Month: October 2016

I was thinking about all this.  I added to it the 2 gay men in Obama’s church who were gunned down, in their apartments, “execution style” and no arrests or leads or motive ever uncovered.

As someone who retains in their conscious awareness the notion that much of history has CONSISTED in conspiracies of various sorts, I see no reason to believe that in the modern era this has somehow ceased to be the case.   I not only see no reason to trust the “information age” in the main–although it clearly has opened up websites and ideas which were much more hidden in the past–but see plenty of reason to believe that the centralization of the control of information has made it EASIER to cover things up.  People trust the media, so all you have to do is buy the media.

But a key error people trying to piece together hidden patterns and knowledge of various sorts–I am trying to avoid using the phrase “conspiracy theorist” and realizing at this moment how INTERESTING it is that the Left is trying to get people to conflate it with “kook”–make is that they assume all actions are interwoven seamlessly and that one group controls all the levers.

I was wondering specifically about my own safety. It is not impossible I have some influence and that it might be more convenient to someone if I were dead.  How the process of killing me and making sure you got away with it work?

And here is what presented itself to me:  What if there exists a business whose sole purpose is covering up the crimes of others?  What if they buy and train people and spend decades getting them into the right places?  What if they use people they have placed previously in order to build the careers of their replacements?  It would be a self sustaining operation.  The people in place get guaranteed careers, and hidden perks of some sort, and cash or other payouts if and when they are needed.

It is quite possible the people who put Obama in place differ in their interests and goals from those who want to put Hillary in place, but both might need people removed here and there, and both might go to the same operator in the shadows, whose name is only known to a few.

They organize their own operations, but to be sure they get away with it, they use Organization X, whose members they will never know, and don’t care about.  But they have police detectives working for them, politicians, administrators, Federal investigators of various sorts, and given enough notice, they can be sure their people respond to planned events of various sorts.

I have never seen quite this idea out there.  I will say I am feeling quite good about things in general, and my life is going well.  My tires on my car are good, and my overall health and agility quite sound.

The audience laughed.  They love Joy.  They love all the girls.  They love their high spirited discussions, their compassion, their soul.  They feel with them.

And the whole thing is bullshit.

It should astonish me–but regrettably it doesn’t–that ALL THE TACTICS AND WORDS YOU ARE NOT SUPPOSED TO USE WITH RAPE VICTIMS ARE BEING USED BY THE LEFT IN REFERENCE TO BILL AND HILLARY’S VICTIMS.

We are being told they asked for it, they are sluts, they are lying.  Do you see that this shows the fundamentally superficial level of understanding and actual compassion on these issues?  People are not GETTING that rape is wrong, and that victims need compassion.  They have simply been coerced through social pressure into using WORDS in certain contexts in socially approved ways.  That is IT.

This is the thing: you cannot get understanding through bullying.  You cannot built social empathy through force. You cannot build a healthy, robust, genuinely diverse society through intimidation.  And we don’t have one.  We are not a mature society.  We are not grown ups, able to deal with a variety of thoughts and ideas and ways of life in a genuinely tolerant, open hearted, open minded way.

Far from it: we are a nation of morally and emotionally and intellectual superficial drones who have simply been trained like Pavlovian dogs to repeat uncritically whatever they see on TV.  Without TV, without continuous reinforcement, they don’t know WHAT to do.

If Juanita Broaddrick were accusing Donald Trump of rape, and she was up there crying while being retraumatized telling her story, not one eye in that audience would be dry, guaranteed.

Walk up to the average Hillary voter (and obviously I think most Trump supporters are sane, since voting for Hillary is insane), and ask them “what do you think about X?”, and they may as well respond “I don’t know.  Let me turn on the TV and I’ll tell you in a minute.”  This is literally true.

And we need to be clear the professional Left–the core the Cultural Sadeist conspiracy–KNOWS THIS.  We read from Wikileaks:

“And as I’ve mentioned, we’ve all been quite content to demean government, drop civics and in general conspire to produce an unaware and compliant citizenry,”   From here: http://www.infowars.com/clinton-campaign-email-outlines-effort-to-produce-an-unaware-and-compliant-citizenry/

Back in the 1950 sociologist David Riesman wrote a book titled “The Lonely Crowd”.   He talked about the evolution of sense of self from tradition, to inner directed (the people who wrote the Constitution, and who were true Liberals, because they valued and understood the importance of freedom for self development), to what he called “other directed”.  In their summary, Wikipedia has this to say:

