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The British Empire

I will wonder out loud if the British Empire–the “white man’s burden”–could be explained as a pervasive attachment failure brought on by British child rearing methods, especially among the nobility and their genteel equivalents.
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Nazis

Being forced to deny being a Nazi is already to be the subject of Gaslighting.  It is already an assault, already an imposition, already a violence, which is being answered, but not ended, because what you are really being told is you are insane, and the insane–the accusers–see only madness everywhere but their beloved mirrors, where they see only virtue, kindness, and a quirky humor and mad sex appeal.  Ha ha ha: I can’t help it if I’m sexy.  These people love Stephen Colbert.  And he loves them nearly the way he loves himself.  It’s a sick union.  We don’t want to know the details, but it involves asses and darkness and shit.  And mirrors, always mirrors.  No one else can see you quite the way you see yourself, now can they?
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On Greatness

Watch watch:
As the Great of the world
transit sunrise to sunset.

They see themselves on noble
destriers:
their shadows show they ride
asses.

See see:
Noble of face, noble of mien:
the darkness in them shows common
cuthroats.

What is large in this world is diminished.
This is the way of the universe.

And what is small is amplified
Beyond Measure.

Take care in your steps
for
they last a very, very long
time.

And the sands
Remember.

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The secret to fear

is you must be protecting something. Nothing to protect; no fear.

Paraphrase: for unfailing calm, posit no harm. 

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Documentary you should watch

Unacknowledged, by Stephen Greer.  It’s on Netflix.

Net, net: UFO’s are real, our government has known about it for a long time, at some point and over some time frame quite literally trillions of dollars have been diverted to what amounts to a shadow government, and we have reached a point where the people running this operation have replicated and made operational alien technology, and cut most Presidents and intelligence directors out of the loop completely.

This of course sounds nuts, but the sources are mostly former high ranking officials in our military and intelligence apparatus, and Greer has many, many primary documents of apparently very good quality.

As I’ve said before, when you look at the people involved, some of them you would believe without hesitation on any other topic, such as Fife Symington, former Governor of Arizona, and if memory serves a fighter pilot–and thus Air Force Officer–in Vietnam.  He made fun of the UFO seen in Phoenix by thousands of people while in office, but later admitted he had seen it, and that it was either unknown DoD technology, or an alien spacecraft.  That interview is included.

Not everything is buttressed with enough evidence to warrant complete faith, but one does wonder why the Chinese are making a point of surveying the dark side of the moon, and what all of the motivations might be for Trump ordering a space force.

It’s beyond question that some $10 TRILLION, I think was the number, cannot be accounted for by the DoD.  Do you really think they are losing it?  This is an amount equal to the entire Federal budget for 2-3 years at current spending levels.

According to Jimmy Carter–who claims to have seen a UFO–he asked George W. Bush for the records on UFO’s when he became President, and as Director of the CIA Bush told him no.

Place all this in context, and a coverup with regard to 9/11 really seems like a pretty routine operation.

My gut tells me this is all true.  I actually had a dream one time where I saw how alien spaceships move.  What people don’t realize is that we exist in a vast ocean of energy–which they also discuss in this–and the trick to moving at any speed you want, and turning on a microdot is tunneling through the Quantum Vacuum.  If you can get the energy out of the way, then nothing opposes you. There is no force.  There is no momentum.  Perhaps there is not even mass.   Newtonian physics does not apply because in important respects you are leaving space/time.

And I will point out again, as I do from time to time, that Einstein did not in my understanding get rid of the Aether.  He just renamed it, more or less.  For space/time “curvature” to happen, there must be a space time.  Logically, if “gravity” consists in a disruption in the space/time continuum, then it is affecting the Quantum Vacuum somehow.  Anti-gravity and quantum vacuum tunneling would be related.  Gravity is perhaps the interaction of the Quantum Vacuum and the IDEA of mass, with the transmission of the IDEA of mass being translated by what manifests in our reality as the Higgs Boson.

I proposed some time ago that the connection of General Relativity and Quantum Physics can be accomplished through the equation E+i=MC squared +i, where i is information, and for information could be inserted the infinite knowledge of the Quantum Vacuum, aka Zero Point Field, aka what we may as well call God.  If the Higgs Boson is the God Particle, perhaps the ZPF is the God Field.

