Month: September 2018

I think the game is clear enough: delay and obstruction.

Feinstein held these claims for the specific reason that bringing them out NOW makes it that much harder to get Kavanaugh confirmed by a week from Friday.

This is made particularly clear in Jones call for an FBI investigation before she testifies.  This is ludicrous, and she knows it.  She is, after all, a professor of stupid shit.  Which is to say, she TEACHES mental health because she can’t DO it.

In any negotiation the strongest position is the one which has the Best Alternative to a Negotiated Agreement.  The Democrats presumably think that, if they can kill Kavanaugh’s nomination, and if they can get back the House in November, that they can force Trump to nominate someone more moderate.

I think Trump, in response to this reckless, shameless, utterly morally repulsive thuggery, needs to tell senior Democrats that he is still the President, and that if Kavanaugh cannot be confirmed, that the next nominee will be even MORE conservative.  This means they can spent two years playing politics, or confirm a more sturdy Constitutionalist.

And it is far from clear that the Democrats, in this latest atrocity against common decency, courtesy, civility, and indeed the American Way, which has always included compromise, will not pay a price with the electorate.  It is far from clear that Republicans will not only hold both the Senate and House, but perhaps even GAIN.  There will be a march on Washington just before the election of former Democrats who have #walkedaway.

James O’Keefe will continue releasing his videos.

And Trump has ordered the declassification of, as I understand it, everything which initiated Mueller’s abusive run.  This promises to be  very embarrassing.

I will emphasize, though, that Trump has to draw a hard line with these people.  He ordered the Kennedy documents released, but almost nothing got out.  The spooks won.

He needs a way to put fear into these people.  NONE of them ever face the court system.  The worst case scenario is not even losing their retirement.  The worst case scenario is losing their jobs, and possibly their security clearances.  This, in response to treasonous attacks on our election system. And of course all these people are snatched up in various ways, by consulting companies, by lobbyists, by foreign governments: God only knows.  God, and the CIA/NSA/ETC, and the CIA ETC is not telling, because Trump does not have them under control.

People need to go to jail, for long periods of time.  This is the only way.

Particularly with regard to the McCabe/Comey texts, he needs to give them a deadline, and he needs to play hardball with them.  Nothing should be redacted.  Nothing censored.  These are the same people–people who allegedly work for Trump’s alleged “ally” Jeff Sessions–who have been stonewalling Judicial Watch’s legitimate FOIA requests for many months now.  They can be counted on to stonewall, to hem and haw, now.

As I understand the process, they are supposed to be gathering everything, and presenting it to the President with their recommendations of what to release, and what to hide (a synonym for “redact”)

I had a fantasy conversation in my mind this morning:

DoJ Jackass: Sir, these are the text.  We STRONGLY recommend you not release these here.

Trump: (reads them).  I don’t see anything here which affects national security.

DoJ:  Sir, they relate to the public trust.  We really feel like they will be damaging to the FBI’s ability to do its job.

Trump: HAS it been doing its’ job?  Do these texts not reflect real problems?

DoJ: Sir, as long term professionals, we really think it best for all concerned if we redact them.

Trump: I want them released, as is.

DoJ: Sir, we strongly recommend against this.

Trump: Who is in charge here?

DoJ: Sir, we feel the damage could be. . .

Trump: According to the Constitution, who is in charge of the Executive Branch?

DoJ: The President, Sir.

Trump:  Who is the President?

DoJ: You are, Sir.

Trump: Does that mean you work for me?

DoJ:  Yes, Sir.

Trump:  When someone works for someone else, do they tell them no, when asked to do something lawful?  Is there anything I am asking you to do you think is illegal?

DoJ: Just a bad idea, Sir.

Trump:  Bad idea.  You mean like trying to use your power to make sure I wouldn’t get elected?

DoJ: Sir, we have many on-going investig-. . .

Trump: RELEASE THEM AS IS, AND DO IT NOW, OR YOU’RE FIRED.

Again, this is most likely fantasy.  And I will point out that as far as I know, this conversation WOULD be happening with the DoJ, which, again, is supposedly run by Jeff Sessions, who supposedly is a Trump ally. 

With friends like that, who needs enemies.

My neuroscience studies continue.

In looking at QEEG results, there is something called Coherence.  You would think coherence would be a good thing, but it actually is not, at least as I understand it.

