.  It is worse, in many respects, than the Great Depression.  I suspect more people will die of preventable causes, globally.

And as I’ve said, the casualties of Communism–with the WHO being run by and for Communists–could DOUBLE in a few months.  That is no easy feat to achieve, and that level of evil is impossible for psychologically normal people to fathom, particularly when the purpose is putting humanity under the jackboot of psychopaths.

 I think a good case could be made that the lockdowns—the fruit mainly of criminals and anti-science sanctimonious pricks—are what caused the death of George Floyd. What caused his death was Fentanyl, which either stopped his heart outright, or induced the behavior which led to a knee on his neck. If he had stayed home and had a six pack of PBR’s, he would most likely be alive.

As I understand the story, he was clean at the start of this massive assault on our liberty and well being. It is not unreasonable to suppose he was one of many MILLIONS of recovered  addicts who relapsed in the face of unrelenting hopelessness, poverty, and pain.

The psychopaths behind this cannot be let anywhere near power again. What they touch, they break, and who they touch, they wound.

 It occurs to me that people who refuse to read or watch things that are from a “right wing” source, are literally saying “I can’t watch that, because it is not Party approved.”

 I took an interest a while back in “tightly bound systems”.  I forget why.  Gregory Bateson may have talked about them.  I bought a few books I never read, but did scan.

The gist of the idea is that inflexible systems tend to create accidents of their own, even if the goal of the system is to avoid accidents.  There is really no substitute for intelligent, case based, human judgement.  Someone, somewhere, possessed of common sense and goodwill, needs to ask “does what we are doing make sense?  Is it accomplishing what we set out to accomplish?”

When the whiff of this disease starting floating in Corporate America, they started worrying about lawsuits.  They gravitated towards a “zero defect” mentality.  So did most governments.  

And systems, once they acquire a momentum of their own, develop their own logic, their own inertia.  The goal becomes the persistence of the system, not the solution of the actual originating problem.

What is obvious is that the “zero defect” mentality, which seeks to use government to win a pissing contest with the disease, such that it eventually disappears, regardless of the cost, is going to cost many, many more lives than are being saved.  The logic is lunacy.  The system is perverse, inverted, ugly.

Somewhere in here sane, intelligent people need to do the obvious cost/benefit analysis and make the obvious and only defensible decision, which is generalized reopening at a rapid pace.  Anything else will be generating needless and painful death.

To be sure, the Democrats clearly seem to be willing to sacrifice tens and even hundreds of thousands of people to pursue their political objectives, but that degree of psychopathy only truly exists at the core, in people like Nancy Pelosi and Joe Biden.  Everyone else needs to wake the fuck up.

 Would it not make sense to put fans behind the backs of people dealing with the public?  Teachers dealing with students, and cashiers dealing with the public?  I think it would make more sense in most cases than these plastic shields.

The virus particles are small and would respond instantly, I would think, to even mild air flow.  

The response to this pandemics continues to boggle my mind.  Yes, there is a power elite directing it.  But why are so many otherwise smart people just going along with this idiocy?

I will grant that my own early conditioning makes me ideally suited to detect and react to bullshit, but surely to God after nearly six months the BS detectors of everyone with a pulse and the ability to read has to be starting to sound off?

 One way of rendering the Buddhist conception of human life, as I understand it, is that a human life is an E ticket ride (if I am writing for anyone, I think I am writing for people who will get that reference) that countless souls are waiting in line for.

You would not want to wait all that time for something insipid, would you?  No: there will always be death, pain, and disease.  Accustom yourself to that idea, then learn to see the sky from the bottom of the well.  We all return there one day.