Riesman and his researchers found that other-directed people were flexible and willing to accommodate others to gain approval. Because large organizations preferred this type of personality, it became indispensable to the institutions that thrived with the growth of industry in America. As Riesman writes, “The other-directed person wants to be loved rather than esteemed,” not necessarily to control others but to relate to them. Those who are other-directed need assurance that they are emotionally in tune with others. By the 1940s, the other-directed character was beginning to dominate society. Today the triumph of this type of social personality is complete. If one applies the other-direction criteria to everyday actors as portrayed in modern culture, for example, the other-directed person is easy to identify.^{[original research?]} 

This defined the middle class that no longer had the material needed to cling to past life standards to form a cohesive society. But since the other-directed could only identify themselves through references to others in their communities (and what they earned, owned, consumed, believed in) they inherently were restricted in their ability to know themselves. Riesman’s book argues that although other-directed individuals are crucial for the smooth functioning of the modern organization, the value of autonomy is compromised. The Lonely Crowd also argues that society dominated by the other-directed faces profound deficiencies in leadership, individual self-knowledge, and human potential.

As I think about it, could you find a better summation of why we have the two candidates we have?  One, a career criminal and apparently psychopathic liar, and the other an intellectually superficial man whose main virtue is that he does his own thing even when, in our other directed society, considerable pressure is placed on him to conform.  He may be a narcissist.  I don’t know.  But he is his own man.  You might say he is his own brand.  He stands out, and that is unusual.

But can you see the absolutely obvious connection between doublethink and “other direction”?  When the evidence of your eyes and the words of those around you conflict, what do you do?  You believe the people and the words. There remains no principle–not even the idea of a principle–to which you can refer for an alternative possibility.

[This reminds me of a very short Sufi teaching story: “Last night a voice whispered to me in the dark ‘there is no such thing as voices whispering in the dark.'”]

This is why the women in the audience laughed at Behar–they had no other choice.  Should they have stood up and booed?  Likely.  But then they would have been DISLIKED.

Other direction is inherently callow and superficial.  You cannot cling to any one emotion or view too strongly, or when it changes, when the mood and needs of the media change, you might find yourself alone, adrift, lost in unfamiliar emotional seas.

Self evidently, I am strongly inner directed.  This is my great virtue.  I am prepared to spend my life alone in order to see the world with my own eyes, to feel my own emotions. to know my own self.  This is the PURPOSE OF LIFE.  This is why we are here.  We are not here to mimic others.  We are certainly not here to be the playthings and tools of self absorbed psychopaths.

I will make one last comment: the Republican Party is now ALSO dominated by Other Directed people.  It has become a plaything of the Left, to be manipulated, now, almost at will.  Read this column by former conservative George Will: https://www.washingtonpost.com/opinions/donald-trumps-vile-candidacy-is-chemotherapy-for-the-gop/2016/10/10/73e40f30-8f05-11e6-9c85-ac42097b8cc0_story.html?utm_term=.929b4c0a6d50&wpisrc=nl_popns&wpmm=1 

Back in the 1950’s William F. Buckley, Jr. stated his aim as getting the most conservative viable candidate in office. This is a simple and reasonable proposition.

What you will note is that Will made no mention of policies: no mention of Hillary’s criminality, no mention of the future of our country when it is dominated by an activist and judicially perverted Supreme Court, no mention of the future of Republicans when tens of millions of illegal aliens are naturalized, and tens of millions more allowed in in her Open Borders policy.

No: Trump is tacky, and supporting him puts Will at risk of being socially tainted by someone who compares very favorably in every respect to John F. Kennedy, and for that matter, Bill Clinton.

This is not principle, other that of not identifying with socially unacceptable people, with the society in that phrase being largely defined by Will himself.

As an alleged conservative, he is actively conspiring to give Democrats a final victory.   Fuck him, fuck all of them.  They believe nothing.  We have become a nation of Other Directed butterflies.

Too many of us, at any rate.  There remain many good Americans.  At question is if there are enough.

I would like to say I am gratified to see Assange back in operation.

At the moment, Wikileaks is the spice of our political life.  Perhaps the leavening too.

I will be honest: my own personal development has reached the point that I think I can do useful things in the next few years.  I just need time.  America needs time.  Hillary is the end game for the globalists. They thought they had it with Obama, but he is basically a pussy, even with Jarrett pushing him, and he is lazy.

If she gets elected, there will not be IMMEDIATE change for the worse, but little things will pile up, one after the other, and eventually most Americans will start questioning their own sanity if the fail to buy into the heavy, heavy propaganda which will accompany her Presidency.