Your brain is intended to process many things at once, all in a distributed way.  Your left frontal lobe can be doing one thing, and your right frontal lobe something slightly different.

Coherence means they are phase locked with one another, which means the local processing function has diminished, and a sort of cognitive spasm is happening.  Behaviorally, as I understand it–and I am a very new student, so it is certainly possible I am misstating this–it would be reflected as cognitive rigidity, mostly likely combined with following behavioral rigidity.

Social systems are similar.  We all work best when we work independently most of the time, but when we sometimes come together in groups to accomplish something specific.  In the brain, periods of coherence when working on a task are healthy.  It is long term, unvarying coherence, particularly when your eyes are closed, and there is no task in front of you, where there is a problem.

Mass conformity is a type of coerced coherence.  It is like a mask put over people, over their brains, which has an inhibitory effect, such that their innate individual creativity and spontaneity are muted.  You get people acting, talking, moving in similar ways, which is inherently unnatural.  It is inherently unhealthy.

It seems to be a new normal for me to be attacked by some evil force at night.  Last, night, again: it was many people.  A dark energy, immediately above me, trying to get in.  I told it to go fuck itself.  I have to expend some energy keeping it out, but it is getting less and less.

Now, I do think there is a psychodynamic aspect to this.  Evil is tension, more or less.  It is the inability to relax, to allow energy to flow spontaneously.  And as I relax, and release it, there are bound to be dreams about it. In this sense, this sort of dream is a positive.  It is something which WAS inside of me, and is now outside. 

You cannot normally see the evil inside of you.  It is disguised within ideology, religion, morality.  It knows how to hide, how to make itself respectable, presentable.

But there is evil in this world, too.  It is the horrific and insane need so many people feel to march in lockstep, to perform like hypnotized dancing monkeys on a stage.  It is ironic that the worse offenders, in general, are the alleged members of the “counter-culture.”, of the self identifying “Progressives”.  They believe nothing, but think themselves the purveyers of something good.

Ponder this story

The communist country’s social credit rating, set to be “fully operational” in 2020, will track all 1.4 billion citizens and assign them each an ever-changing score, ranging from 0 to 800, that factors into their everyday lives.
For example, Hua is one of an estimated 10 million Chinse citizens with a bad rating after he was arrested and jailed for accusing high-level officials of corruption and for publishing details of misconduct by authorities on his popular website.
Hua has been banned from traveling via airplane or train and has had his social media accounts with millions of followers suspended.
The Globe and Mail reports Hua “has been barred from buying property, taking out a loan or traveling on the country’s top-tier trains.”

More:

Facebook CEO Mark Zuckerberg has met with the czar of China’s internet censorship system and other propaganda chiefs on numerous occasions and is working with the oppressive regime to suppress the Chinese people.
Like Hua, Alex Jones and Infowars have been nearly wiped off the internet by big tech and social media sites in an increasingly authoritarian free-speech crackdown.
Also, Google, who kicked Alex Jones and Infowars off YouTube, is currently working with China to develop a censored search engine the government can fully control.
It’s possible that one day Google could use the Chinese model in the United States, for example, to block pro-Trump material as it is well known the company has a left-leaning bias. 

There was a time when self identifying “Liberals” would have opposed this.  They would have said they were Liberals because they wanted MORE justice, not less, MORE freedom, not less, MORE information and transparency, not less.

But it is not hard to see what Google and Facebook (and presumably others, since they seem to flock together–actually Apple would be on this list too) are doing as practice for what they want to do in the United States.

Recall that, for reasons which are inexplicable to me, most of these people seem to sincerely believe in global warming.  They believe in One World government.  If they were given a choice between endlessly renewable energy, the ability to create a global command and control structure, and the technology to make the world more emotionally intelligent, they would, in my view, choose the second option.

Most of these people, functionally–the leaders–are high functioning Aspergers or autistic spectrum.  This is a virtual requirement of being able to spend 80 hours a week for years on end with mind crushingly dull coding, which is required for most tech progress.

They are, in the understatement of the year, not “people” people.  People are numbers to them.  They are unreal.  And these people have a latent hegemonic control over nearly all our information.  They are our eyes on the world, in important ways.  They allow us to see all the abstract trends, all the distant news, which we cannot see in our own homogenized streets of Walmarts, Kroger/Safeways, and Walgreens.  You yourself, driving down your street, can see almost nothing.  You need them, particularly since most of the local newspapers are on their last legs.