And if you think about it, Einstein failed in his creation of a Unified Field Theory because in the universe he wanted to live in, everything ultimately resolved down to known “bits” which he wanted to be fields.  You can get the Strong, Weak and Electromagnetic forces local.  You can get them to equal one another in both particle and wave forms.  But you can’t get gravity in there.

But what if the ENTIRE UNIVERSE is one field in which everything is local to everything else?  Could you not do it then? 

I think so.  Lots of thoughts here requiring extended digestion.

I don’t know how we survive, but we all need to keep doing what we can, where we can, to the extent we can, knowing that Fate will deal us the hand it will deal us.  Maktub.

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Karma

Karma is what is acting when you are doing nothing.

I can feel it, and how one dissolves it. I think much of this is common sense.

I’m sure I’ll say more.

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A poem

You would think
being raped you would
cry out stop. STOP.

But where is the voice?

Where is sound?

There is a cave, deep down, where
a silent breeze blows, and small
glitters of streams flow.

On the surface, there is something,
but it has no name.

And it all ends, but it doesn’t.

Comment: I have no physical experience of being raped, but emotionally, I think most of us see examples every day.  I went to a local flea market yesterday, and I looked in eyes, lots of eyes.  There is much to see, that is rarely seen.  Few of us know our neighbors.  Too few of us know our friends.  I myself seem to regularly elicit confessions of various sorts.  Perhaps they sense that their secrets don’t scare me.  In any event, I recognize them.  Oh, we all have stories, many stories.  But, it seems to me, too few songs.

I am slowly realizing my curse–someday blessing, who knows?– is perhaps to see far, far more than I want.  But I do have a cave, and that is something.

I’m awake in the middle of the night again, drinking gin.  I took my nightly punishment as long as I could, but all of us have limits, and gin is a mercy I choose to grant myself at this moment.

All of this means something.  I strongly feel I chose this life, this challenge, this difficulty, this pain.  It is mine. It belongs to me.  I chose this real estate, this condition.  And I will make something of it.  As they say, the hard gets done immediately, but the impossible takes a bit more time.

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Meditation

Meditation is bringing the sea to you.

I’ve been contemplating karma and Shunyatta the past few days, and think I might have my own way of expressing some old truths.  I’m going to let them simmer a tad longer.

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Narcissism

Would it be reasonable to define an act of narcissism as “seeing your idea of the other person, rather than the person”, and a narcissist as someone who does this habitually?

Each person has their own unique energy, but if you are looking at people and forming ideas without their input, then your picture of them will invariably be infused with your own energy, your own expectations, your own assumptions.

I have proposed before and will propose again that narcissism may link ultimately to a fear of people, to a chronic and completely unrecognized anxiety which causes people to go into an emotional tuck–to withdraw like a turtle or crab–and never come out.

Ultimately, it is a failure of perception, and I am an optimist in that I always tend to think that better perception is possible for all of us.  For those who cultivate curiosity, life never runs out of wonders, and seeing old things anew is one of the best of them.

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Anxiety

It seems to me anxiety which is continual is invisible, such that it is usually mislabeled.  It is perhaps labeled as the belief that “life is hard”, even when it isn’t, or shouldn’t be.

It can be labeled as “the world is out to get me”, which manifests as continual anger.

It can manifest depressively, since all normal actions are harder for the person who is chronically anxious.

In order to detect any chronic emotion, there have to be cycles in it.  To feel anxiety clearly, there have to be times when you don’t feel anxious, when it fades.  Then you can say “X makes me anxious”, because it stands in contrast to Y.

But if there is no Y, perceiving things clearly is next to impossible.  The healing process consists in creating Y from scratch, without experience in how to do it.  It is extremely possible, but it will inherently feel strange.

To become more sane, you must realize what part of complete sanity you had been lacking. This feels like a loss, or a disorientation, perhaps even a dizziness.

Perhaps if Sartre has pushed on, he would have found the other side of his nausea, and he would have found that the Others were him, and that he created his own hell.