We need to be clear, these billionaires, in their numerous mansions, have time.  They KNOW, because they are intelligent, that Fabian tactics work, if not opposed effectively, and that all they need is time and consistency.

We need to deny them time and consistency as well as we can.

Nibiru, as should obviously be taught to all schoolchildren, is an invisible planet which is going to destroy humanity thirteen years ago.  Well, it may be that that hypothesis might not have proven fully accurate, but I think the idea is an interesting one.

Let us suppose, counter-factually, that there was a planet sized object circling our Sun with a trajectory that is COMPLETELY different than that of all other planets.  Let us further suppose that it is invisible.  Lots of planets are invisible.  Happens all the time.  How many of them can you see?  None.  That proves my point. If you could see them they wouldn’t be invisible.

Now, as I continue to channel my inner Leftist intellectual urges, let us use this as a METAPHOR, as I think I have done in the past, but I can’t remember, for primal traumas which affect everything, but are invisible.  This part is serious.  I think humor is an Emergent Property of emotional conflict and feeling trapped.  It is a way of untrapping yourself.  Believe it or not, I can actually be quite funny.  I make people laugh.  Not sure if it comes from a healthy place, though.

Be that as it may, as we continue to circle with and like Nibiru–and I am now recalling for sure I’ve used this metaphor in the past six months–much psychological work revolves around beginning to notice patterns in your own behavior which are compulsive.  Why did I do that?  I don’t know.  Any guesses?  No, not really.

And as inner work continues, you notice these episodes, where some hidden program starts to run, and it is in some respects like watching someone else.  What is he doing now?  Why did he do that?

I am listening to Dan Siegels Mindsight, and he too talks about psychological parts, and adds the interesting idea that they need to be integrated in three ways: within themselves, between themselves, and in interactions with other actual people.

And he add the further interesting idea that a healthy self is a sort of coalition of parts.  It is a group of, in some respects, disparate parts, choosing to work together for a common goal.

Well, for some of us, some bastard is sitting in the middle feeding all the secrets to the 1960’s Russians.  Wherever you are, they always have your coordinates.  I see this in dreams.

But on a long drive the other day, I found what my shaking and anxiety and shame was trying to hide from me.  And I’m not going to talk about it.  I am simply going to say it had a valid story.  It was doing something legitimate, and to the extent one can speak of underlying gestalts when speaking of unconscious processes, noble.

This is good.

And wandering around Walgreen’s tonight, to buy some of the Fisherman’s Friend lozenges I am addicted to and some red hot Cheeto’s, I got to thinking about emotional superficiality.  It is MUCH, MUCH easier to control people politically who exist intellectually on a superficial, but even more important on an emotionally superficial, level.

Gut instinct is a real thing. It will penetrate the most carefully crafted BS, if it is allowed to operate, and if it is listened to.  That is why Trump is in this race, and still stands a good chance of winning it: ordinary people smell rats.  I was reading today that Jerry Falwell’s son, who is a Trump supporter, claims to have more than a hunch that the Trump audio was released by REPUBLICANS.  Please keep in mind that the last two nominees–McCain and Romney–as well as George H.W. at least (I could keep closer tabs on all this, but it disgusts me more than a little) have in effect endorsed Hillary Rob’em Clinton. (I couldn’t resist that, but will now slap my hand for going there).

But subordinary people–which by and large is to say the educated upper middle decadent class–sees nothing.  They feel nothing.  Their bullshit detectors are not operational.

What they feel is emotionality.  What they feel is sentimentality.  What they feel are superficial, labile emotions that can be manipulated like the score of a movie track.  That ARE manipulated like a movie track.

I was reading some nonsense from Sean Penn in a book in some stationary store.  And if you look at his picture, he has a worn face, and can easily carry the expression of someone who has led a deep and meaningful life.  But my sense is that when he has his “Tree of Life” moment, he is really wondering inside: “I need to stop eating meatloaf.  It really fucks my stomach up.  To the left?  Sure.  Look deep. Feel deep.  I wonder if Halle Berry is single?  You know, I’ve never seen a tornado.  Sadness?  Sure.  Think about dogs.  Dogs are real, man, real as real dogs get.  They get run over, and that is fucked up.  Cut.”

And I was thinking that deep emotions need three things: attention, time, and space.

Attention: if you are looking at your phone continually, turning the TV on when you get up, and go to sleep with it on at night, you are not paying attention to yourself.  If you are not taking quiet time regularly to allow things to rise up, to emerge like faint will ‘o wisps from who knows where, and welcoming them, and allowing them to do what they need to do, then you are compulsive.  If you are compulsive, you have placed yourself on a continuum with Skinner’s rats. You are TRAINED, are you not?

