Month: January 2017

Within my emerging paradigm, inner healing consists in the initial phase in what might be broadly called Cognitive Psychology.  It consists in learning to realize that much of your inner dialogue is irrational, that it does not conform to what seems to be reality, particularly as it concerns your regard for yourself.  If you find yourself feeling chronic shame for something you did not do–which seemingly exists for no reason at all–then you have identified the fruit of something else.  The feeling leads to a thought which is dysfunctional and irrational.

What then leads to the feeling?  Well, you can use psychodynamic history to EXPLAIN it, but given that this feelings is recreated consistently within your soma, within your self as embodied physically, sooner or later you have to find what I might term the “existential” component.

Within what I am finding a useful heuristic–SIFT–underlying the feeling is a static image. It might be you reaching for your mother and her turning away.  It might be a parent looking at you in anger.  It might be your father leaving the home for good when you were 4.  And of course there might be many discrete images, but my instincts tell me for most people one or two suffice.

I have in the past called these “Rosebud” moments.  They are mythic, life defining moments which might IMMEDIATELY fade into the dark recesses of the psyche, but which never, ever leave.  Rosebud was the last thing Well’s Kane thought about. He had a life of power, fame, success, experience, but he lost his connection with his core self.  Everything else was a poor substitution for it.

This is a common story, I feel.  Most of us are lost, and don’t know we are lost.  Most of us are dreaming, as Gurdjieff said, and not just with regard to “spiritual” things.  Most of us are profoundly stupid.  We pick up this and that, from the fragments of our culture, and try to keep in step with everyone else, and hope no one notices.  Meanwhile, everyone else is doing the same thing.  And the more lost people feel, the more instantaneous and complete the corrections.  You see schools of people, flipping on a dime, like fish, like birds, and with regard to ostensibly serious notions like love, justice, fairness.

Sometimes someone comes along who is even stupider than the rest, such that he or she is utterly convinced his or her mania is innately correct.  Such people can become very popular in times of mass confusion.  By design, our system discourages the emergence of such people, and was intended to greatly mute their potential power, no matter where they wound up.  Our system, of course, has been corrupted, as all great things are by time and use.

But returning to the topic, with time, patience, openness, and kind probing–and allowing, which is very important–something may emerge.  It might initially be tainted with the presence of another person.  I think for most it likely is.  Certainly, for me it was.  But over time it purifies, and you get the image with the sensations.  I do think this is a twofold pairing: feeling/thought, image/sensation.

For me the image/sensation is one of having something taken from me the moment I either reach for it, or depend on it.  This morning I had the image of a woman I know and am currently attracted to laying next to me.  The moment I grew comfortable in her presence, she disappeared.  And in a more pure form, I can place anything on a table, in a spot called the  Disappearing Spot, and the moment I lean in–this is the sensation–it is taken from me.  The sensations are a leaning in and sudden leaning out in surprise, a tension in my solar plexus, a bit of dizziness in my head–let’s call it vertigo, and the sudden blankness of dissociation (which does have a feeling tone).

If I pull myself back out of dissociation, the feeling is one of profound and utterly unassailable solitude.  I am alone in the universe.  Nothing out there, no one out there, can ever be real for me.  It is maddening.  I live in an illusory world.

Does this sound like something a Sartre, or perhaps a Charles Schultz in his analogy of Charlie Brown and the football, might have described?  This is not a unique problem.  What is unique is that I have gotten there in a fairly pure form.  Most people disguise this–and if I might put a term on it which I have used before, this Developmental Trauma–in ways we simply call “life”.  Every craziness has a reason.  Every form of insanity has a logic.  No one is fully insane.  There is a spark in all of us.

And I want to be clear that this is progress.  This is not where you STOP.  Jesus, no.  Having gotten to this image/sensation, I am going to go into it as consciously and regularly as I can.  I can use my brain, my thinking, my learning and study, to realize that this feeling–which manifests broadly as what could perhaps most usefully be called shame, even if this is not an exhaustive word for a mutable and complex emergence–can be allowed to dissolve.

I really like my Mobility Meditation, which is really a modified form of Kum Nye.  It is underplayed, and apparently underpracticed, but Tarthang Tulku obviously saw all this in the 1970’s when he wrote the first books.  Massage is actually taught before movement, and I now see why.

The way he teaches it, though, is subtle, mostly, although he does have very strong belly massage.  But in my own case the disconnection is so powerful, the underlying patterns so strong, that I need REALLY strong activation and elicitation, so my foam rollers, lacrosse balls and other tools work better for me at the moment.

I like to burn incense, traditional incense, where you have a brazier, put a charcoal piece on there which you have lit, then put the actual resins on there.  I have Dragon’s Blood, a Kashmir Mix, a Celtic mix, frankincense, and actual Sandalwood shavings.  You can fill the room with smoke from the ceiling to 4′ or so off the floor.  It is mood altering, and good for this work.  I have to temporarily unplug the smoke detector of course.