You do have local TV news, but as a general rule they are not particularly able, and a great many are owned by national conglomerates.  Remember this? 

I was dreaming about the Founding Fathers last night.  It is later than you think.  If you are not scared about what is possible, you lack some combination of intelligence, courage, and imagination.

I was dreaming last night about where my ex-wife’s father will be buried.  It’s an odd thought, but very, very few Americans are buried in the town where they were born.  We move around too much.  Children leave their parents as a matter of course, and not infrequently parents leave their children.  We have little sense of place, which is something burial grounds have always more or less literally embodied.

In Israel, they have the Tomb of the Patriarchs.  This place is sacred because it is thought be where the ancient forebears of the Jews, Christians and Muslims were buried.  The bodies and the place are connected in a sacred way.

Here is, to me, an interesting thought: I think it is likely that nearly 100% of the people who have family burial plots they plan to be buried in eventually voted for Trump.  Rooted people voted for Trump.  People who feel a sense of place voted for Trump.

Put more broadly, conservatives might be seen as those who feel there is something in their lives worth conserving, worth protecting.  They don’t think of “humanity”, but their own little neck of the woods, their little lives, the people they know, the local coffee shop, their church, their favorite fishing hole.

This is vastly better than being a nihilist who claims to be capable of believing everything.  As a general rule, if your goal is to “save humanity”, and your plan involves something other than bringing out the best in everyone, you are a narcissistic liar.

I might go on, might qualify, but you get the gist of it.  I will ignore my inner pedant for now.

Year Ten, and I still see little sign of response or life in reaction to anything I write.  I wonder why I spend the time. It’s a question any more psychologically normal, less driven person would have answered long ago by quitting.

But I can’t help feeling that SOMETHING happens when I write.  I don’t know what it is, but I feel it.  Even if no one reads this, I am sending something out in the air, to be caught up, as with the famous experiments with mice and monkeys.

We have been conditioned to believe, we have had beaten into us by insidious and damnably sincere but brainwashed “experts”, that life has no meaning.  Christianity is a fairy tale.  All religious are fairy tales.  We are machines made out of meat, matter is the primary things which exists, the ONLY thing which exists, and everything else simply a fancy sandcastle which has fallen together by infinite chance over infinite time, and which is destined to meet its high tide sooner than later.  Everything you love, everything you do: all of it is conditioned, like the behavior of birds feeding on worms, destined, since the beginning of time.  It never begins, because it is simply the continuation of the effect of one billiard ball hitting another billions of years ago, and the concussions of one billiard ball hitting another continue long after the temporary assembly of parts we call our “bodies” and “brains” fall prey to the inevitable effects of entropy.

You can believe this.  It is your choice.  But it is not required by science.  It is not required by intuition.  And it is not yet required by the political authorities, although they are trying hard to get us there.  For now, they just call dissenters to their religion crazies, “deniers”, and “anti-scientific”, even though THEY are the ones abusing the scientific method to support empirically weak and even indefensible beliefs.

I believe, because I have reason to believe, that the world is vastly bigger, more interesting, more miracle filled than most people who grow up watching sitcoms, watching porn, enduring idiotic movies and conversations can possibly grasp.

Wow, I got jolted by some powerful dark energies last night.  I seem to have a particular problem with the direction north.  Some nights, I will literally get up and burn sage.  I don’t know if I believe in sage, but I believe in belief, and having a physical connection to an emotional/spiritual intention cannot be a bad thing.  I read some thing about putting salt in a jar with water and vinegar, too.  I have no idea if it helps, but if it provides a tangible anchor for a believing thought, then likely yes.  It is not the thing: it is my interaction with, and elevation of the thing, through belief.

Let me put last nights thought this way: the idea that life has meaning and purpose is a conspiracy theory, in large measure.  Our dominant culture tells us our purpose in life is to work, have sex, buy and use and throw away lots of things, engage in superficial sentimentality–not infrequently through ridiculous political ideas and following actions–think as little as possible, and to die.  If this is dominant, if this is the latent and in many cases explicit message of our “leaders”, then any alternative is by definition “conspiracy”.  It is out of the mainstream.  It is “dangerous”.  It is TRULY counter-cultural.