Time is of course related.  Do you have weeks where you do little, where by contemporary American standards you are lazy?  How willing are you to lay around, not drunk, not chasing women or men, but just watching the waves or clouds for hours at a time?

I was feeling very relaxed the other day, and wondering what it would have been like to be at some kind of trading post or inn in Central Asia, and to go days without seeing anyone new.  To just sit there, in the sun, watching the sky, all day.  Doing chores as needed, reading a bit.  Not worried.  Not in a hurry.  With the sky a big partner in your life.

Finally, space.  How do you separate yourself from worry?  How hemmed in are you by social obligations, by financial problems, by work, by continual stresses of various sorts?  There needs to be daylight between you and all that if you are going to be able to allow your inner self to emerge.

And I look at our modern world, and it is virtually–and perhaps literally–calculated to make people stupid.

I was at a concert the other night watching people, and when I allow it–which is rare–I am absolutely an Empath.  It is horrible.  It is fantastic, too, but you cannot look at some crowds and not see horror story after horror story.  Or so it seemed to me.  I felt the anxiety.  I felt the manias.  I felt the dissociation.  I felt the alienation.  And I don’t think it was me.  It was not projection.  It was identification with all the countless myriads of feelings that I have felt.

Ah, that is enough for now.  Perhaps it will prove of some use to someone.

These would include whether or not they have a job, their husband (or wife) has a job, and how well that job pays.  As has been demonstrated ad nauseum in far, far more experiments than have been needed to reach a firm and irrefutable conclusion, you do not get jobs created by telling job creators to create jobs, and you do not get higher paying jobs by telling them to pay more.  Nor can you do this by making them government employees, who must necessarily exist either as burdens on the taxpayers–or, through credit or inflation–as burdens on the children of the fucking geniuses who voted the system in.

Women’s issues would include whether or not their children live in political freedom, have the freedom of speech, and whether or not they have freedom of opportunity.

Women’s issues would include the ability to choose a doctor you like,and not keep a doctor you don’t like.  If Hillary wins, the contraction of actual healthcare in this country will continue.  Fewer doctors will enter the field, and more will leave.

Women’s issues would include their OWN ability to speak unpopular truths, to stand up to law breaking by the government, and to control their own destinies, all of which are at considerable risk–and which will certainly be lost if we fall into the Orwellian precipice we are teetering on.

The ability to determine what is important and what is not is a function of effective thinking.  Such thinking necessarily includes all relevant factors, and as much time as possible, which is to say as much of the future of present policies as can readily be foreseen.

We already live in a world of ubiquitous covert surveillance and more or less complete propagandistic saturation.  That is Step One.  All that is needed to complete our transition into an American Oceania is to start punishing dissidents and censoring the few remaining non-conforming news outlets.

To point out the obvious, the debate started on the Trump audio, and it ended with most people not even remembering it.  Trump pounded Hillary continually on substantive issues, like the failure of Obamacare, like her breaking law with regard both to HAVING the email server in the first place, and perhaps most egregiously, deleting massive quantities of emails AFTER receiving a subpoena from Congress.

This whole audio has now been framed in a way which makes it impossible for Hillary to attack Trump with it with the effectiveness they otherwise would have had.  He had 4 women in the audience who were all victims of the Clintons.  Every time she opens her mouth about Donald’s talk–I am tempted to call it indiscreet, but he didn’t know he was being recorded–she can’t thereby call herself a supporter of women.  She isn’t.  Kathy Shelton says otherwise, and there is ZERO question about the facts of her case.

(I find it interesting on that that the “fact checkers”–which is to say paid propagandists, whose job is to spin without mostly falling into overt and demonstrable lies–say that a part of the case was that prosecutors “mishandled” evidence.  If you listen to the Hillary tape, she was a key part of that.  She got some expert in getting evidence–in this case blood and semen stained underwear, which would have been damning-declared inadmissable, to get a key piece of evidence ruled inadmissable, using a technicality.  She was every bit the slimy, unethical defense attorney most of us detest.)

According to focus group moderator Frank Luntz, this was a DECISIVE victory for Trump, who came in looking finished, and emerged a winner.  That is what most Americans want in a President.  What the sane among us do NOT want is someone who has demonstrated clear patterns of law breaking, habitual lying, and highly abusive political corruption and de facto bribe taking.

In Leftist mythology everyone who is not an educated, effeminate, affluent, and chronically guilty white person is the Other.  In dealing with all Others but conservatives, the blanket assumption is made that they are homogeneous, absolutely virtuous, and that all their problems stem from interactions with the bad white people.