And I put on evocative music.  I like Bach.  Sometimes Vangelis.  Sometimes Steven Halpern.

One last point: for most of us, heroes represent an image/sensation combination that creates a moving-towards for a free system, for a liberated psyche.  We see that person, and imagine how it must feel to be them.

All of humanity’s problems can be solved.  All of them.

No sane person wants to live in a police state.  No sane person wants to be told where they can work, what they can eat, where they can go, who they can or can’t marry, what they can or can’t say or believe.

Leftism is inherently an impulse for total control.  It might start out rhetorically mild, but the core knows that some of their ideas will not be popular, and that some people will resist.  To correct this “problem”, they use force.  The force, in turn, creates a further reaction.

Every turn of the screw creates more objections, more protest, and more repression.

What Leftists CANNOT accept is sustained peace and prosperity untainted by government control.  They need war, economic disasters, mass unemployment, crime in the streets.

This is why systemic problems of the real, versus imagined, sort, cannot and will not EVER be solved by anyone obsessed with dreams of turning society into an operational machine they control.  France has to have mass unemployment and crime.  The United States has to have its ghettos.

Black Lives Matter could quite easily be viewed not as a means of correcting problems, but of preventing their correction.  It acts to prevent rational dialogue about the REAL problems in black communities.  It acts to damage relations between police and those they are supposed to protect, which creates an even higher crime rate, and further following reliance on elitist Democrats to “save” them.

The people we need in our highest offices are not people who are trying to save the world.  We need people who view peace and prosperity as normal, as the proper way for things to be, and deviations from the norm real problems requiring sound solutions that work consistently, efficiently, and quickly.  We have not had such people in enough high places for a very long time.  I would estimate at least since the 1950’s, and a better guess would be the 1920’s.  And absent the Fed and fractional reserve banking, the Crash of 1929 never would have happened.  Hitler never would have come to power, and no second World War would ever have been fought.

http://www.frontpagemag.com/fpm/265515/isis-burns-mother-and-four-children-joseph-klein

Read this if you have a strong stomach, i.e. if you are not an Obama loving piece of shit and actually retain a capacity for revulsion in the face of real crimes.

Here is the only point I will make: Obama, Hillary, and John Kerry CREATED this group which commits these horrific, unimaginable crimes. They did so to pursue Saudi interests, as far as I can tell. All three are in my view guilty of contributing to mass murder and cruelty unimaginable to the fashionable children in this benighted nation who think mere words can hurt.

Criminality became the norm under Obama, as did lying, evidence destruction, and obstruction of justice in many forms. Not unreasonably, those culpable for these crimes felt immune, safe. And why not? Neither Holder nor Lynch were ever going to investigate anything.

But for most crimes the statute of limitations is 7 years. That means most of the crimes in BOTH terms can still be prosecuted. And SHOULD be.

Im having a hard time wrapping my brain around people believing propaganda that would have embarrassed IngSoc.

Be that as it may, one very important element of the election I have seen ZERO commentary on was the O’Keefe sting videos.  Obviously the media buried them, but they had the seemingly very important outcome of forcing the firing or resignations of the core of Hillarys dirty tricks team (does that make anyone else think of Nixons plumbers, but worse?).

One of them went so far as to tweet that she lost the election when she got rid of him. That may not have been hyperbole. Plainly much cheating happened anyway, and in the close States just a bit more cheating might have turned the tide.

Hillary ran a terrible csmpsign, was a terrible candidate, and had less charisma than Nixon. She deserved to lose and was only made competitive by relentless and aggressive propaganda, a dumbed down electorate, and LARGE piles of cash given on a quid pro quo basis. This is the truth.

Edit: as I think about it, the likeliest reason Hillary parted company with folks who had s long history of success is SHE DIDNT THINK SHE NEEDED THEM. By all accounts, she and her staff seem to have conflated polls they should have known wee skewed with reality.

I’m reminded of Faith Hill and the Grammies, but with a lot more profanity and drinking in Hillarys case. I hope she doesn’t have s dog.

She’s not really the dog type is she? I’m thinking more like piranhas and barracudas she can feed chum to every time she gets pissed.

Inciting a riot is a crime, likely a serious felony, if anyone is hurt. Those Democrat operatives who created the riot in Chicago can still be prosecuted, as can anyone calling for violence on Friday or this weekend.

It is appropriate Bill Ayers will be there to see the end of his era.

Trump is no Nixon: he is much more likeable. He has a Republican Congress, a clear mandate, and his opponents have been forced into INVENTING the galvanizing issues–racism, chicks with dicks using the women’s room, misogyny–none of which he is guilty of.