And on that last term, I would submit the goal is not to create an alternative culture, but to create new ideas and practices WITHIN our culture, to evolve.

A metaphor I used some time ago is that the hippies, and Beats before them (about whom some things later today) were like a pack of bikers in a long race who tried to get ahead of the pack to try and “win” the race of life.  To be better than the rest of us.  To live more useful, more meaningful, more exciting lives.  By and large, in my view, most of them failed terribly.  They lived selfish, narcissistic, futile, and ultimately somewhat pathetic if not outright contemptible lives.  To the extent they lived good lives, they returned to values which were already latent in our culture, like compassion. 

Ram Dass, to take one example, seems to not be the fuckup he once was.  In my curmudgeonly world, that is high praise, and sincere.  But he is not “counterculture” in my view.  He has learned to express the best that was already IN our culture.  In his work, he might appeal to Hindu ideals, but ideals of compassion are also very Christian. He would no doubt disagree, but in my view he could have reached his current station in life without going to India.  It may well be the case that all his drugs helped him.  Well, let’s mainstream drugs.  Let’s integrate them, so you don’t have to leave our culture at all in order to experience induced transcendental states. Let’s build public temples to them.  Maybe we can use city money to buy up all the Masonic lodges in every major city in America and convert them to Ayahuasca or mushroom temples. 

I think one of my jobs–I continue to think of myself roughly as an irritable senior NCO with a spear and a job–is to open up holes in GroupThink, in the collective hypnosis which lies over so much of humankind.  And “conspiracy theories” are the way.  It was a conspiracy theory in the Matrix that they were all living in pods.  But they were all living in pods.  My job is Red Pills.  Everyone else, the whole system by and large, is dishing out Blue Pills.  The Democrats as they exist today, cannot BUT consist entirely in people consuming and enjoying Blue Pills.  They have made Hitler of JFK, in public view, simply through constant repetition of the Big Lie. It’s obscene.  It’s unbelievable.

If you have been thinking about thinking, now is a good time.  If you are a Muslim, Christianity is a conspiracy theory. If you are a Christian, Buddhism is conspiracy theory.  If you are an atheist, any form of theism is conspiracy theory.  And if you are a socialist, the POSSIBILITY that conservatives are not evil is also conspiracy theory.

Sometimes, when you are in the darkness, the truth seems even darker.  This is because it seems impossible, unappealing.  But on the other side is the light.  And those who would keep you in darkness can be counted on pointing out that life is dimmer “over there”, so even if you are miserable here, it MUST be much worse over there.  They themselves fear all of that.

The world we see is covered in varying degrees of shadow.  It is fascinating to contemplate.

“Darkness within darkness: the gateway to all mystery”.  (Lao Tzu)

I am working my way slowly through a book on “Psychosynthesis”.  One exercise is imagination.  Imagine your hand signing your name slowly.  Imagine a set of digits, as large as you can hold, and hold it in your inner vision for two minutes.  Imagine the smell of peppermint, the sound of crackling paper, the entirety of sense, smell, taste, sound, sight of eating bowl of yogurt with oatmeal.  Etc.

I’m pretty good with smells.  I can imagine Juniper versus Cedar versus Pine, etc.  I use essential oils most days.

But this popped in my head: Imagine your parents, as carefully as you can, without judgement.  Watch how they hold themselves, how they walk, how they smell, how they eat.  And more importantly, what is/are the dominant affect(s) or sensation(s) which you feel?  What is the feeling of this relationship like?  Do not name it.  Do not reduce it.  Feel it exactly as it is in your mind, today, which may not be truly as it was, then.

This feeling, if you can capture it pristinely, will I think be also found in your personality.  If you want to change, to move away from the patterns of your home, then identifying who and how they are in you is an important starting point.

If you invert “never listen to ‘conspiracy theorists’ because they are crazy”, what do you get?

Think about it.  What do you get?

You get TRUST THE MAINSTREAM MEDIA AND ITS APPOINTED EXPERTS ONLY.

Trust the Man.  Trust the system.  Trust that you are being told the whole truth by everyone in power, and that no one is lying to you.  Trust that no one would abuse the system, and that if they did, they would be caught and prosecuted, because our system ALWAYS works. 

Do you think this is a reasonable thing to request, much less demand? 