The truth, of course, is that Others come in all shapes and sizes, beliefs, backgrounds, etc., are highly heterogenous, and quite often create their own problems, then make them worse.

With respect to this election, it occurs to me that as bad as that audio plays in white decadent America, it may well earn Trump RESPECT in black and Hispanic America.  Both cultures are highly sexist, with black culture likely best labeled highly misogynistic.  Certainly, hip hop is.

Trump may well emerge with significantly HIGHER support, especially among black and hispanic men. He is an OG, a playa.

I haven’t seen this phrase yet.  Educated upper middle class white Americans seem to be developing a type of virtue signalling oriented around apologies.  If someone claims “offense”, the offender MUST immediately apologize, or they are labeled non-compliant dissidents (which is to say whatever -ist, plus a couple more thrown in for good measure, is relevant).

This is a form of emotional abuse, because in many cases the “crime” is not recognized as such by the offender.

Both Tim Kaine and Hillary made as much as they could of Trumps refusal to apologize very much.  He did apologize for the “male bullshit” comments, but they wanted so much more.

I think his instincts are good on this.  How often have we seen good candidates like, say, Herman Cain, forced into positions of abject shame by the Apology Police? We accused you, they say, NOW YOU BOW!!!!!

Trump is thinking “fuck these people”.  Yes, of course, there is a role for courtesy to play in all this, but that is not the way this game is played.  They are not asking for common courtesy, and they are SURE AS FUCK not extending it.  They are demanding the right to dictate the rules of engagement, and by doing so, an enormous advantage in the overall social and political dynamic.

You can’t play games by other peoples rules and expect to win.

Trump chose, as I recall, when the subject of apologies came up, to transition to the emails, which was likely good, because it brought the whole server thing up, and he pounded her with it.

But has Hillary apologized to the families of those who fell in Benghazi for calling them liars?  Did she ever apologize to Kathy Shelton or Juanita Broaddrick?  The list of people she owes apologies to is much longer than I care to get into at the moment.  Hell, did she ever apologize to Paula Jones for calling her, as I recall “Trailer trash”?  They were all right there.

If you have one standard for your people, and another for people who are different from you, that is tribalism.  It is not principle based morality.

The most brilliant invention of the West is the notion of universally applicable principles, and particularly that of human rights.  No nation or society before that of modern Europe thought to treat people of differing backgrounds, beliefs, races, and sexes equally as a matter of principle.

The Romans were good about applying law evenly, but Romans had more rights than non-Romans, and slavery was still common.

When the Left goes into paroxysmal spasms about Trump talking about being a stud, they can’t immediately condone Bill for similar but demonstrably worse behavior. I already saw some presumable sensitive man who went to Yale post “what did Broaddrick think was going to happen when she invited Bill to her hotel room”.  Put that comment in the mouth of a conservative and you get the finale of “The Kingsmen”.

And we need to be clear: Bill Clinton has ALREADY been the President of the United States.  For two terms.  You cannot talk about putting Hillary into the White House without talking about putting Bill back in the White House.

And psychologically, it is very appropriate to point to the psychopathology of a relationship built on lies, built on Bill cheating continuously.  I think on some level we all know Hillary is emotionally sick, but just put yourself in her shoes, as a psychologically normal person.  Would you not have divorced him decades ago?  Women, any reading this?  Would you have put up with it?  There was never any question about the fact of it.

Why didn’t she?  Insane ambition.  She has a HUGE desire for her own power, for the ability to boss people around and swear at them with impunity, to make people fear her.  Nothing was going to get in the way of that, and Bill’s peccadillos were obviously just problems to be solved for her.  Trash the bimbos and shut them up was her strategy, and UNTIL TODAY, because of Donald Trump and the courage of some of the women involved, IT WORKED.

But Trump made it impossible to keep all this out of mainstream, kicking and screaming, trying to spin and largely failing, mass media.

That 12 year old girl is now much older, and she had this to say: “I don’t care if Trump said gross things. I care that Hillary Clinton lied, terrorized, & mocked me, defending my rapist.”

http://www.infowars.com/donald-trump-speaks-with-bill-clintons-victims-ahead-of-second-debate/

I want to point out the courage of these women.  They are no doubt private people, who really would prefer not to revisit all this unpleasantness.  Especially Kathy, who until now had avoided media attention.  My best guess is the reason they are doing it is they really, really, really hate both of them, fear them, and want to do everything in their power, even if it scares the shit out of them, to be sure Hillary is not entrusted with power again.