There is no Vietnam War. There is no youth movement worthy of the name. There is nothing in the sails of the haters BUT hate, and that won’t go very far. Already I am starting to see “former Progressive” in more and more comments.

Hate is such a dull place to live.

We don’t want a saint.  We want solutions.

Communism is a creed which seeks as a matter of principle the enslavement of the mass majority of people, their relegation to profound poverty, their psychological torture by means of unrelenting and unavoidable lies, their social alienation by breaking up their families and desecrating their cultural history and current faith, and the elevation of a small elite to positions of wealth and power which are unassailable, being protected by a vast police and surveillance state.  It is profoundly atavistic, in that it constitutes a de facto return to the conditions which prevailed under the Pharaoh’s of Egypt, but since it is based on lies, it calls this “progress”.

This is the creed professed, whether they admit it or not, whether they KNOW it or not, by the people who will be inhabiting Washington on Friday and doing their best to attack our bedrock institutions, including the long tradition of the peaceful transition of power which they were lauding–because they were told to–as recently as the day of the election.

And I want to be clear that they are already the People of the Lie, as M. Scott Peck labeled destructive narcissists and sociopaths.  They have already internalized the ability to believe anything they are told, to reconcile seamlessly grotesque contradictions, and to reliably inhale and exhale hate, anger, and violence towards anyone who does not think like them.  They will be, clinically, a horde of fascists.

And of course, the threats may not materialize, but given the relentless propaganda, given the patent failures of Democrat leaders–notably Barry and Hillary–to make even token efforts to restrain them, given the blatant full blown amygdala hijacks plainly visible everywhere, it seems like it will be an interesting day for the police.  With luck, maybe they will get some “stick time”.  I personally would like to see some of these demented, democracy-hating creatures get whacked around.  They intend nothing but destruction, feel little but hate.  They embody, in fact, EVERYTHING they accuse us of, and that is an ugly, ugly picture indeed.

I’m watching some of these videos of planned violence by the Left, and I’m wondering how vegan momma’s boys will fare against combat veterans, or even country boys who grew up getting in bare knuckle fights (and some of whom continue the tradition as adults).

These people, because they are largely protected by police, and largely unmolested by them, think they are tough in groups.  They don’t know what they don’t know.  It’s like somebody thinking they can box until they get clocked (true story in my case: I’ve seen the lights).  They don’t understand from personal experience that saying “everybody has a plan until they get hit”.

The vast majority of Americans have been tolerant. We have held our tongues, and checked our impulses of rage and violence, because we are decent human beings (who don’t want to go to jail, either).

And that history may not change.  But it is clear to me at least that if things are pushed to a certain point, these children will find out who they are fucking with, and they won’t like it.  There are a LOT of people in this country skilled and experienced in dealing out professional grade violence.

(Not me, to be clear!!!  Although I perhaps have more experience than many.  I’ve been in fights.  I’ve been kicked in the balls, punched in the kidney (very interesting experience one does not forget), gotten a black eye, nearly knocked out twice, choked so hard it hurt to swallow for three days, and did martial arts training for many years that left bruises all over my body, but none of that really counts, relative to combat veterans, and people who think a weekend isn’t complete without a fight.  Still, I guess I wouldn’t fuck with me.)

A third of the electorate just dropped off the map.  They are still there, of course, but they are not reachable.  They are gone, for all practical intents and purposes.  They have signaled they will not cooperate with Trump in any way, for any reason, for any aim.

As I continue to say in slightly different ways, this is actually a great blessing.  There is no need to include them in negotiations, no need to consult their opinions, no reason to return the phone calls of the people who represent them, no reason not to do EXACTLY what the 2/3rd’s of sane Americans want, which is bring back jobs, get us back to the health insurance we had, at least, enact a sane border policy, keep out people who want to kill us, put in place on the Supreme Court people who understand and respect the actual law, etc.

Trump had roughly 58 worst weeks ever.  He survived more scandals–most of them manufactured from whole cloth–than I can count.  There is little he could do or say to truly affect his REAL support, other than fail to follow through on his promises.

Fuck the Left.  They marched out of the room in disgust, and there is no reason to let them back in.

And to be clear, hyperpartisanship is what Obama led with in his first term.  Not only did no Republicans vote for Obamacare, I don’t think any even got invited to the discussions.

What could the Left possibly offer to induce Trump to consider them?  They hate him.  They hate everything about him.  They severed the lines of communication.  So fuck them.

The media, of course, will keep doing what it does.  But self evidently, it wasn’t enough to keep Trump from getting elected, and it won’t be enough to keep him from increasing his popularity–his REAL popularity, as they keep trying to fix polls and drive opinion on that basis–as he moves from success to success.