And if you really think about it, every Christian church is engaging in “conspiracy theory”.  They believe in an invisible God, and an absolute Hell and absolute Heaven which ALL OF US go to.  There is a whole world, an entire order, beyond what we can see, and it is vastly more important than what we CAN see.  Is this not a conspiracy theory?  Is this not called lunacy by the mainstream “experts” who are willing to speak the truth as they see it?

And you multiple conspiracies with the Pope. First you have to believe all the Christian stuff about heaven and hell and the resurrection of Christ, then that God really did appoint the Pope his vicar, then that he is telling the truth about the men in his immediate circle who have been clearly and without much doubt implicated in horrible sexual crimes against children.

That’s a whole lot of believing.

I think intelligent people, watching even their immediate circle, even the people at work, quickly come to realize that the whole truth is not only not always told, it is rare when it is.  Most of the time, somebody is lying about something, withholding information, misleading people, for a variety of reasons.

Conspiracies to conceal truths are not rare: they are continuous.  They can be small and they can be enormous.

And psychologically, I think all of us NATURALLY gravitate to the belief there is some deeper order we cannot see.  It’s something you have to fight. 

And of course the “rationalists” say we MUST fight this tendency.  But I would ask: if we lack sufficient information to form a final conclusion, as is nearly always the case, what is the benefit to jettisoning the POSSIBILITY that something really weird, really underhanded, or even really evil is in play?  Saying it is possible is not the same as saying it is happening, and intelligent people always formulate as many hypotheses as possible so as to best match the evidence as it emerges.

I think all thinking, feeling people have seen in the attacks on “conspiracy theory” a concerted propagandistic attack on unwanted truths.  Obama wanted to make his complicity in the preventable murders of Americans in Benghazi disappear by calling anyone questioning him about it a nut.  But the facts have emerged, and with the exception of Hillary Clinton, no one person shares more blame for the death of Ambassador Stephens and others than Barack Hussein Obama, who lied in the beginning, lied in the middle, and is trying to lie through distraction even now.

Ponder a population so docile, so imbecilic, that it trusts its leaders when they promise they will never lie or mislead them.

I just came across this video today: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q__bSi5rBlw

It was posted by a conservative friend, and my initial read was it was black humor in keeping with the rage many of us feel at the violence, duplicity, continual attack, and continual interference Trump and his supporters have had to deal with for many months now.

But I thought about it, and realized that this is much too well funded for home bloggers, and, more importantly, that nobody–certainly not Trump–is calling for the deportation of people here legally, which is what a green card means.

It is creative and clever, but ultimately intended to demean Trump through humor, and to insinuate manifestly wrong ideas–again, such as the idea that he opposes either legal immigration, or people who are here legally–into people’s consciousnesses.

But then I kept thinking about it, and it hit me that anger IS an appropriate response to what the Mexicans have done to us.  Let us say it is 10 million people here illegally.  Is it not perfectly reasonable for ordinary Americans to find this infuriating, the same way we would find it infuriating if we woke up one morning and a stranger, having broken in in the night, were sleeping on our couch? 

We have become so used to being attacked and demeaned for ordinary, healthy, reasonable reactions to provocations that  many of us have become emotionally numb, and been rendered helpless to respond according to righteous and reasonable instincts.

We are not only supposed to feel no anger that our hospitality has been so abused, but to welcome a nearly unlimited amount of it, which is what the No Borders crowd are calling for.  This is insanity.

As I keep saying, JFK could have been, and in large measure WAS, elected on the platform Trump ran on.  From this, we get accusations of being “literally Hitler”. 

And my GOD, if you want to talk abuse of women, Trump does not hold a candle to Kennedy.

How is it so many people are so fucking insane? 

It’s our TV culture, where people consume opinions, internalize them, own them, then flaunt them as their own. 

It’s mass society, where belonging trumps thinking, and conforming trumps trusting your own instincts. 

Its conditioned herd responses.

It is a failed educational system, which breeds inbreds as a matter of policy, fails to teach any form of adult responsibility and accountability, and encourages infantile rage, fatuous thinking when combined with strong emotion, and places the kids in charge of the madhouse.

Forget what is unimportant, and forget that you have forgotten it.

Remember what IS important, and remember to remember it.

Your mind is your tool.  But it will only build beautiful things if you use it with skill, and with intent.